As you know my mom and I had a HUGE blow up. Today it went to a new level of insanity! We had the final walk through of the house and I even put a pic up on facebook. After that my mom and dad are all like we have to talk to you.
Oh what the fuck now? Seriously isn't everything all fucked up as it is? So it seems that the amount of money needed for this deal lol didn't quite take up all of my inheritance. They came up with a plan for the rest of the money. While I wouldn't mind having more money lol I do like their plan. They thought they should get me a big flat screen tv for the new house. Yup I'll take it! However...isn't there always a however? However, my muffler/exhaust is making seriously bad noises and it should be fixed before winter. Especially since my new garage is in the alley and Iowa gets winter. So my dad says I should be able to get the tv and my muffler fixed.
Did I mention that my house payment is so low I can afford cheap cable? No net, but cable would be nice lol.
So later this afternoon my mother calls me. Considering the way things have been, even with the tv announcement, I choose to not answer the call. She called a little later and I again chose to not answer the call. I have voicemail and text if she really needs something. Well she wants me to call her. Dutiful daughter that I am, yes thats partial sarcasm, I called her back and more insanity.
She wants to know if Mae and I want to go out to dinner with her. Maybe go look at the tv blah blah. Then next thing I know she's crying because Mae and I are moving out and blah blah...seriously you were just bitching me out 2 days ago.
The new garage is getting put up and things are changing all over the place for everyone. Tomorrow the work starts and it sucks. Maybe after its all said and done I'll be more excited but right now all this does is make me want to puke lol.
Yes I'm excited but the sheer weight of the responsibility sucks. Before I could fuck up, I was young enough to have time to make up for it. Now..nope I have to be more of a grown up then the kid I am lol. But that's ok because so far it's not been a bad gig. The pay is much better too lol.
I'm a little crazier then usual right now and poor Dawn has gotten the calls. I figured call the sick girl try to cheer her up with my insanity. Ohh and she's really nice about letting me be a big whiny ass lol.
Anyways the library has the net, my phone gets facebook, and I have text lol. I won't be too far away lol but its going to be a whole new ride. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Not even close
I am not even close to being packed up. Hell as it is Thursday afternoon will be the last at home online I get for awhile. Unless of course I can figure out how to swing 20 bucks a month and go with the phone company's high speed net. But right now I'm afraid to go that route because I don't know exactly how much a change this is going to be in the money. Hell as it is lol all we are going to have is a dvd player for tv. I am not spending money on a converter box and dealing with all those issues. We can just live without tv for a little while. It definitly won't kill us.
I havn't even picked out my paint yet. I do have a new red garbage can...though no bags for it yet lol. I am all kinds of unorganized and not ready for this move lol. So basically tomorrow I need to make a big huge mess in the living room with all the laundry. Then make an even bigger mess out of mine and Mae's rooms just to get rid of stuff and to get ready to go.
Lucky for us we really don't have a lot of stuff. We have clothes, beds, a computer desk, computer and tv, and of course dishes. But really we don't have much of anything. It will be a pretty easy move. The hardest part will be painting the walls. I'm thinking that if we move all my shit over Saturday then we will be there Saturday lol even if it's not finished lol.
I'm not ready for this. I mean I am but it brings up so many emotions. Then the whole division of Grandpa's stuff. Yes i know it's not my stuff...but damn it lol it's my stuff. We are all psycho over that man lol, life or death he still gets to all of us. He was loved!
Work is going good. So good in fact that at least 2 sets of customers remember me and liked me enough to give me shit cuz i wasn't all bouncy lol. Ive got shit on my mind lol give me a break lol.
The boyfriend became a non boyfriend due to his own stupidity. It took Mae a couple weeks to notice he wasn't around. So that's all good. I've picked up a booty call but it's the worst booty call in the history of booty calls lol. He somehow thinks its ok for him to call me to come get him to have monkey sex at 2am. Ok if I didn't have the kid...cool, if i didnt have to work..cool...but um i am not wasting my gas for booty lol. If you got to drunk to drive your ass over for hot wild monkey sex then too bad so sad! I'm not chasing that. Though it was very flattering to listen to what he had to say all i could do was laugh. He's 27 and he could be fun lol if he can get his shit together lol.
Ok so what shouldn't have bummed me out just totally bummed me out. I lost my plates! Damn it i know all of the stuff here isn't mine but seriously theres a plate my mom is giving my sister and it pisses me off. My mom is seriously standing here ranting next to me and giving me a real hard time about this shit and shes talking to me about how i should be thanking her because of everything. I am not allowed to feel what i feel. I cant even have my own emotions and leave and stop something she follows me. I have thanked her and thanked her im not going to debase myself any further!
