Sooo not liking the anti depressant they put me on. Sooo not liking the fact that ive been pawned off to another place who isn't answering the phone during their business hours. Then if they can't help me I call back the place that is pawning me off lol.

What a freaking viscious cycle. I tell you what though, if i dont have an answer by tomorrow mornings dose...I wont be taking it.

Its making me jittery, my heart feels like its racing, i cant key down to sleep, when i do sleep i dont think im sleeping. Thursday Im supposed to start taking a whole pill. Well fuck me, if a half a pill is making me feel this way, whats a whole pill going to do?

Yes, i know your not supposed to stop them, but man i have to sleep! Not sleeping is part of what got me here in the first place.

The upside is ive lost 4 lbs since ive been on it lol. Wonder if that has anything to do with all the jittery heart racing stuff....im pretty sure it does!

God i love modern medicine, but seriously, i cant take this medicine. I know there are other meds out there that wont make me feel like this, but because i have no money i have to go to the sliding fee place. My first therapy appointment is May 25 and then i see a psychiatrist on June 15th.

Seriously lol it just keeps getting better.

My grandpa is still very ill, and at night he sundowns and can turn into a wild man. The haldol theyve been giving seems to help...if you get him early enough. But he isnt sleeping well either. Its crazy its horrible and im pretty sure my mom is next for a lil mental break!