Too Happy

I'm too happy and I want to get out of the relationship that makes me this happy. Thats where I'm at and lucky me I have a whole new bag of books to keep me company while i try to get rid of a really great guy!

Hope everyone has a great weekend I dont have much else to say!

Saturday Off

So i gave up my morning shift today. I just didnt want to go to work. So I didnt.

Ive decided instead that Im going to take Mae to the movies and lunch. I made decent tips and by robbing peter to pay paul well we can do both lol.

He thought he had texted me and was sorry. He said he was sick and whatever lol. I get it I can accept it. My mother on the other hand is insinuating that maybe hes lying. WTF seriously dude is sick. Ive talked to him a couple times and sometimes he sounds better and then others he sounds like shit again.

Right now i want to be napping but i have some serious heartburn lol. I took a spill at work this week. I worked a double on Wednesday and a drain backed up and i didnt notice it. fell right onto my knee. joy o joy lol worked yesterday and today is lazy. Now to get the heartburn to go away so i can take a nap before we head out for the day lol.

Oh Sorry

Lets just say that some men are really fucking stupid and think that its ok to not text their girlfriend to let them know they have gone to the emergency room and have been diagnosed with walking pneumonia.

Girlfriend gets home and finds out online that this has happened. Girlfriend worked a double shift today and wasn't on the phone.

I am pretty irritated right now! Seriously you say you love me but then dont text me to let me know that your sick sick. But you put it online? And then when I call you out on it all you can text back is Oh Sorry?

Oh I'm seriously slightly irritated. It doesn't help that my mom wants to make it even bigger than it already is and is all like well its better to find out this now. Blah Blah yes mom i know youre waiting for us to break up sheesh. But really you put it online but dont text me that your sick.

WTF? Really and you think Im not going to have a problem with this lol SERIOUSLY? Ooooo there is going to be a very nice little chat. Because Oh sorry doesn't cut it in my book.

Im a crazy bitch lol I want to know why you thought hey lets tell the world im sick but not tell my girlfriend, who btw worked all day long....seriously irritated.

Ill get over it but theres gonna be a discussion and thats all there is to it lol. Oh and not much hump dayin this weekend lol he was sick lol

For Dawn

So the trouble maker that I am and attention whore lol guilted Dawn into a real blog lol. So I figured since she had a sex story I was going to give her one back. Though mine is going to make her and you piss yourselves laughing lol.

So the whole trip to the boyfriends wasn't wasted. It was a great time and we went to bed one night and he said if you hear a siren its just my phone going off about storms.

Ok whatever I sleep like the dead no biggie. Well it stormed that night and around 5 or 6 in the morning. Hell i dont know what time it was cuz i was sleeping and dreaming. He thought i was on the verge of waking up and asked me about his car windows.

Well i was dreaming of sex sex and more sex lol. In my sleep induced coma lol I answered his question. But I answered it completly wrong.

I don't know what the hell I heard him say to me lol but i just kinda rolled over and mumbled....Let me go to the bathroom first and then we can have sex.

He was taken by surprise and later told me he was thinking what the hell does sex have to do with his windows. Fuck if i know lol all i know is i obviously didnt hear it right and hes such a horndog lol i assumed he was waking me up for some booty lol.

Booty was good, after the peeing lol and we had a huge laugh because who answers the window question with let me pee and we can have some lol.

So i hope you didnt piss yourself but i hope you enjoyed it lol.

Today is starting off fabulous. Mae is bitching about her clothes, the boyfriend is at work with a 101 temp, and I get to go to work this morning lol please dear god let the tips be good lol and not be so freakin swamped lol.

Wonderful World of Parenthood

I don't know if I mentioned it or not but I really didn't get much sleep last night because of the late night drive home and the 4 am puking. And you know that little shit was up before 8 lol like try almost 7 lol.

Well our doctors appointment was at 1115 and it was soooooooooooo not what i wanted to hear lol. So now I have a doctors appointment for 230 to have myself checked out.

The verdict for my poor girl who finally today wanted food and her temp is a bit lower....have a seat cuz you know your either gonna fall over laughing cuz youve been there or fall over laughing cuz youve been there and you feel for me lol.

Strep throat, ear infection, cold, and pink eye! What a fucking combo lol. Cant get that on the dollar menu lol. So the girl is sitting with a mask on so she doesnt infect the rest of the house until her antibiotics kick in, usually after the first 24 hours.