I am sooo fucking tired of all these fucking bullshit games my mom plays. Fuck seriously? And then tell me how to live in my house, what i can do in my house and what i should do and just be a bitch to me. She went without she this she that. She didn't do or say anything because it required an effort. Hell you want me to kiss your ass you better think again. I have said thank you. I had to be yelled at over 6 dollars and I had/have to repay 700 bucks that was actually mine to begin with!
I am going to miss that plate! The dishes are hard for me to part with because I used them my whole life. My mom says that means nothing because she used them too blah blah...um it is something to me and Im important. If anyone needs to be thanked its Grandpa because he's the one who worked all those years at John Deere to provide for his family! So thank you Grandpa for my new house!
Ok now im so pissed lol that i lost my train of thought. I'll probably have to blog tomorrow too because there are going to be words at this house! Words I tell you!!!
And im supposed to be excited lol
I havn't even picked out my paint yet. I do have a new red garbage can...though no bags for it yet lol. I am all kinds of unorganized and not ready for this move lol. So basically tomorrow I need to make a big huge mess in the living room with all the laundry. Then make an even bigger mess out of mine and Mae's rooms just to get rid of stuff and to get ready to go.
Lucky for us we really don't have a lot of stuff. We have clothes, beds, a computer desk, computer and tv, and of course dishes. But really we don't have much of anything. It will be a pretty easy move. The hardest part will be painting the walls. I'm thinking that if we move all my shit over Saturday then we will be there Saturday lol even if it's not finished lol.
I'm not ready for this. I mean I am but it brings up so many emotions. Then the whole division of Grandpa's stuff. Yes i know it's not my stuff...but damn it lol it's my stuff. We are all psycho over that man lol, life or death he still gets to all of us. He was loved!
Work is going good. So good in fact that at least 2 sets of customers remember me and liked me enough to give me shit cuz i wasn't all bouncy lol. Ive got shit on my mind lol give me a break lol.
The boyfriend became a non boyfriend due to his own stupidity. It took Mae a couple weeks to notice he wasn't around. So that's all good. I've picked up a booty call but it's the worst booty call in the history of booty calls lol. He somehow thinks its ok for him to call me to come get him to have monkey sex at 2am. Ok if I didn't have the kid...cool, if i didnt have to work..cool...but um i am not wasting my gas for booty lol. If you got to drunk to drive your ass over for hot wild monkey sex then too bad so sad! I'm not chasing that. Though it was very flattering to listen to what he had to say all i could do was laugh. He's 27 and he could be fun lol if he can get his shit together lol.
Ok so what shouldn't have bummed me out just totally bummed me out. I lost my plates! Damn it i know all of the stuff here isn't mine but seriously theres a plate my mom is giving my sister and it pisses me off. My mom is seriously standing here ranting next to me and giving me a real hard time about this shit and shes talking to me about how i should be thanking her because of everything. I am not allowed to feel what i feel. I cant even have my own emotions and leave and stop something she follows me. I have thanked her and thanked her im not going to debase myself any further!
I am sooo fucking tired of all these fucking bullshit games my mom plays. Fuck seriously? And then tell me how to live in my house, what i can do in my house and what i should do and just be a bitch to me. She went without she this she that. She didn't do or say anything because it required an effort. Hell you want me to kiss your ass you better think again. I have said thank you. I had to be yelled at over 6 dollars and I had/have to repay 700 bucks that was actually mine to begin with!
I am going to miss that plate! The dishes are hard for me to part with because I used them my whole life. My mom says that means nothing because she used them too blah blah...um it is something to me and Im important. If anyone needs to be thanked its Grandpa because he's the one who worked all those years at John Deere to provide for his family! So thank you Grandpa for my new house!
Ok now im so pissed lol that i lost my train of thought. I'll probably have to blog tomorrow too because there are going to be words at this house! Words I tell you!!!
