Its always few and far between when it comes to my blog. Because fixing my pc isn't one of my priorities right now. I have all kinds of bills and stuff that come first. Plus the hours that I keep if I had a pc, work would be impossible because I'd be on a bejeweled kick lol.

So i found out like 10 minutes ago that i got a raise at my 90 days. would have been neato to know about it before hand lol. So now I make more money then I thought and i still have less money then i want lol.

its hot here and i let the pool go green.  yeah fun fun, but the 15 yr old was sick of being hot so she got out there dumped the pool and bleached the green out and is halfway filled up that pool. they should be able to get into it today. Pretty good for a summer, only dumping the water once.

Kids dad is trying to die on me I swear. That or give me a heart attack, not sure which...either way it sucks. Drove him to iowa city to the va clinic for what was supposed to be easy peasy testing. Yeah while im on the phone trying to find a way to get him back the next week, i look up and he's gone. Next thing I know they are getting us and we're following him on a gurney as they get him ready for a cardiac cath. Good thing he didnt eat when we gassed up.

Mae was happy because he spent a couple nights with  us because after a groin incision who really wants to walk up three flights of stairs. Im not that mean.

so hes better but now Mae wants more time with him, but they are working him so much that he doesnt have time. poor girl.

Im all over the place and am lucky that im as stable as i am. im just totally hating on some things, loving some things, and basically i think i need two things...a good damn cry and a good damn drunk!

And the guy who just sat down next to me reeks of weed lol gotta love the library...or as some say libary lol

thats all i got i have to get ready to go pick up Mae. Early out cuz of the hot.

Still doing the blogging from the library. I had to come and get a paystub. Cant afford to get the computer fixed. Its ok to not have a computer though i miss bejeweled lol. i have facebook on my phone and can get to the rags i like to read.

Im keeping up with brenda's blog, but havnt figured out how to follow Dawns since i know she has a couple of them.

Kids dad and i are getting along as well as we do. He has stepped up monetarily so that Mae can go and do the fun things in town. I am greatful because all my money goes to bills and food. Our luxury is directv. Some of us cant live off mommy forever.

Thought we were done with his ex but after she moved to another state to be with his brother now that things arent going well shes trying to get money out of him. I told him he shouldnt engage  her because it will give her hope and as for the money his money hungry ex takes it all. She doesnt need to know what it goes for.

We went for dinner and movies, and then we went to fridayloo and listened to the band and took olive garden home.

Her adhd are out of control along with her pica. So we have been giving her half a dose to help control both issues.

My mom bought us a pool because she was going to send us on a trip but a  pool will get more use out of it.

I hurt myself bowling a couple weeks ago and of course it just doesnt want to heal on my time schedule. i cant kneel down and the muscle hurts and if i sit to long it pops when i get up, if i can get up.

But ive been going to work and doing what needs to be done. Except yesterday...i slept all day long, was up for like an hour lol. I told my friend why did you let me sleep til almost 2 thats when i start thinking about going to bed lol.

The bipolar/anxiety/depression rule my world at times and other times i cant tell if its me under control or the disease fucking with me.

And that my friends is whats going on in my world!

Ok so this is going to be pretty short. Im sitting at the library because i still have no money to fix the pc, or pay the net bill lol. As it is I'm in debt up to my eyeballs but soon will be able to pay it back.

Spent the last couple months doing a whole lot of nothing. Took care of the kid's dad while he recovered from his heart attack/pneumonia. Lost my job for FUCK and then a day later found another one.

I make more money and to get almost the same hours I have to work a different job but im now the donut girl lol. god its good to have a job even if its not what some consider great. Pays me a buck plus more an hour.

Oh and I found out through the kids dad that good ol psycho from texas is still obsessed with me and reads everything i write and those two have conversations about what i write. Pathetic if you ask me but then hey what do i know im a single working mom living on my own fighting the bill collectors.

the kids dads ex is psycho psycho. So psycho she had her son confront us and then called the police on us. Funny when we were chillin at the house we were harassing her by being in public there isnt anything wrong with her stalking him at work and bringing back stolen property lol.

Anyways life isnt horrible. cant wait for tax time that way i can get most of the bills taken care of. Plus its the kids birthday in April and she wants a party.

O and the chick is so psycho that even the kids dad gets why it might not be safe for Mae to go visit. Some people fuck it all up. 

Ok thats its time to get ready to get the kid and please dear lord get a nap....ooo wait i get up at 210am it will be bedtime lol