And the Man...god i love him he totally gets it and isnt upset with how we left. Though he did ask how much sleep i got last night because i was trying to talk to him and it wasnt coming out right lol. I told him welcome to parenthood were you ready for this lol he said yes and i was all like unfortunatly fortunatly youre kinda the daddy figure now and blah blah and he was like did you sleep cuz your really kinda not making sense and laughed at me. But he got what i meant and hes good with taking over the daddy role in her life. That just shocks the shit out of me that he is willing to step up and be what we both need and not even be what we need he just is what we need.

Anyways time to take my ass back to the living room and get back to my book. I got the new Janet Evanovich and a bunch of others so im set for reading lol. After Janets book im back to the last two in the vampire academy series!!!

Interrupted

We were supposed to be out of town til tomorrow. We were supposed to go to the movies and have homemade pizza tonight. Saturday Mae got sick and had a 102+ and sometimes 103+ temp.





A trip to the out of town ER and then last night I got home about 1230 because I just couldnt stay any longer with her AGAIN running a 103 temp.





Got her home, in the bath, and now we are waiting for our 1115 appointment. Sadly the boyfriend was right...she's better this morning.





But as a good mom I just couldnt stay out of town another day without getting her to her doctor.





Wish our trip hadnt been interrupted but thats what happens when you have kids.





Also sadly the boyfriend is bringing up all kinds of daddy issues with my girl. Her spermdonor is a piece of shit who cares more about himself then her. Hasnt seen her in over a year and has had no contact with her. She loves and misses him but there is no way Im going to go out of my way to make him see her. He either does it on his own or not at all. The flip side is that the boyfriend is doing a very very VERY good job of being "daddy" to her.





Im just waiting for the day she asks if he can be her daddy and call him daddy. Im pretty sure that he isnt going to have a problem. Like me he thinks her SD is a pos for ignoring the way to see his own child. But he has no problem stepping up and doing the things that a daddy is supposed to do for a kiddo.





It was bliss til the fever hit lol but what are you going to do except look at your man and go sorry that you went from single to a family man in one swoop. BUT unlike the ex, who had issues with Mae being my priority, i have a real man now who understands that he isnt number 1 because she has to be number one.





And now I get to think about this...will Mae be my last baby? I think that if things keep going the way they are she actually may get herself that brother or sister she wants lol.





Life is as good as it gets for me and Ive been computerless since Saturday morning thats why Ive been absent. But Im living life and doing it with someone who loves me and my kid and GETS how it is.





Yup I love that man, even if he is a sex monster lol

Mind Boggling

I know I know I know! Ok I know! I said that I would stop comparing the boyfriend to the ex's but sometimes I just can't help it and it's totally mind boggling!





So the kids dad is the ex that keeps popping up in my head ALOT! Not because I want him, miss him, need him, want the shit he has to offer but the things that he told me in the begining he liked to do.





Which never materialzed except for the beating me senseless or for fun. He told me he liked to be naked at home, all the time. He told me he was into Nascar. He told me he liked to cook. He told me he liked a lot of sex.





All of which turned out to be not so true. I only ever saw him naked if he was showering or fucking me. We never watched a race. His idea of cooking wasnt cooking. And he accused me of only wanting him as a human dildo.





All of these things were not good. Obviously lol and with them being so untrue its no wonder it didnt work out.





So that brings me to the new boyfriend lol. He LOVES LOVES LOVES being naked lol. If he's at his place he's naked. Hell he's so naked he said to call before I got to his place lol. He does cook and grill(ive seen it lol). He is into Nascar...he wears it and watches it lol. And the sex...omg he is so into sex that it doesnt matter how sore we both are if one of us wants it and is able to give it we get it on.





Then we get into the whole play stuff. Yeah he may not be all about wanting to whup up on me, but im totally good with that. BUT i think he has a lil kinky streak in him that he either isnt aware of or just doesnt turn loose lol. Because that fucker lol likes to pull hair lol and i swear ive even caught him going for my throat lol all of which is no biggie to me. Hell he is even figuring out that the harder you play with my nipples the better the response lol.





It is sooo odd that here is my man who didnt promise me anything and is giving me everything I want and then there was the ex who told me he could give me everything i wanted and didnt.