And im supposed to be excited lol
Monday, September 19, 2011
still
sore as fuck, think im still drunk, need sleep and details well lets just say at one point i had my pants round my knees outside lol
Sunday, September 18, 2011
too damn early
happy birthday me! boy in the bed, dont remember the walk into the house, lost my clothes(still cant find them), drank a shit ton. Took a dare and now my lips are swollen i look like a fucking real housewife lol.
so yeah moms mad at me cuz i had some guy here and we had a fire and blah blah. fuck it i dont care cuz i just found out that i have to give up more stuff cuz my sister might want it...whatever fuck it i dont care.
im hungover lol leave me alone lol gonna eat then throw a movie in for mae and take a big ol mama nap on the couch lol.
did i mention there was a boy in my bed lol
so yeah moms mad at me cuz i had some guy here and we had a fire and blah blah. fuck it i dont care cuz i just found out that i have to give up more stuff cuz my sister might want it...whatever fuck it i dont care.
im hungover lol leave me alone lol gonna eat then throw a movie in for mae and take a big ol mama nap on the couch lol.
did i mention there was a boy in my bed lol
Friday, September 16, 2011
EXHAUSTED
It has been one long fucking day! All day at cattle congress...google it if you want to a history lesson lol. Its the fair and Mae isn't a baby anymore!
That lil shit wanted to go on all the spinny rides! AND I MEAN ALL OF THEM! I screwed up on one of them because its been like 20 years since I went on rides lol but the one she really wanted to go on there was no way in HELL I was going on. Ive been on it once and that was enough and that was like 24 years ago since I went on it! We did not go!
Sadly i think one of the ride operators has something shady scary wrong going on with him. he creeps me out so bad i want to find out the hiring process for the carnival. Cuz this guy just was screaming pedophile to me. Yes i know thats profiling/sterotyping...but seriously if you would have seen him you might be thinking like me.
I am not getting on another ride forever! OMG I am too old for rides lol.
Basically the day went like this...start waking up at the ass crack of dawn because i hear my dad get up to start getting ready for work, later wake up at quarter after ass crack of dawn and am still up. Dealt with my mother and suceeded in not having world war 0802397 over wrinkles and her issue with them and my refusal to say i think her opinion is the correct way. her world not mine not my issue lol, drop her off, and a 12 minute oil change place turned into almost 3 hours with Mae, 89 bucks later and a future bill of almost 900 bucks later, and totally not the timetable i wanted to be on later we spend almost 4 full hours doing the rides, eat, do more rides, eat again, see the animals, pony ride, cowboy hat, and light up sword later we have movies and im exhausted lol.
if every fucked up day could end up like this I wouldnt have a problem lol. Cuz maaan today sucked for me and was the biggest blast Mae has ever had! Next year is really going to suck lol Im paying a kid to take Mae lol gonna cost me a grip lol but at least i wont have to worry about my stomach being where it started at lol
That lil shit wanted to go on all the spinny rides! AND I MEAN ALL OF THEM! I screwed up on one of them because its been like 20 years since I went on rides lol but the one she really wanted to go on there was no way in HELL I was going on. Ive been on it once and that was enough and that was like 24 years ago since I went on it! We did not go!
Sadly i think one of the ride operators has something shady scary wrong going on with him. he creeps me out so bad i want to find out the hiring process for the carnival. Cuz this guy just was screaming pedophile to me. Yes i know thats profiling/sterotyping...but seriously if you would have seen him you might be thinking like me.
I am not getting on another ride forever! OMG I am too old for rides lol.
Basically the day went like this...start waking up at the ass crack of dawn because i hear my dad get up to start getting ready for work, later wake up at quarter after ass crack of dawn and am still up. Dealt with my mother and suceeded in not having world war 0802397 over wrinkles and her issue with them and my refusal to say i think her opinion is the correct way. her world not mine not my issue lol, drop her off, and a 12 minute oil change place turned into almost 3 hours with Mae, 89 bucks later and a future bill of almost 900 bucks later, and totally not the timetable i wanted to be on later we spend almost 4 full hours doing the rides, eat, do more rides, eat again, see the animals, pony ride, cowboy hat, and light up sword later we have movies and im exhausted lol.
if every fucked up day could end up like this I wouldnt have a problem lol. Cuz maaan today sucked for me and was the biggest blast Mae has ever had! Next year is really going to suck lol Im paying a kid to take Mae lol gonna cost me a grip lol but at least i wont have to worry about my stomach being where it started at lol
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
OMG OMG LOL
Hello from the land of wonderful intoxicatedness. Yes I'm sure that's a word; maybe I just made it up, but it's a word lol.
So lots of good and bad shit is going on in my world at the moment. Yes, karma is going to bite me in the ass for it; but the bank Of Dad has a grand that will get me out of whatever mess I get into lol.
I havn't officially broken up with the boyfriend but it definitly is in the works. I just can't do this. I love him to pieces but right now...sadly.. there isn't room for him in my life. That or I'm not willing to to let him have room in my life. Either way...I'm doing what's best for me! I'd like to stay friends; but only time will tell if he can be a friend or has to be one of those nice people I had to leave behind.
