We have all but been diagnosed with ADD/ADHD. The reason i say this is because the Dr looked at me and said she thought thats what her problem is. That her not sleeping is part of the i guess disease.

It also explains why yelling and spanking do absolutly no good with her. It also explains the having to be into everything.

Now i have to go and figure out how to contact her brothers mothers to find out if they are ADD/ADHD that way i can tell the doc. Yea family history is kind of important. Even if it is half brothers.

So yay i get to be the unwanted bitch in these two womens lives. I called the asshole and asked him. He has no idea being he hasnt ever been in their lives. Told him to email me any info. But we know that he wont do it. God i dont want to be a part of these womens lives even for the briefest of moments. BUT since i am the only PARENT this child has, ill have to suck it up and be all intrusive.

God what the hell!!! It is nice however to have an idea of whats going on. Now to research it a bit because the dr told me that she cant do anything for Mae until shes 5 or 6. Thats 2 years of not being able to do anything.

Tonight we will be using benedryl to see if we can get her to sleep. You know i have learned a lot of patience with Mae....now im going to have to learn a whole lot more.

As for the kids dad....The minute that i have a job that isnt on the weekends. His ass is completly cut off from Mae. He has proven time and time again that he doesnt have her best interests at heart and Im personally done trying to deal with him. Obviously if he gave a shit about her....id have the information i need. The only other search i have to do now is to figure out how to go about locating his family. I personally do not want any more medical surprises from his limited gene pool.

Well at least i know why im tearing my hair out and that even though the other half of her dna doesnt give a rats ass....my friends and family are there for her and me. Supporting us in any way we need support.

Heres to all those that love you with truth integrity and honor!