And now for a blog about me! I need to get back on the wagon and start eating better. While i havnt gained all the weight i lost on weight watchers back. I have gained at least 15 of it back.

Its not out of control at the moment, but if i dont get on myself, it will be totally out of control.

The sad thing is that im thinking it may be time to find a man. Its a whole lot easier to find a man without this 15 lbs on me. I need to lose like oooo lets go with 190. ROFLMAO....yea you thought it! No i dont weigh 380, lol, im nowhere near that. But i am up enough that when i get on the scale i go um....i remember seeing a number i was almost ok with. Close enough to know its attainable and in not so long a time. But lazy enough that i dont want to give up eating crap and eating a lot of it.

I LOVE FOOD! I really really do! I love how it tastes, i love how it looks, i love how it lets me use it when im feeling down or up. Gawd i have no excuse! I really truly dont have any excuse. Oh wait i do, ive been lazy.

I know how to cook things that are good for me and taste good, but i dont want to change. Id rather just use a can opener then pull out a pot. I know LAZY GIRL!

I wish thinking about thinking about a man was the only reason. Im a better mom with the 15 lbs i gained back off. More energy means more out. One thing that im finding is that the computer isnt holding me back from doing things like it has in the past. I used to look forward to sitting here and snacking for hours. But now its like, what the hell is there to do on here. I can only play so many games, and i can only stare blankly for hours on end.

I need to lose some weight! I know im not lost yet because my clothes still fit me. I havnt had to go and buy bigger clothes. Thats a big plus! I havnt started the big downhill slide. I dont intend to. I also dont intend to like make big huge radical changes in my food.

Big change and me dont work well together. It adds more stress and then i want to eat. I do plan on buying more chicken. BUT i gotta have a big ass steak first lol. My body has been craving a big slab of red meat, but i havnt gotten it yet. So i think ill start with the red meat push and then hit the chicken.

Poor Poor Mae! She hates vegatables. I like my chicken cooked with veggies. Like a stir fry. I found that i can eat a lot of stir fry and i can still lose and maintain weight. But i have to make myself get that, we are eating chicken and i better find a way to get over it lol.

I think part of it is that ive been watching that stupid fox show about the fat girls. Maaaaaaaaan i am soo not one of them. Guys like fat chicks, but they dont like REALLY FAT chicks. Im sorry thats rude i know, but we all know thats true. Its hard to find a guy when your really fat, i know ive been there ive lived it. I also know that if i lose 20 lbs guys dont look at me like im really fat, they look at me like a cute fat chick.

Im thinking its time to get back into life and its easier to do it weighing less.

How stupid is that? I mean really, i know who and what i am. but there are things you have to do to just fit in more. Why is it always about fitting in? All i know is that i dont want my friends to go um hey heather....we should have told you this 6 months ago, but um, your FAT!

Heres to having food issues! Lead me not to the refrigerator.