Ok so I got a shit ton of money today. Four grand is a lot of money when you have my name lol. I did the first of like 3 irresponsible things with the money tonight lol. Which in turn led to the realization that um hello Sunday is MY BIRTHDAY!!
Well my mom is completly worried because yes I do go overboard lol. But I'm going to blame Kimmi because she said is that the plan lol. Then I can blame Shayla cuz she said she'd come out for one lol. So now Tammy is going to be my DD and her kiddo is going to do the babysitting and after work on Saturday we are going for some tasty ass margaritas!
Ok so now to the part of the drunken mess that is Heather lol. I decided to call Brenda! Even after talking to Dawn previously about why Brenda doesn't get the drunken heather call lol. So I decided I'm calling Brenda. Yeah...um that didn't work out so well lol. I got her daughter instead who wasn't at home lol. To me they sound very much alike...sorry Brenda for drunk dialing your kiddo! Was soo not my intention. But the message stands lol your a butt for not having the phone lol.
Ok so I'm telling you everything was so good today and there is no way I can go on because OMG the drinks rocked and my birthday is Sunday and Im having rockin drinks Saturday! Time to celebrate my house, my birthday, and another begining in the story that is Heather!
So lots of good and bad shit is going on in my world at the moment. Yes, karma is going to bite me in the ass for it; but the bank Of Dad has a grand that will get me out of whatever mess I get into lol.
I havn't officially broken up with the boyfriend but it definitly is in the works. I just can't do this. I love him to pieces but right now...sadly.. there isn't room for him in my life. That or I'm not willing to to let him have room in my life. Either way...I'm doing what's best for me! I'd like to stay friends; but only time will tell if he can be a friend or has to be one of those nice people I had to leave behind.
Ok so I got a shit ton of money today. Four grand is a lot of money when you have my name lol. I did the first of like 3 irresponsible things with the money tonight lol. Which in turn led to the realization that um hello Sunday is MY BIRTHDAY!!
Well my mom is completly worried because yes I do go overboard lol. But I'm going to blame Kimmi because she said is that the plan lol. Then I can blame Shayla cuz she said she'd come out for one lol. So now Tammy is going to be my DD and her kiddo is going to do the babysitting and after work on Saturday we are going for some tasty ass margaritas!
Ok so now to the part of the drunken mess that is Heather lol. I decided to call Brenda! Even after talking to Dawn previously about why Brenda doesn't get the drunken heather call lol. So I decided I'm calling Brenda. Yeah...um that didn't work out so well lol. I got her daughter instead who wasn't at home lol. To me they sound very much alike...sorry Brenda for drunk dialing your kiddo! Was soo not my intention. But the message stands lol your a butt for not having the phone lol.
Ok so I'm telling you everything was so good today and there is no way I can go on because OMG the drinks rocked and my birthday is Sunday and Im having rockin drinks Saturday! Time to celebrate my house, my birthday, and another begining in the story that is Heather!
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Another Hat
Well from the furious blog posting I've been doing today you know a lot is going on in my life. Some good and some not so good. Well today yet another good happened.
The only reason people don't work is because they don't want to. There were jobs that I refused to do that would pay me a shit ton of money but there was no way I would do them. Well where I work now the can room is the shit job. Um hello all you do is empty the containers, reset the containers, and deal with grumpy ass people cuz youre slow. PLUS I'll still get paid my regular pay to do it.
So it's not a promotion but it is something that can add several hours to each week I work. Yes Ill be nasty and gross BUT I won't have to worry about getting 12 hours on a schedule. Hell I can even go and push cart for the same amount of money. Hello its all about making money. Sure I'd rather cashier for 8 hours a day but if I can't get that the house I'm buying is way more important so I'll smell like stale beer for a while lol.
Its not like I didnt smell like a nasty sandwhich for two years lol.
I'm doing all I can to make sure this happens and god knows I want this to happen. Now to get my butt back to church a little more often; even if it is just a day during the week and not on Sunday!
The only reason people don't work is because they don't want to. There were jobs that I refused to do that would pay me a shit ton of money but there was no way I would do them. Well where I work now the can room is the shit job. Um hello all you do is empty the containers, reset the containers, and deal with grumpy ass people cuz youre slow. PLUS I'll still get paid my regular pay to do it.
So it's not a promotion but it is something that can add several hours to each week I work. Yes Ill be nasty and gross BUT I won't have to worry about getting 12 hours on a schedule. Hell I can even go and push cart for the same amount of money. Hello its all about making money. Sure I'd rather cashier for 8 hours a day but if I can't get that the house I'm buying is way more important so I'll smell like stale beer for a while lol.
