Obsess Obsess Obsess! There are reasons why people do it. I know one of the reasons i obsess about the bad things in the past and i vent them out here. Because i need to get it out. Things that happened in my past when i try to talk about them with people, they dont want to hear.

They dont want to know that it was worse then what they saw. They dont want to believe that someone as smart as i am would allow myself to not only have gotten into that situation, but that i stayed for as long as i did. They dont want to know.

I dont blame them! Who would really want to know what happened in your friends life. That even now things that were seen by my friends are sometimes thrown out at me when im going to do something stupid, im trying to do something stupid, im in a bad situation. Your not supposed to be able to do that to your friends.

Others have been through much worse then me, and that i asked for it, or something and you just cant put all yourself out there like that. It hurts when you get the truth. It hurts when you just cant figure out if some things were really worth what you put yourself through.

Obsess! Yes, I am human and i obsess, but its about the past. Its my past and i can obsess if i want to!

(Oh, this blog is the direct result of watching an episode of Roseanne. It brought up stuff...so ya know.)