Well this is going to be short and sweet because I really am having a shit time of it. Feb 15...seizure with concussion, couple er trips after and then another last Saturday which turned into bells palsy. That's where part of your face freakin goes paralyzed basically.

I cant talk because my tongue still swells up from where I tried to bite the side off. My eyes are all fucked up from the seizure/concussion and now one eye doesn't blink cuz of the bells palsy.

Im on a medical leave of absence from work...oh and all my customers who I like saw me bleeding and a blithering idiot when the paramedics carted me out of work. I found this out just a few days ago.

Katie is living with me and and mae. We love her and even with all she has put others through shes my kid and I support every fucked up bad choice she makes cuz shes my kid. My mom asked how come I have so much faith in her...um shes my kid. yall had a big hand in keeping her out of my life well now im in and I think Katie sees what the real deal is and that even though I sound and act like grandma sometimes...im not grandma and I really do have her best interests at heart even if I don't like her choices. Shes working and thanks to her job lol we wont have to worry about the cable bill lol. She agrees that since out of everything lol that's what she likes the most she will contribute there.

Im very emotional and very disturbed at the moment and hopefully getting back to the therapist will help. And after the newness of Katie wears off...I don't know.....its like we should have just been together always...ooo wait we were supposed to!

Anyways I lied not short n sweet but it felt like it was going to be short and sweet. Im alive I just really really don't want to do much of anything  but keep my eyes closed  but the life of a mom never stops....even if you have someone to help a bit....grrrr...I just want to be better and back to normal!