Its not like I didnt smell like a nasty sandwhich for two years lol.
I'm doing all I can to make sure this happens and god knows I want this to happen. Now to get my butt back to church a little more often; even if it is just a day during the week and not on Sunday!
One last thing
Did I happen to mention that my dad is working first shift this week and I don't have to work til like 430 this afternoon. It is currently 934am. I have the house all to myself.
My friend/daycare is picking Mae up from school and I have many many hours to be by myself. I am soon getting off this box and going to do my favorite thing when I'm alone!
Sleep watch a movie! Get all comfy in bed and not have to listen to anyone say something about me just being lazy. I'm sorry I like to be lazy. My shit's all done let me have my time.
It really isnt very often that I am this alone lol. So when I am I want to just chill as much as heatherly possible.
And I am on my way to do just that. Money isn't just the root of all evil, it's the root of depression too. It might not make you happy but it sure does relieve stress when you get a little coming in.
My friend/daycare is picking Mae up from school and I have many many hours to be by myself. I am soon getting off this box and going to do my favorite thing when I'm alone!
Sleep watch a movie! Get all comfy in bed and not have to listen to anyone say something about me just being lazy. I'm sorry I like to be lazy. My shit's all done let me have my time.
It really isnt very often that I am this alone lol. So when I am I want to just chill as much as heatherly possible.
And I am on my way to do just that. Money isn't just the root of all evil, it's the root of depression too. It might not make you happy but it sure does relieve stress when you get a little coming in.
Remember that blog
So yeah remember that blog I did a couple back that said if I had a check come in the mail I'd be ok? Well Um Yeah! I'm getting a check in the mail but it isn't for a little bit of money. It's big money! It's money to fix my car, get stuff for the house, take my kid to the fair, go out to eat once, and still save some money back.
My mom thinks I'm going to blow this money but really I can't! I have things that have to be done with this money and I really don't think going out to eat once and going to the fair is going to be that much money. The car will be big money and that has to be done. For me to keep getting to and from work I need my car. Granted its going to take about 800 bucks to fix my car...I can fix my car!!! One less worry.
Ive been worried about money lately. Thats why I havn't been blogging because while things are good the money is tight. And it's stressfull and I just have been holding it in. Thanks to this check I will be able to breathe. Hell I can even get cable right away lol. Maaaan I was worried because I have a back electric bill to pay and I was going to do it this check which was going to mean another two tight weeks with money. So I'm paying off every bill I have with this check and when tax time rolls around that money will be free money! That money will be money to hold back to pay my mortgage with so I have extra money through the year.
I can breathe again! Time to get excited.....oh and did I mention my birthday is coming up lol
My mom thinks I'm going to blow this money but really I can't! I have things that have to be done with this money and I really don't think going out to eat once and going to the fair is going to be that much money. The car will be big money and that has to be done. For me to keep getting to and from work I need my car. Granted its going to take about 800 bucks to fix my car...I can fix my car!!! One less worry.
Ive been worried about money lately. Thats why I havn't been blogging because while things are good the money is tight. And it's stressfull and I just have been holding it in. Thanks to this check I will be able to breathe. Hell I can even get cable right away lol. Maaaan I was worried because I have a back electric bill to pay and I was going to do it this check which was going to mean another two tight weeks with money. So I'm paying off every bill I have with this check and when tax time rolls around that money will be free money! That money will be money to hold back to pay my mortgage with so I have extra money through the year.
I can breathe again! Time to get excited.....oh and did I mention my birthday is coming up lol
Here we go
So I'm pretty sure that I've decided to end the relationship with the bf. Ok so I have decided to end it, I just havn't explained it to him yet. I could have done it yesterday but I chickened out. I'd still date him, but I don't want to be his gf anymore. I have my own needs and I have my own concerns and I just really don't have time to listen to someone other than Mae whine.
I have lots going on in my life and at this time I think I'm more cut out for dating and not a relationship. Too much work in a relationship and seriously I need to concentrate on the important stuff. I mean seriously who lets a doctor tell you that you may have had a mild heart attack and not insist they hook you up to the machines to find out? Yeah I'm not into that kind of drama. You want someone to feel sorry for you go talk to your Mama cuz I'm not that kind of girl.
Mae is having issues at school like noones business. She is very unruly and doesn't do what she's supposed to. As it is she spends everyday after school in her room because she couldn't get a good day or a fair day on her daily report. The problem is she just doesn't care. She thinks it's funny or something. So her consequences at 5 yrs old is that she can stay in her room and only come out to eat and she is limited to how many times she can go to the bathroom. I hate being mean mama but this has got to get under control.
