Do you remember the last time i ranted and raved about the asshole exclusively? Like devoted an entire blog to nothing but the asshole? Neither do i. I was looking for exclusive asshole rants and i said screw it after i was into early september and didnt see any.

That tells me something. It tells me that i was doing so very well in getting over the assholes stupidity that i was letting it all go before i got a chance to hit the keyboard. That it didnt matter how fucked up things were because it wasnt getting worked up over. Especially because the asshole was never going to change. Never going to do it the way it should be done. So i just let it irritate me and then it was gone. Hell i havnt even bitched to my friends. Thats how good ive been doing in not letting his bullshit bother me!!!!

I dont know how many times i have had to say this but ill say it again. I have moved on from the asshole. i have learned that it doesnt pay to dabble in that game. it doesnt do any good to bitch and moan. Ive moved on, grown. Left the asshole alone. I dont know if or where he blogs. I dont have access to his yahoo stuf. I dont have him on any websites im on, that i know of, because i havnt looked. Hell the one time i did see him on a shared website i think he deleted himself because i never saw that profile again. The only time i have to deal with the asshole is when it comes to Mae.

Lucky for me i dont have to do that except twice a week. And only for 5 minutes at a time. Im happy with that! Im all good! I know he has people over. I know he still lies about it. I have to trust that he isnt introducing her to people who are all about drama and bullshit and whats not best for her.

I have to trust him. i cant trust him. i try i try i try and when i get to a point where i think i can trust him WAAAAM fucking bullshit drama pop up!

Im not even going to go into all the little things that have irked me about the asshole. i dont need to because i cant do anything about them except hurt Mae and not let her go over there. I bring Mae home today and im checking my email on collarme and its this chick named maranda.

i know i'll probably get bitched at for this but how's everying between you and daniel? how's you daughter? she's pretty cool. and yes, i'm maranda. i was just checking on ya cause i know ya'll two(you and daniel) don't always get along so great. i wish you luck in getting along for the sake of the child.

Thats what i had to come in contact with. Why o why would she come to me? What does she have to gain by driving a wedge further between two parents who she admits to knowing have a hard time getting along. and why would she need to say and yes im maranda as if i should know who she is!! But she has met my child! The asshole has introduced her to a drama queen. One who has some motive that isnt about Mae!!!!

Why the fuck and who the fuck and seriously??? AND THEN!! When i called the asshole and said so whos Maranda...HE FUCKING LIED!! Said maranda who, i dont know a maranda....and then i was like um this is what she said and has met my fucking kid!!! He fucking backtracked like his lying ass always fucking does....oooo well that must be this friend of coops who came over and blah blah blah!!!!

Get a fucking leash for your friends! And then expect to not be held accountable for this woman trying and succeeding in pushing my buttons. Knowing enough history about his history that she would do that to him and mae. WTF who needs enemies with friends like that. Its like the other fucking cunt all over again!

I dont care if hes fucking her, fucked her or whatever. i do care that she was/is around my daughter! the asshole isnt from here so any friend he has or makes has happened within the last 3 years!! The friends i have...lifelong friends if not into decades as my friend. BIG FUCKING DIFFERENCE!!! And this person just wants to cause drama.

He denies her so obviously she isnt that important and it makes me wonder if she wants to be involved in his life so bad that she started with me. I dont know...all i know is i have been doing my own thing.

Trying to get my life to where i want it. Searching hard for someone for me that is good for me and for Mae. Its hard work and i dont want just anyone around my girl. But the asshole obviously just doesnt give a shit!!!

Seriously...it was a good sunday until the asshole and his followers happened. Thanks!

Heres to this being the last bullshit rant i have to do over the asshole and his drama queen!

**Oh and to make this day even sweeter! I started my period yesterday and am in the middle of a big set of grouchies and ouchies!! Oh yes thank you mother nature for picking this time to drop bullshit into my lap!