You know even I would put on the girliest of dresses and the nicest of shoes if I was going to meet the queen. I mean really, it's the friggin Queen! Why wouldn't you want to look nice. Do you really need so much attention that you can't even do something that the rest of the world would.

I mean if your an African whatever meeting the Queen you wear your countries clothes. I chose Africa because they have some outfits that while costumey arent costumes. They are their style of clothing that has been around forever. It's not a suit and tie. Ya know what I'm saying. It's real clothes, Like Japan they have kimonos that are way nice. Not a dress. But there clothes not costumes.

I know this is a bit late lol, but I don't pay attention to stuff. I was going through people and they had Lady GaGa's fashion MISTAKES (my view lol) and I come to the one with her with the Queen.

How inappropriate and disrespectful to meet the Queen in that outfit. If she was meeting someone in the music/film/tv industry that might be ok. BUT THE FRIGGIN QUEEN you show up in red latex and say you toned it down. Um your a stupid disrespectful shit!

It's not appropriate to meet someone, in my opinion, with that kind of outfit. There is nothing wrong with putting on "normal" clothes for meeting someone. Your clothes are a costume designed to get you attention, which it did/does! I'm all for individuality, but come on, even I know that there are times that you put the costume away and be a person not a persona.

I don't know just an opinion. Just a stupid rant. Just a bit of what was in my mind.

Now onto figuring out how to deal with the Mae who got more than enough sleep and is hell on wheels (the good and bad way) and wants to I don't know...PUSH THE FREAKING LIMITS!!! I love the girl, but man...lol Come on 4...let's see what that has in store for me lol. I'm about done with 3 lol.

Happy New Year!! It's almost over, It's almost done, It's almost....TIME TO DO IT ALL AGAIN!!

I have been going since I got up lol. I've got the crockpot all cleaned and ready to have good hamburger cheese dip put in it. I've got the bottle of Ketel One my Uncle bought me. I've got it under control!

Except I had to call my mom. I had no idea how long to put this cheese in the crockpot for before serving. It's always been ready by the time I've gotten to the pot. I called Katie first, her phone is out of range. Called Dad's phone and Katie answered lol. Then Katie put my mom on the phone! Ooooo maaaaaaaaan are you kidding me!

So you know you can't just hang up on your mom. Ok so you can but that never helps anything. Anyways, she's like were getting ready to go. I was all I want to know is how long you do this for. She goes on to tell me the whole process lol, yea ok I must be totally stupid lol. That's her way though!

THEN!!! She wants to know when we are coming to get Mae and mine's presents. I was like we aren't, I didn't get anything for anyone else, I don't expect gifts. Well I have them here, Ok so take them back. When are you coming to get them. When will you be in town next. No you need to come to the house to get them.

That's the back n forth conversation with my mother! Ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooomg seriously!!! Don't get me wrong, I love my mother, and yes, I'll even miss her when shes's gone. But I just wanted to know how long to turn the cheese on for!

Next weekend we will be going to my mom's so Mae can have her christmas down there. Ok so it's not a horrible horrible thing. BUT You KNOW that eventually the text message will have to be discussed and there we will be at my mom's house in the wild, in no mans land, Where the body(mine) can be hidden!! Lovely lol..oh well...it's ok. I'm a selfish bitch, I want Mae to have the camera my mom got her. Plus like I said, I love my mom.

THEN THEN THEN!!! Because I'm such a "fuckUp", who has no manners, no class, no couth, no insert your word here, I do the right thing! I say to my mom, Thank you for having Katie come up, I know that someone had to have talked to her about it and I figure that was you, so thank you I appreciate it.

I NO LONGER HAVE TO CHOSE TO BELIEVE!!!! My mom told me that it wasn't her. That Katie knew they were going into town and she WANTED to come see us! She may not have wanted to stay the night, I'm all good with that! BUT she did want to come see us. DID YOU HEAR ME!!! SHE WANTED TO!!

I have been told over and over and over and OVER that Katie doesn't want to see me, she doesn't want to talk to me. Um...I think I may hear a bullshit in there somewhere. Because if she didn't want to see me why would she ask if she could come in???????

