I have no idea how i do it! I really have no idea i swear! My life just gets crazier and crazier as every day passes!

There isnt really anything i can do except turn off the phone and hide in a closet. But then again i dont like missing anything.

Today started really early with a call from the hospital. They needed to do the preadmissions work up. Luckily Mae wont be restricted to just juice and popsicles for the healing process. Anything soft she can have! Wooo!

Today at 11 is the physical for Mae. Then i need to come home and make sure grandpa has his bag packed with all his medication because he is going with my parents to see my sister who is in the hospital.

She has started the first bleed and right now are trying to get it to stop, or at least go to just an ooze. They are going to try and keep her in the hospital for 2 to 4 weeks. Depending on what the situation does. The baby though is almost 4 lbs so if they have to go early the baby should be fine. They have her on steroids to help with the baby's lungs.

She really needs mom to be there and mom and them are going today.

Mae has her surgery FINALLY on monday. Ive got the fridge stocked full of stuff. Ok so i have to put all the stuff in, but ive got a big lead on stuff for her to eat. I need to go back to the store and buy yogurt, cottage cheese, and plain spaghettio's. I wish shed eat mashed potatos but hey shes a kid their picky.

Yesterday i got a surprise phone call and im really really excited and really really hopeful! If it happens then im going to be one tired grouchy ass girl! But it will be worth it!

I think things with John are officially done. He hasnt texted me since the wedding. Not that i expect him to text me or anything. I mean who really dumps someone or takes a break from someone at a wedding. And then has pictures taken with people. Yea i know, sometimes i just suck. He had invited me to go swimming this weekend but i dont think thats going to happen.

I think that ill just text him out of the blue one day and tell him im having drinks if he wants to come have one with me/us then cool. He said he wanted to stay friends. Well thats about all i can offer.

My life is going good, just a lot of hectic drama filled days. And now my text messages are going off lol. Guess thats my cue to go shower and get ready for the day.

Ahhhh blissfull real life drama....yea i can handle it.