Well after getting the stink off Mae i was able to get her fever down rather quickly. I am THE MAMA!!

Half a bottle of gatorade, a popsicle, jello and a lil loving and she is sleeping with no fever! Lets just hope that it stays gone. I swear it has to be all that breast milk she had as a baby helping her fight all the sickness going around.

We watched a movie and a half and then we all, those who matter in my life, came to the conclusion that the only reason my 99% potty trained daughter would just sit there and pee all over the chair is because she had 2 days where she didnt have to go to the potty.

Its seriously frustrating sending that girl to that mans house. If she didnt have a need and desire to go there. Trust i would not send her. I think all my friends and family would agree that while the ass probably isnt the best for her, since i made the ass the daddy,and let her be part of her life from the begining that i know have to live with it.

Im just sooo tired of a dirty girl and all the crap that i wish i could just be a royal cunt and stop all visitation. BUT for her sake i cant. I know my mom would give me at least one weekend a month where i could be Mae free, but that doesnt solve Mae needing her daddy.

So its been yet another crappy sunday where i had to breathe the foulness that was the asshole. Seriously...cologne isnt to hide the body odor and the fact that your too lazy to give your child a bath. Please brush her hair more than once...and um yea a toothbrush is a good thing!

Now that im done ranting lets start another rant lol.

DAMN YOU MSNBC!!!! Im a true crime serial killer buff. Ok just to be honest....that does not explain a lot about me lol. I just like true stories. Ive always been fascinated by how these people's minds work and what happened.

Well its been 6 hours of true crime today. I watched part of Dahmer. At least once he was caught he was open and as honest as he could be about what happened in his interviews. Like he said nothing he can say will help, but at least the victims families have some idea of why it happened.

Then it was Charles Manson. I dont know why but thats one i always watch if theres stuff on. I still think that when the lady was dying from brain cancer and clearly not a danger to anyone they should have let her out so her family could pay the medical bills instead of the state.

Now im watching the tail end of Jonestown. This is the second one ive seen. It makes me cry everytime. The one on CNN, i think thats where Solidad is at, really made my heart hurt. In their report you could hear the children crying. Almost begging to not have to drink that stuff. Ive read things about this one before and the two shows ive seen have given more information.

I dont know how you dont realize that your being screwed over. I dont know how you dont listen to your family. But then thats brainwashing for you.

Im looking forward to this week. At least im hoping that there isnt some change in plans and i get to enjoy a couple hours for me before the weekend.

The journy is hard and the road filled with bumps and holes. But im trying and i dont know what i think of it. But i can tell you this....i think im enjoying it. If anything at all at least i will have had another notch of experience added to my meager belt.

Heres to having a good week.