This whole Katie saga sucks for another reason, yes off topic digression, because I don't think she truly knows how much we want to spend time with her. Everytime I have said something to her about how we want her around and love and miss her, she looks at me like I'm lying. Like she didn't know it. That she doesn't/can't believe it. I really wonder what has been said to her. Because I'm really thinking it's not the reality.

BUT Katie came to see us because she wanted to. She wasn't forced, she wasn't coerced, She just wanted to!!

My Christmas has turned out better then it should have, and my New Years Eve is working it's way to a good time.

Happy New Year everyone, may the new year bring you no more than you can handle!

It's been 2 days of work! I need to figure out how to not do so much work at work lol. I did a lot of work!

Here's my thing about getting the cleaning done at work...Just fucking do it! Fuck Nike, because my Nikes are shot lol, it's about just doing it!

Here's what we have to do! Sweep the store, mop the floor, sweep behind the counter/mop, dishes, dishes, dishes!,vacum, tear paper, tear apart/clean/re-assemble the slicer, change all garbages, make sure brownies are cut, put all the food away, clean tables...Are you noticing a pattern here?

Besides making sandwhiches and trying to hustle tips, we do ALL the cleaning! Yea they sweep behind the counter, change garbage, and yes they do the slicer. BUT we have to clean everything. It's a lot of crap work!

It's all the "housework" that NOONE likes to do! What's the best way to get the "housework" done? Just Fucking Do It! That means, get off your ass and bust it out! There are other "chores" that I didn't put on the list because there's a lot of little things.

But we do all that and doing your closing work while customers are still coming in SUCKS!

I could sit on my ass, but ya know, I want to be out of there as soon as I can once that clocks hits 10!

I do alot of the grunt work. I'm getting burnt out on it and will need to bust some dishes on Saturday. You can divide the work up any way you want, but it is just way easier for me to do it. I know that makes me sound like the "Bitch" at work, but hey, unlike her, I can go with the flow if it isn't going my way, the way I want, or would like it to be.

I don't know why it takes some of these girls so long to sweep and mop a freaking floor! It's not that hard. Insert broom under table and pull back thrust back under table, pull back... lather, rinse, repeat! Mopping...grab mop, wet mop, wring mop, use mop in a back and forth pattern removing dirt. It's not hard, rocket science, or brain surgery! It is a job that if you just fucking do it, gets done and is over with.

Getting up to get a pop? Clean a table on the way, clean the sneeze guard, fill this that and this.

It's not hard and I guess maybe I just want to be able to say hey, its my turn to do dishes. But the problem with that is, the other people are still out doing the lobby while I'm ready to get the table broken down and the dishes going. SOOOOOO instead of just doing dishes, I end up, a lot of the times, doing all the dishes and breaking down until they get done. It's frustrating, which is why I don't wash a lot of dishes.

Tonight the Boss's daughter was just leaning on the counter texting. I was out in the lobby sweeping or something. I was like ya know the condiments can be done. She looked at me like I was nuts. She didn't want to do them , and we had a word, but she did them lol. Bitched the whole time, but did them. You have to get on her or she won't do anything. I don't help anything by doing all the lobby stuff, or as much of it as I can. She likes to stock chips, woo.. have at it lol I don't like to do chips lol. So to make up for it, I'm mean, and make sure she doesn't get a break during the dishes lol.

THOUGH!! If she was honest she would tell you it's a good thing because then we are out of there at like 1002 lol.

Life comes down to this...Just fucking do it. LOL

Spent Monday with Katie and truely enjoyed the time. It was short, but it was way better than nothing!

Then I got to see her again yesterday, for like an hour, but it was still time spent with her. Dad was nice and drove up to my work so I could give Katie a sandwhich and my mom was the UB and when I waved outside everyone but her waved back. Way to go mom! All because I didn't want to go out before 2pm. Oh yea and your other daughter is a psycho cunt from hell!