The house! Ohhh the house! It is coming! It's coming It's coming It's coming! September 30th is the day I go to close on it! Then a couple hours later I go to work lol. I may be able to get into the house before the actual closing to do cleaning and maybe if I'm lucky some painting. Did I mention my room is this god awful color lol. I need to start pricing stuff when I'm on break at work so I can try to get a swiffer and other cleaning supplies. I need a garbage can and I really want to find a hamper with 3 bins that way we can just sort as we take off our clothes.
Life is moving along and I'm not in a horrible place. I just wish my mother would be able to let go. I have this huge fear that she's going to try to be at my house telling me how dirty it is and how crappy im doing with it. Hell everyone thinks I keep this house clean except her. So yeah thats my issue lol.
Now all i need to do is go fulltime at work and life will be all gravy!
I have lots going on in my life and at this time I think I'm more cut out for dating and not a relationship. Too much work in a relationship and seriously I need to concentrate on the important stuff. I mean seriously who lets a doctor tell you that you may have had a mild heart attack and not insist they hook you up to the machines to find out? Yeah I'm not into that kind of drama. You want someone to feel sorry for you go talk to your Mama cuz I'm not that kind of girl.
Mae is having issues at school like noones business. She is very unruly and doesn't do what she's supposed to. As it is she spends everyday after school in her room because she couldn't get a good day or a fair day on her daily report. The problem is she just doesn't care. She thinks it's funny or something. So her consequences at 5 yrs old is that she can stay in her room and only come out to eat and she is limited to how many times she can go to the bathroom. I hate being mean mama but this has got to get under control.
The house! Ohhh the house! It is coming! It's coming It's coming It's coming! September 30th is the day I go to close on it! Then a couple hours later I go to work lol. I may be able to get into the house before the actual closing to do cleaning and maybe if I'm lucky some painting. Did I mention my room is this god awful color lol. I need to start pricing stuff when I'm on break at work so I can try to get a swiffer and other cleaning supplies. I need a garbage can and I really want to find a hamper with 3 bins that way we can just sort as we take off our clothes.
Life is moving along and I'm not in a horrible place. I just wish my mother would be able to let go. I have this huge fear that she's going to try to be at my house telling me how dirty it is and how crappy im doing with it. Hell everyone thinks I keep this house clean except her. So yeah thats my issue lol.
Now all i need to do is go fulltime at work and life will be all gravy!
Friday, September 9, 2011
Perfect Cocktail
I have found the perfect cocktail for when you have no ambien and want to sleep soundly. I really like to sleep and sometimes I have serious issues shutting my brain off so that I can go to sleep. The past two nights I've knocked my ass out with the perfect cocktail.
I get uninterrupted sleep and wake up feeling pretty good. 2 xanex and 2 ibuprophen pm's to chase away the aches and pains from working and help putting my brain to relax mode. It's been working. The only thing it doesn't work through is a bad case of gas and then it's ok because your phone is going off with a text lol. Nothing like a lil buzzing to catch your attention lol.
The house. I am so stressed out over it and come to find out...um as long as the appraisel comes through in our favor I have a house! I have to come up with the money to pay off a small back bill at the utility company(maybe a check for 125 bucks will show up in my mail lol); then I'd only have to come up with 11 bucks lol.
I'm working my ass off. Getting this new job gave me work hours. Maybe not 40 but enough hours to keep me out of trouble and off the streets lol. I actually like my job and am doing pretty good at it. I'm learning lil tricks that if I'd have known before a couple days ago wouldn't have left me standing around like a dumbass lol. But the dumbass moves are decreasing with every hour I clock in.
The boyfriend irritated the shit out of me. To the point that we're back to dating; i think, and we dont have any plans to see each other until the 21st because that's the next day off we both have that's together. Got drunk and let loose on him. He pissed me off. He was being a whiny ass and I'm just not into that. Hell if I'm not being a whiny ass then don't expect me to ALWAYS listen to you be whiny.
I'm just going to let that either work out or fizzle out because I have other things I can focus on. Things that won't make me go aww fuck why'd I answer that text/call?
Today was Grandparents day at Mae's school and they had a mass for them and special people. We took my Aunt with us and then had rolls in the church basement. It was very nice of her to come with us. I drove her by the new house and told her she'd have to come over for dinner after we got moved in. I'm really only like less than 3 minutes from her house lol.
