There are alot of blogs out there about the horrible evil biomom, well ya know what, it cuts both ways! There are biodads out there who are no prize winners! Hell I sometimes think that if my ex would get a girlfriend or something he might be ok! He might be able to understand that calling me a bitch and telling Mae that her mom is being a bitch again IS NOT OK!

Welcome back to the on again off again saga of uber dick! Today we were supposed to go to a memorial for a guy I used to work with and who the kids dad worked with until the guy got too sick to work. I was a grump on the phone this morning. I wasn't a bitch, I wasn't attacking, I wasn't psycho crazy woman. I was just grumpy.

I had a long bad night last night between nightmares and Mae, add to that I had to work with the new girl(who i just found out quit after night1 lol) the alarm going off at 8 am was not a sound I was into.

I apologized for being grumpy! Like the second he got into my car. I apologized because I knew I was snappy and didn't want to deal with any bullshit drama today. We made it all the way to the grocery store and that was it. I guess I yelled at Mae...give me a fucking break...yelling is about the only thing that gets her little butt into gear. He started telling me what was what. I told him do not tell me what to do. It's not his place he needs to just shut it.

He continued and I was not dealing with it. So I didn't! I told Mae to get back in the car we were leaving. I WAS going to drop him off...then he dropped the bitch bomb. He looked down at Mae and told her let's go your mom is being a bitch again. Um hello?? Do you not remember the last time you called me a fucking bitch to Mae?? Obviously not! And after the tone of his voice and his yelling at me...I left his ass in the parking lot!

No I will not feel bad about that! I know this man! I know what he is capable of. I know the last time he was like that with me I got fucking hit while driving, he turned my car off, and hit me again. I am not his girlfriend, fuck buddy or anything that would give him the right to do anything to me. I was not giving him the opportunity. My opinion is he got comfortable and forgot to be on his good boy behavior.

Sooooooooooo now I am the psycho. I need to call the psych doc for me, I need to be medicated, I need to I need to I need to...all while he was blowing up my phone. Yes I hung up on him everytime because he was screaming at me. I wasn't screaming I was fighting off a freakin anxiety attack. He kept blowing up my phone and then when he did apologize the next thing out of his mouth was how I'm crazy and I never heard the rest because I hung right back up.

AGAIN he decides that my MOTHER will be his ally, his friend, his whatever. One of these days he will realize that the minute after he hangs up with her she is on the phone with me. COMPLAINING about him calling her! She wants ZERO to do with him. She DOES NOT want to help him in any way shape or form! What she does want is for him to stop calling her!

He thinks that we spend our time talking about him and bad mouthing him to Mae. Here's the thing...WE DO NOT TALK ABOUT HIM! When you aren't obsessed about someone, not in love with someone, not in like with someone, you don't talk about them or worry about what they are doing. Ooo wait I forgot we did talk about him a few weeks ago BUT we actually weren't talking about him we were talking about another friend of mine and his name was brought up because he is the other person not welcomed at my mom and dads lake house. Ooooo and guess what? Mae wasn't even around for that. But the bottom line is we don't trash talk him around Mae or not around Mae. The only time we bring his ass up is when he pulls some bullshit like today!

I don't know....I just wish he could get his shit together enough to be able to stay in Mae's life. As it is I had to explain to Mae that I left her dad because he was calling mommy nasty names and being disrespectful. AND THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT I SAID...no more no less.

Now that I have that out of my system...I am on to enjoying my day off with Mae. We have movies to watch and fancy schmancy for supper. Tomorrow will be a real busy day with getting the house cleaned up so we can have our deck party. The booze is bought, the cake is ordered, the cheese is in the can, the hamburger is thawing....Wooohooo a nice Friday night....as long as the rain stays away lol.