Work kind of sucked! First they wanted me in early. No I wanted to spend time with my Uncle and then hey there was Katie. I would have missed seeing her if I'd have gone in. Then there were drama issues at work. God!! I didn't want to work with who I worked with when I heard issues. But I sucked it up and did it.

Now I'm going into work early AGAIN today! Seriously...if for whatever reason you can not work the shift with all those hours, Um do ME a favor, give it up and let me slide into that place! Seriously..you ripped off a wiper blade this morning and have to leave early. WTFE!! NOT MY PROBLEM! Maaan do you know how many days I don't want to go to work, BUT GO! Do you know how many excuses I could make up, I don't! Grrr sometimes I just hate work!

Then Sunday I was at my friends house who has the ex as my roommate. Maaaaaaaaan! I don't know how much more I'm going to be able to take before I blow the fuck up! Seriously! How hard is it to figure out that I don't remember everything you do. It was like 14 years ago 14YEARS AGO! That I was your girlfriend. I have had a lot of life in those years.

I'm sorry he wasn't a significant ex. Except for he was the first one to ever hit me. I was more interested in the fact that you had an id that said 21. I'm sorry that it was way more for you then it was for me. Oh wait a minute! It was supposed to be like that for me. I was really young and it just wasn't the same thing for me as you. I needed a place that wasn't home, I needed a place I could pretend to be a grown up. It wasn't the place I was going to stay for the rest of my life.

I'm tired of the innuendos. I'm tired of all the bullshit! There are reasons that we didn't last. Just be greatful I even talk to you at all!!!

So that brings me to NYE! Yayyy that's tomorrow! AND my Uncle loves me o soo much! He bought me a bottle of Kettle 1~ Mmmm yay me! So were doing the house party with the kids at my friends house. I am sooo hoping that the ex goes to Kansas City. Would make for a much better party! No ickiness!

The year has gone way to fast. The next thing I'll be celebrating is Mae's 4th birthday! Ooo where did the time go!

My neck is killing me and so is my back. I think when I brought Mae in tonight I pulled something lol. That girl is too big for me to carry. Guess I'll never be getting a job that requires me to move more than 50 lbs repeatedly lol.

Ok so I'm just going to complain about how my neck and head and back hurts. I'm going to complain about how when I do get into bed, it's not going to be much better lol.

I want to blog but I don't have it in me to blog lol. I'm tired! I feel like I've been put through the wringer.

I'm going to hope that it made a difference and it was seen for the truth it is.

Here's to feeling kind of crappy but not so crappy.

Survivor is over for the moment. They have already teased us with the next one. Villans and Heros or whatever it is. Anyways! So I'm reading People and there is an article about Russell.

I think he should have won, he was the best player ever. Well at the end of the article are people's opinions. There are some who are like bring him back for the allstars or whatever is next.

I personally do not see how you could bring him back for an all stars event. Where do you go with your strategy from this last one? Who is ever EVER going to believe a word he says. Who would be going home first because of how well he can play the game.

Mann I don't want to see him get voted off first lol. Though that would make a whole lot of people feel better. So you know they will probably bring him back.

It will be very interesting to see if anyone would try to go along with Russell.

I don't know, I was just reading and had to share lol.

Figured out how I'm paying the kid's dad back. Pack of smokes and some "good" groceries. He truely saved my ass.

I had ZERO hope of seeing Katie this Christmas. I never once allowed the thought of Katie coming up here into my head. Why would I? They leave on Sunday and they weren't coming into Waterloo.

I'm choosing to believe that Katie decided on her own to come up here. That she wasn't prodded and poked, helped along. I really am going to choose to believe that we are some how important in even the smallest way and she wanted to see us.

With his 20 bucks, my 3 dolla's and change in the bank, and the tip money I found in my wallet I was able to get Katie two presents. I thought Mae was going to have to forget a trip on the Carousel but I had change in my purse too. The calendar was half off and Spencer's had a Edward puzzle.

Yay! Katie has presents under our tree. They should have been there all along, but if they weren't going to give the gifts I bought, well I was getting Mae something else!!

Yayyy Katie will be here in like a bit less than 9 hours!

Here's to Christmas wishes coming true!