Well its almost a week later and so far ive gotten Mae to lose most of the weight she gained by going to that house!! She still has one more pound to go before she can get back to last weeks weight.

I called my mom to tell her the good news! We are serious about her not gaining weight! We are serious about keeping her healthy! The only person not on the same page...yes, you guessed it! The person who provided half her genes!

My mom wants to know what he feeds her. Um duh! Pizza rolls(like 15 at a time last i knew), regular pizza, and who knows what else!! I know at home its hard for me to control what goes in her mouth because of my grandpa.

He wants to give her whatever she wants so she wont cause a fuss! Well screw that, she can cause a fuss! There is NO WAY i am going to end up with one of those Maury kids! Which is where she is headed if I dont change things! The reason i say I is because it seems like im the only one who really gives a crap!

There is no reason for her to gain anything more than a pound or two a day, thats because of her daily food intake. But when you weigh her in the morning she should be back to where she was. Which is what WAS going on at my house!

Like i said ive gotten her back down, but it sucks! Ive gotten her kind of retrained when it comes to meal time. Instead of asking for seconds she is now asking for fruit. Yes! Something is going the right way.

She loves grapes, but you cant give her a ton. She loves the clementine oranges. She gets one! Yesterday however, i did give in and gave her an ice cream. Yes i know, bad bad. BUT she hasnt had any "treats" and she did eat some of her dinner which she totally hated. Welfare Tuna n Noodles. It was good to the rest of us lol, but she choked down her dinner. BUT...i didnt give her the ice cream treat till WAY after we had dinner!

Weight is really easy to put on, hard as hell to take off. Im sooo tired of being the only one(outside my family) who actually gives a shit.

While ive been told by other people that its a good thing i didnt get the Subway job, maaan, i really wish i could have because then i could have stopped visitation at that house! I would have felt bad for Mae if that would have happened, but i would have gotten over it because its in her best interest.

I hate having to make the hard choices! And part of that is that i have to keep my crap job and work saturdays. Which means i need daycare. God...seriously...when will that jackass figure it out that her health is important and that doing things MY way is what is best for her?

I know the answer, its all about control for the jackass. Control is something that is sorely lacking at that place. All that the jackass has tried and continues to try to control HURTS my child. But i cant change the jackass, and i have to accept that he does not give a shit about his child, just like the other 2 he abandoned. Maybe we will get lucky and he will abandon Mae and then he can tell whoever will listen to how horrible the mom is and thats why he doesnt see her too!

Grrr heres to more venting!