Mae is having her usual issues. We are trying reward/punishment with her. She just doesn't care though. So now we are onto no dessert unless you get all smiley faces as a report on your daily chart. She's playing in the toilet water with toilet paper, drinking from the water table, not resting, not not not....if we are very unlucky she will end up in the school for kids with special needs. She's smart but she just doesn't want to do what is expected of her.
One day at work this week my ex sister in law came through my line and after chit chatting with me had the nerve to ask if there hard feelings. Hell yes there are duh but i told her yup but I'd still smile, sack her shit nicely and give her a good expierence.
It's getting around that I'll trade shifts and pick up shifts because I worked all week to get to my day off today because of a trade. Not only did I get Friday off I gained an hour or so of work. Yay me!
My coworkers and supervisors seem to like me. They tell me I'm doing a good job. I didn't think I'd like the job but I do lol. I am a WM girl and as the shifts go on the mistakes are less and less. I'm doing good with my items per hour; so far I havn't fallen below like 98%. I usually end up between 99 and 100 for the night. Depending on how many times I have to wait on a supervisor for something that either wasn't my fault or I didn't know about but now I do.
I've been reading blogs. Brenda's blog though didn't show up for several days and then when it did I was flooded. All I'm wondering is how he works for human services and still qualifies for the housing and stuff. Brenda I feel ya about the rolls of money and nails and stuff. With my food stamps being cut down I have to budget better and I watch people with multiple cards get truckloads of bullshit. What happened to actually cooking for your kids? Anyways not my problem cuz I know the food stamps I work hard for are at least being used responsibly by some people.
Dawn you didn't wake me up it was the horrible gas. I think I must have had horrible gas so I could text you back in my hazy phase lol.
I think right now I'm not blogging as much as I should be because when I get home from work I just really want to eat and put my feet up. Hell I havnt even brought up the laundry from downstairs in 2 weeks. Tomorrow I think I'm going to get every scrap of clothing I can find and wash it and then figure out what to do with it.
I also broke the lawnmower this week and then turned around and did a shitty job with the riding lawn mower; plus I still have to get the pool taken down, and you know mom has to get me to clean the house.
Nothing is wrong in my world I just want to vent a bit and let it out, but it seems so trivial compared to whats going on with other people. So basically I've been reading book after book after book and hiding out in bejeweled and farmville. Trying to keep a low profile lol.
But I did go to church today, took communion, prayed as best I could for people and Mae and myself. I know I left some out but not on purpose and thankfully God knows what's in our hearts.
Oh and my nephew got bit in the back 3 times at daycare yesterday. You could see the six sets of teeth. Then today found out they told his mom it was his fault because he couldn't walk well. Um hello he's a year old and he just got over a broken leg. How the hell do you blame a year old on that. So hopefully they will start taking him to my friends daycare.
My daycare friend is almost ready to get her shit with the state in so that I can apply for help with that. And so far my job is giving me the hours. I just have to go and figure out how to get fulltime. Though I don't think that will be too hard considering my attitude at work. The senior cashiers tell me I'm good with customers and when I told a supervisor ooo you want me to do my job she just laughed and said right but you know some people lol.
So everything is as good as it gets in my world. I'm just trying not to jinx it and I'm trying to figure out the stress of this house and the stress of do I really need a boyfriend, do I want a friend, a fuck buddy,or what the hell. Cuz right now my priorities are pretty straight...kid, work, bills and those are fairly interchangable for first place.
Whewww did that catch you up lol. Sorry to disappoint there is no Wheres Heather book currently in the making because hell who has time lol.
Ok so I think I've filled you in lol I'll try to not be a stranger but maaan I just don't have the energy to sit down and just vent. Though I should do it once a day just so I don't clog up with shit lol.
I get uninterrupted sleep and wake up feeling pretty good. 2 xanex and 2 ibuprophen pm's to chase away the aches and pains from working and help putting my brain to relax mode. It's been working. The only thing it doesn't work through is a bad case of gas and then it's ok because your phone is going off with a text lol. Nothing like a lil buzzing to catch your attention lol.
The house. I am so stressed out over it and come to find out...um as long as the appraisel comes through in our favor I have a house! I have to come up with the money to pay off a small back bill at the utility company(maybe a check for 125 bucks will show up in my mail lol); then I'd only have to come up with 11 bucks lol.
I'm working my ass off. Getting this new job gave me work hours. Maybe not 40 but enough hours to keep me out of trouble and off the streets lol. I actually like my job and am doing pretty good at it. I'm learning lil tricks that if I'd have known before a couple days ago wouldn't have left me standing around like a dumbass lol. But the dumbass moves are decreasing with every hour I clock in.
