I can understand having no respect for me. I dont understand not having respect for a 3 yr old!

Awhile ago her dad got into contact with his kids. Back when that happened there was a conversation that took place about those kids and Mae.

Together, as parents, the decison was made that the older child if he wanted could have updates and pictures of Mae because he was sane and doing what your supposed to be doing. Together, as parents, the decision was also made that the younger child was to HAVE NO CONTACT OF ANY KIND with Mae.

Why was that made? Because his youngest child and mother have some serious issues with the father. Sounds familiar doesnt it? And that because he was threatening to tell Mae, a 3 yr old, all about how awful her father is.

Yesterday that point was reiterated when the father and child were on the phone screaming and cursing at each other. It was reiterated because the child has continued to make bad choices that now are resulting in a weapons charge.

Together, as her parents, it was again said she was to have no contact with this person because Mae is 3yrs old and does not need to have someone elses bullshit mar her existence. Mae will make her own choices in life, but at 3 yrs old there is no reason to have contact.

Then not even 20 minutes later in the power struggle that was going on between these two people i hear....You better be nice your sister is on the phone.

EXCUSE ME?? what the hell is she doing with the phone? What the hell happened to the fact that we both decided that she wasnt to have any contact.

What kind of poor excuse for a man does that to his 3 yr old? Youve been screaming and carrying on for 2 hours and then you put MY CHILD in that position?

You dont have to respect me, thats not your job, you do have to respect MAE!

I am all for keeping mae in her 3 yr old world. She doesnt need to be dragged into someone elses bullshit drama scheme.

Im begining to think that maybe i really should contact these mothers and ask for the scoop. Figure out what their problems were with this asshole. Find out what exactly made these mothers keep their children away from him, so much so that they didnt even go for child support!

Im so mad about all of this. I dont understand how you can go from saying let me be nice to you, let me give you gas money since you spent yours on mae, thanking me for letting you be a part of her recovery.

Then to bitch and moan that i wasnt greatful, that i never said thank you. To call my mother and try to have attitude with her. To tell the story you tried to con her with, and then when she hears it from me and my friend what happened all day yesterday, her go...oh well if i would have had all the information i wouldnt have said anything i said to him.

Call my mother, ambush my friends, but what your going to find out is they dont like you, they dont care about you, and they only tolerate you because they, like me, want you to be able to see Mae. They want you to be a part of her life. Not for you, but for her! While this was being discussed last night my dad goes, He isnt EVER allowed down here again!

You know you have to be some kind of piece of shit to get denied that. Hell even my ex cousin inlaw, who has done some shit in his life, is still allowed to go down there.

Im thinking that if her father is a smart man he will man up to his bullshit mistakes and ask for her on the weekends. But i dont expect that to happen. I expect him to continue being the victim and whining to the few people who tolerate him and not change.

I would like to know though what kind of therapist tells someone that "your right you dont have to do therapy for you". Last i knew therapy was about fixing yourself so you could fix what was/is wrong in your life.

My dad did get on me a little bit last night about being over at the kids dads house, so did my mom. The truth of the matter is, i was there not because i had some desire to be in his home. I was there because my 89 yr old grandpa isnt much help with a sick kid. I was there because the help was offered. Hell lets not forget the fit that was thrown when i said no you cant be there for the surgery. Hell i stood in the kitchen at the kids dads house and reiterated the point of your not appropriate in these situations. He said your right! And that was also the reason he didnt go to the ER with Mae and I.

You want to be apart of your childs life you sit down and shut the fuck up. You say yes, you say no and thats all. Not speaking to the childs father and not seeing him except for those 5 minute pick ups and drop offs was the best thing for me. I have no desire to be included in his life. I have no desire to be part of his drama.

I do have a desire for my child to know her father, but maybe ive been wrong in thinking that. Hell there are two other women out there who kept kids as far away from him as possible.

What the hell am i doing wrong? i still cant figure out how hurting me is more important then being with your child. i still cant figure out how drama is more important than your child.

Oh and one last thing....When a man stands over you as your saying goodbye see ya sunday and they say Maybe and say nothing else. They dont mean maybe you have to work, maybe you wont get here on time, or whatever bullshit you tried to sell to my mom. Even my fucking dad knew what was implied with that MAYBE!

Another great line....Ive come to far to go back now!