Its totally mind boggling but hey im just gonna roll with it lol. The only thing right now and I think he's getting it is that Im his girlfriend not his friend with benefits. With having Mae all the time we dont get any time alone alone. Except when she's sleeping so we have a lot of sex lol. Not that im complaining but it would be nice to get out and do stuff lol. But again with our schedules we dont get to. I think that with him having his own place, me looking for a better job eventually we will get back to where we started. Hell i even told him i was begining to feel like his fuck buddy or fwb instead of his girlfriend. I dont think it made him to happy to hear that but he did agree that we need to find stuff to do.





So next week if i get the time off that i asked for we have plans to stay at his house and take Mae to the movies and possibly the park. But knowing my boss it will get fucked up and that will just suck ass!





Nothing else going on except i have a huge ass bruise on my arm because i got wasted wasted Saturday and noone is sure what i ran into. All we know is i didnt take my clothes off, i didnt cry, didnt fight, and was overprotective of Mae lol. It was a good holiday weekend! And today the AC guys are coming so it might actually cool off in the house lol

Rant + Update

I think the ex is a lowly piece of shit! Who i truly hope keeps his job so he can continue doing the ONLY thing good he's ever done for the kid(child support). Right now Im a bit pissed off at him because we had her Iowa City appointment yesterday and I couldn't tell them ANYTHING about his history or his other childrens history. Why not? Well lets think back...ooo yea he told the mothers of his children to NOT speak to me! All I wanted to speak to them about was things that went on with their kids by him. He has no idea because he was never involved in their lives. Hell he never even paid child support for them. So yea Im a bit pissed off.

The good news is that she hasnt been sexually molested. I was very afraid of that considering that he is a product of sexual molestation and has used some very inappropriate verbage when speaking about Mae. They asked me what it was like at her dads. I had to tell them I honestly dont know and the last time i heard about anyone being there they were on the sex offender registry AND HE LAUGHED ABOUT IT! Made it into someone for me to attack and be mad at.

Rant about the piece of shit ex over!

It was a way way long day yesterday and there was another point I was pissed off but not at the ex. The psychologist we were taking her to that tried to put her on abilify DIAGNOSED MY DAUGHTER with some form of autism. Thats not why im pissed. Im pissed because HE NEVER TOLD ME! He never once mentioned it, he never once said it, he didnt do a fucking thing except treat symptoms for adhd.

Good news....she isnt autistic. She doesnt fit anywhere on the spectrum! thank you lord jesus! Her fine motor and gross motor skills are a bit delayed but we have plans of action for that.

Mentally she isn't delayed at ALL! She has one lil piece in speech that she didnt get but that could be because while she isnt fully adhd she has at least a touch of it. They said that when she gets to school this coming year it will either correct itself or show how far on the adhd scale she is.

Pica...it sucks! That is for sure the one thing she has that I was right about. Because she ingests these things its not just an oral sensary thing. BUT it could be a bit of both. They psychologist was confident that it would eventually work itself out, but if it doesnt then we just have to keep doing what were doing....WATCH HER.

It was a very emotional day for me because we found out that Mae is ok and that the things Ive been doing are the right things. I even had the dietician tell my mom to just be the grandma and let me be the mom when it comes to the food. But all in all it was a good visit! We needed it and we needed to know.

Im just seriously irritated that I couldnt answer questions about her other siblings that I should have been able to. I didnt want to talk to his other baby mama's to start bullshit. I NEEDED to talk to them and ask questions about their kids. Only a true monster in my opinion wouldnt give a shit enough about a child to make sure the mother has all the information. Because Im pretty sure there is something wrong with his youngest son but ill never know because he told the mom not to talk to me lol. God how pathetic can you get? Ok now maybe rant over lol.

Its the holiday weekend and its gearing up to be really busy. Hell I've been up since 7 and this is the first Ive sat down. Ive got laundry going, im picking up the house, I have to pack, i have to work tonight, i have to not kill my kiddo lol. And then tomorrow get up and do it all over again. Except tomorrow Ill have a bottle in hand lol. Woohoo its the weekend! Im also hoping that next weeks schedule starts on wednesday for me lol that way the boyfriend can come down to the lake. He has a shit schedule and now has to work part of Monday...sooo sucks! But lots of food and family. Ive decided that this weekend Im going to drink and eat and worry about working off the weight next week. Im down almost 70 lbs and I look fantastic. My mom and sister cant believe it. Hell I havnt had the bikini out in like 5 years lol Im rockin it now lol hell its even too big lol. But no money for a new top so Ill just suffer lol.

Have a great weekend!