The boyfriend irritated the shit out of me. To the point that we're back to dating; i think, and we dont have any plans to see each other until the 21st because that's the next day off we both have that's together. Got drunk and let loose on him. He pissed me off. He was being a whiny ass and I'm just not into that. Hell if I'm not being a whiny ass then don't expect me to ALWAYS listen to you be whiny.
I'm just going to let that either work out or fizzle out because I have other things I can focus on. Things that won't make me go aww fuck why'd I answer that text/call?
Today was Grandparents day at Mae's school and they had a mass for them and special people. We took my Aunt with us and then had rolls in the church basement. It was very nice of her to come with us. I drove her by the new house and told her she'd have to come over for dinner after we got moved in. I'm really only like less than 3 minutes from her house lol.
Mae is having her usual issues. We are trying reward/punishment with her. She just doesn't care though. So now we are onto no dessert unless you get all smiley faces as a report on your daily chart. She's playing in the toilet water with toilet paper, drinking from the water table, not resting, not not not....if we are very unlucky she will end up in the school for kids with special needs. She's smart but she just doesn't want to do what is expected of her.
One day at work this week my ex sister in law came through my line and after chit chatting with me had the nerve to ask if there hard feelings. Hell yes there are duh but i told her yup but I'd still smile, sack her shit nicely and give her a good expierence.
It's getting around that I'll trade shifts and pick up shifts because I worked all week to get to my day off today because of a trade. Not only did I get Friday off I gained an hour or so of work. Yay me!
My coworkers and supervisors seem to like me. They tell me I'm doing a good job. I didn't think I'd like the job but I do lol. I am a WM girl and as the shifts go on the mistakes are less and less. I'm doing good with my items per hour; so far I havn't fallen below like 98%. I usually end up between 99 and 100 for the night. Depending on how many times I have to wait on a supervisor for something that either wasn't my fault or I didn't know about but now I do.
I've been reading blogs. Brenda's blog though didn't show up for several days and then when it did I was flooded. All I'm wondering is how he works for human services and still qualifies for the housing and stuff. Brenda I feel ya about the rolls of money and nails and stuff. With my food stamps being cut down I have to budget better and I watch people with multiple cards get truckloads of bullshit. What happened to actually cooking for your kids? Anyways not my problem cuz I know the food stamps I work hard for are at least being used responsibly by some people.
Dawn you didn't wake me up it was the horrible gas. I think I must have had horrible gas so I could text you back in my hazy phase lol.
I think right now I'm not blogging as much as I should be because when I get home from work I just really want to eat and put my feet up. Hell I havnt even brought up the laundry from downstairs in 2 weeks. Tomorrow I think I'm going to get every scrap of clothing I can find and wash it and then figure out what to do with it.
I also broke the lawnmower this week and then turned around and did a shitty job with the riding lawn mower; plus I still have to get the pool taken down, and you know mom has to get me to clean the house.
Nothing is wrong in my world I just want to vent a bit and let it out, but it seems so trivial compared to whats going on with other people. So basically I've been reading book after book after book and hiding out in bejeweled and farmville. Trying to keep a low profile lol.
But I did go to church today, took communion, prayed as best I could for people and Mae and myself. I know I left some out but not on purpose and thankfully God knows what's in our hearts.
Oh and my nephew got bit in the back 3 times at daycare yesterday. You could see the six sets of teeth. Then today found out they told his mom it was his fault because he couldn't walk well. Um hello he's a year old and he just got over a broken leg. How the hell do you blame a year old on that. So hopefully they will start taking him to my friends daycare.
My daycare friend is almost ready to get her shit with the state in so that I can apply for help with that. And so far my job is giving me the hours. I just have to go and figure out how to get fulltime. Though I don't think that will be too hard considering my attitude at work. The senior cashiers tell me I'm good with customers and when I told a supervisor ooo you want me to do my job she just laughed and said right but you know some people lol.
So everything is as good as it gets in my world. I'm just trying not to jinx it and I'm trying to figure out the stress of this house and the stress of do I really need a boyfriend, do I want a friend, a fuck buddy,or what the hell. Cuz right now my priorities are pretty straight...kid, work, bills and those are fairly interchangable for first place.
Whewww did that catch you up lol. Sorry to disappoint there is no Wheres Heather book currently in the making because hell who has time lol.
Ok so I think I've filled you in lol I'll try to not be a stranger but maaan I just don't have the energy to sit down and just vent. Though I should do it once a day just so I don't clog up with shit lol.
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