Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Happy Day

Well what a surprise I was in for this morning when I found that Brenda's blog was MIA and then I realized hey I can see Dawn's blogs again. Sheesh what a begining to my computer time today lol. But the best part of today was it being Valentine's Day! We had a great day at the house!

Mae got a box of chocolates, a card with money, and a stuffed animal all from the Man and his Mama. I made out good too! I got a box of chocolates, the most beautiful card, and a blanket and pillow. I got him a tshirt and his mom a flower that opens and says we love you.

It was the best Vday in a long long long long time! The day didnt just end with that, the day totally continued on a great note!

Today was Mae's sharing day at school so i took the kitties to school. They share something with a letter from the alphabet and the letter this week was T...so tucker n tillie went to school today. AND THEN....because we have the most awesome man, we both went to her party at school and helped out. It was a great time and we are so lucky!

The day ends with a bottle of wine, fancy schmancy for dinner and some tv all cuddled up. Im just waiting for my turn for a cuddle lol Mae is monopolizing the Man so I have to wait. But its ok lol cuz if I only have to come in 2nd or 3rd to her and his mama Im good.

Im thinking before the year is out its marriage city cuz I don't want to run and I don't want him to run and well ya know we're in luuuuuuuuuv lol.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Last night we all went out for supper to the mexican restraunt. He already thinks of her as his kid and that's cool with me because he deals really well with her. Well she shocked the shit right out of us both when she asked him if she could call him daddy and would he be her daddy. Ok so we may have cried a bit, but it's what she wants and who am I to tell her no. He looked at me and I told him that it was up to him but once you commit youre committed.

Today as we're pulling into the garage she goes I really miss my daddy. Since this is the first time she has called anyone else daddy i had to ask who her daddy was. She goes E is my daddy and where is he. Well since we arent living together yet he's at home, told her he would be here tomorrow and she was all good.

We had our adhd appointment today and if you compared mine and the teachers scorecard we both came up with an adhd child and we left with to prescriptions. 1 for the adhd and 1 for the no sleeping. Yes we are back to not sleeping again. She asked if we used anything, um yea the adult dose of melatonin that did nothing. So now its something for anxiety and sleep. Yes at almost 6 my kiddo has inherited anxiety lol its a family affair lol.

But things are really good with us and things are all progressing in the right direction. Hey did you know that for 88cents at WalMart you can buy a pregnancy test? lol yea i thought i read it wrong too lol.

Monday, February 6, 2012

family life

I'm alive I'm alive! I just have been doing the whole family thing and well not much extra time to blog because im a huge bejeweled addict lol.

Sometimes in life you have to really say it's my life and i'm going to live it the way i want. No matter what others think, say, or imply. no matter what i do i'll be judged by somebody and instead of letting that rule my life it's time to say fuck it and do what's going to make me and my kiddo happy.

And family makes us happy. Though i do admit lol that the poor guy doesnt stand a chance with Mae lol i told him he needs to learn the phrase "lets ask your mom" lol. That way she doesn't get him in trouble lol.

It's the house of a 1000 crazy people lol and we're loving it!

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Done!

Thank you sweet jesus they are done! Completely totally 100% done! I am so very very happy that it's over with that I could dance a jig! Yes it is that time again and again I'm done and over it except for the spending, which I kinda already did lol.

Taxes! Yes they are done! And just like last year lol I had to do them twice because my refund wasn't anywhere near where it should be lol. So i waited a day and redid them. The refund went from a grand down to six hundred yesterday lol and today went way up lol like ill have a grand leftover once i get my bills paid!

Which means we have new socks n underware money lol.

Also got the BIG grocery shopping done! Im such a good foodstamp mama I filled the freezer and the cupboard with FOOD and still have almost half my stamps leftover. Nothing irks me more than watching some of the foodstamp mama's come through at work and all they have is tv dinners, soda, frozen burgers and quick shit. I dont know how they do it because we have to have food. Though I must say that paying attention to the ads and buying the yellow tags make it a lot better. I overestimated my meat bill today and was off by like 10 bucks which was really nice because I bought some soup because it was on sale. So coupons and match ads made it so we could have a box of poptarts and some chocolate milk(which i also ad matched lol).

Anyways I think Im going to go breathe a big sigh of relief and when I stop by to get water bill money from my fund lol i can tell them don't worry ill be adding money back to my fund with the refund lol.

Gotta love the bank of dad...wont give me my own damn money unless i have a really good reason lol.

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Truths

While wandering the halls of the net this morning I found a couple comments that I believe are pure and simple truths and thought i would share them!

It takes more than child support and presents to be a dad.

If you're not getting your kids every other weekend then you're only being a dad when it suits you.

You don't get any rewards for paying child support.....YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO!!!!

Maybe you should take the time to see your children and not just around once in a while

Seriously, did you expect some kind of award for "sometimes" buying your kids presents on their birthdays, seeing them periodically (but not every weekend), and calling your ex a bitch?

---Those comments just say all that I can't articulate. And the funny thing is that it's all truth. Truth hurts and sometimes it's good to see people called on it. Fortunatly for me and my kiddo there are people in her life who are willing to pose as a good male role model and a man who actually cares about her and would love to be her Daddy. Maybe one day the rest of the donors who bitch and moan will get a clue and make changes that will not only help them feel better about themselves but will enrich their own kiddos lives.

But then what do I know...I'm just the mama who's doing it on her own.

Monday, January 30, 2012

Seriously lol

Do most websites think we're stupid lol because I'm pretty sure that when I want to delete an account I'm sure I want to delete it lol.

Things in my life have changed rapidly. With these changes and upcoming changes I felt the need, desire, drive to delete myself from dating websites and alternative websites.

This is no longer something that is applicable to my life. While I love the lifestyle for me it isn't something I'm willing to sacrifice my happiness over. To be a healthy whole person you have to know what isn't going to work for you. I will always respect everyone's beliefs but that's it. I don't have any reason to be on those sites because I have what I need.

Want and need are two different animals and need always wins out. I need to be loved, I need my kid to be loved, I need to have support...yes I get that it's a lot of I need but it's my life so it's supposed to be about me!

Sure it would be fun to do all the things I've done again, but truthfully I really like having what I have now. I shouldn't have spent so much time looking for something that wasn't ever going to work in my life. At one time it worked for my life but now, I've grown as a person and the person I've grown into knows that what I have is right, real, and what I need.

Which brings me to the first sentence um how do i delete lol. Why should i have to email to delete why cant i just delete lol. It took me what seemed like forever to get off of the sites. However I triumphed over them and have been removed

Ya know, it didn't hurt at all getting deleted lol more people should try it!