It's been a long week and for me my 2 shifts a week are starting today. If you notice its almost 530am and Mae just got up. The only thing I'm sure of at this point is I'm going out of my mind. I havnt got as much sleep as i would like becuase Mae has been getting up about this time if not an hour earlier the last 4 days. Ok hell we have been up at this time since Monday because of the surgery.

First let me say this....stop using WalMart pharmacy if you have to give your child medication. Take it to WalGreens or any pharmacy that flavors their medicine for you. Ive never had a problem giving Mae medicine. She has always taken it and then taken a drink. The loratab tastes like shit! So much so that she would cry like she used to when we took her to the doctors.

Now she wont even take the tylenol that she used to drink down, one shot, no issue. Now she spits it out and wont take it. I dont know how to make her take it without threatening that mama will have to spank her if she doesnt or she is going to have to go to the hospital and get more needles. Yes i know, thats not the way to do it. BUT it seems to work enough to get her to take almost all of her dose. It makes me feel like shit, but for christs sake if anyone has a better idea let me know. Im open to suggestions at this point.

Monday we did ok except for the hyper. Tuesday she spiked a fever and Wednesday it wasnt gone. This time though she was throwing up. Ill be honest, i think im supermom and can handle it on my own. For the most part i can, this time i needed help.

So Tuesday we ended up at the kids dads house. We spent 2 days there. He took the couch, i took the bed and together we did our best to put our differences aside for Mae. For me personally it wasnt the most comfortable but you do what you have to do for your child.

Wednesday morning i ended up taking her to the ER. She was throwing up, the fever was still there and we couldnt get her to drink or take any medicine. Luckily she wasnt dehydrated. They stuck her on an iv and that helped so much. She ate her breakfast which was awesome and we went back to the dads house.

Its been long and its been hard and it keeps getting worse it seems. She doesnt want to drink, which i cant figure out since thats whats supposed to keep her throat from hurting. She doesnt want popsicles all the time and half the time im lucky to get a half one in her. I still cant get the medicine all in her and its very frustrating.

Its enough to make you go, why o why cant they just stay in the hospital for a day or two after. Just to make sure they keep hydrated. The ER nurse said that if id have called the dr he may have just admitted her. Now i know i just said why cant they stay, but really noone wants to have to stay at the hospital.

So now its on her dad to keep her drinking and give her medicine. I have to work today and tomorrow morning so its all him. Sadly again i think of me as supermom and NOONE can do it as good as i can. Yes hes capable, but letting go enough to let him do it is another thing.

I know how he gets frustrated VERY EASILY and i know how VERY TRYING Mae is. It scares me to leave them alone. Especially when Mae isnt in the best of moods and is sick. What am i supposed to do though? Hes her dad and he wanted to be involved. Well now hes involved lets see him continue to step up to the plate.

Im really sleep deprived and havnt been getting as much sleep as i should. The night before last Mae was in my bed until 430 and then up a couple hours later. Right now shes watching Disney channel in my bed and im trying to get this all out in hopes of grabbing at least another 2 hours of sleep.

Im hoping today that Mae will eat. Yesterday she only had a couple bites all day. I wonder if thats not also making her attitude one that i dont want repeated till shes a teen.

I dont know, im just out of sorts. I never want to have to do anything like this again. And whats with all the damn snot? I cant keep her clean to save my soul. I gave her a bath yesterday and 10 minutes after getting out her face was all dirty again. Its the snot and noone said anything about snot!

Ok well i better get myself back to bed and hopefully get a couple more hours. Seriously...what was i thinking when i said cool to more than her tubes!