So technically its saturday morning lol but when I started drinking it was Friday night lol. My cheap ass wine was on sale today and my mommy bought some for me lol. I drank 97% of the bottle the other 3% my friend drank. Ok so maybe I drank 99% of it lol. But that happens lol.
And as usually happens when you drink you get sentimental and you get real with yourself. I love that man. I am glad I foun him. Im glad that he wants me and my kid.
Yup Im a bit fucked up but i didnt drunk dial him lol or drunk text him lol. He will be here tomorrow and all will be right in our world for a couple days.
Brenda....thank you for your comments. Its hard to be happy and going with the happy I have had to make a couple decisions that I kinda hate.
Ive decided that I should probably in the best interest of this new relationship drop a couple friendships that I have had for years. Not because I dont like them anymore but because they will try to ruin my happiness. I really like this guy and not being friends with these two people anymore doesnt break my heart. It hurts that I cant be friends with them because they wont like my happiness but i like my happiness and Im not going to jeopordize it.
Its really really scary what im going through and as much as i dont want to fuck it up Im doing everything in my power to fuck it up lol. I figure if he wants to leave do it sooner rather than later because that way im the only one who is hurt.
We are addicted to each other. He's addicted to me and Mae and Mae and I are addicted to him. Soon we will find ourselves spending a few days together in his place just us. Im afraid we wont want to leave.
Sooo lol my drunk ass is going to go to bed and hopefully dream of all the possibilities that could be.
Sigh.....why must i be a girl lol
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Ohh the differences
I am so happy about all the differences from other relationships to this one. I have to stop comparing them because when I was with them there were reasons and things i liked about them that kept me there. But this guy is soooo not any of the other guys. Everyday it just keeps growing and I am greatful.
Tonight I thanked him for doing someone else's job and not minding. Letting my girl sit with him, hug him, talking to her, hell he even learned quick that if you misplace something the first person to ask is Mae lol.
It hit me as we sat outside tonight that Mae hasn't seen her dad in almost a full year. If you ask him its because im a big mean bitch. But reality is that his smoking and drinking are more important that him using that money to take a taxi to pick his kid up. I have the emails saved that show exactly what he needed to do to see her. In a year he has CHOSEN to not see her. To only do take responsibility through his child support.
In the almost two months that he's been coming around the house he has been way more of a dad to her than her actual father. I told him tonight that I appreciate it. He doesn't understand how if I told him how to see the kid why he chooses not to see her. He even offered to go with me to take her over, but to be honest after all the bs that has come from him Id be afraid he wouldnt let me get her back if we went and did that. I would much rather wait for late night fun then have all day fun because she isnt here. She is the priority and always will be. He gets that! Thank god he does or else this wouldnt work.
He told me today of some places that are hiring in his town and I dont know if I can actually commit to moving there lol. I need to check it out and as soon as he gets into his place it looks like I may have to take a few days off work to go stay with him. While were there we can visit my family, the cemetary, and the park. He can get used to us being there lol cuz im difficult to live with lol.
But he said it! He was afraid to say it and said he knows its early but its how he feels. He told me he loves me! And its not the sex or the cooking lol because that didnt start til after we became an item lol. Go me lol the only self control I had lol.
I really really am happy and I even bought him a Fathers day card and Ill write a little note in it thanking him for the moments of "daddy" joy he has brought to my girly!
I cant believe i found him. I cant believe he loves my crazy ass and is ok with my family. Heres the funny thing...im not worried about being so crazy for him. This just feels sooo right! And he said it first lol so um yay i get to be in charge roflmao. Naaa its a 50/50 kind of thing. I almost didnt go out with him, now im really glad i did because I would have missed something special.
Heres to taking a chance!
Tonight I thanked him for doing someone else's job and not minding. Letting my girl sit with him, hug him, talking to her, hell he even learned quick that if you misplace something the first person to ask is Mae lol.
It hit me as we sat outside tonight that Mae hasn't seen her dad in almost a full year. If you ask him its because im a big mean bitch. But reality is that his smoking and drinking are more important that him using that money to take a taxi to pick his kid up. I have the emails saved that show exactly what he needed to do to see her. In a year he has CHOSEN to not see her. To only do take responsibility through his child support.
In the almost two months that he's been coming around the house he has been way more of a dad to her than her actual father. I told him tonight that I appreciate it. He doesn't understand how if I told him how to see the kid why he chooses not to see her. He even offered to go with me to take her over, but to be honest after all the bs that has come from him Id be afraid he wouldnt let me get her back if we went and did that. I would much rather wait for late night fun then have all day fun because she isnt here. She is the priority and always will be. He gets that! Thank god he does or else this wouldnt work.
He told me today of some places that are hiring in his town and I dont know if I can actually commit to moving there lol. I need to check it out and as soon as he gets into his place it looks like I may have to take a few days off work to go stay with him. While were there we can visit my family, the cemetary, and the park. He can get used to us being there lol cuz im difficult to live with lol.
But he said it! He was afraid to say it and said he knows its early but its how he feels. He told me he loves me! And its not the sex or the cooking lol because that didnt start til after we became an item lol. Go me lol the only self control I had lol.
I really really am happy and I even bought him a Fathers day card and Ill write a little note in it thanking him for the moments of "daddy" joy he has brought to my girly!
I cant believe i found him. I cant believe he loves my crazy ass and is ok with my family. Heres the funny thing...im not worried about being so crazy for him. This just feels sooo right! And he said it first lol so um yay i get to be in charge roflmao. Naaa its a 50/50 kind of thing. I almost didnt go out with him, now im really glad i did because I would have missed something special.
Heres to taking a chance!
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Keeping Us Honest
The best thing about our relationship is the time we are forced to spend apart. It keeps us honest. It sucks but we have to spend time apart. We dont want to but it just makes it all the nicer when we get to see each other again.
We have all this technology but we have to work at this. We have to do it the old fashioned way. The way that worked for years and years and now doesn't happen that often.
With texts, phone calls, and the stickers we leave each other on the site we met, we get to romance each other. We get to appreciate the time we do get to spend together.
Its hard but its keeping us honest, if that makes sense.
It gives us something to look forward to, hell even if we were living together his work schedule would help keep us honest. He works a couple 12 hour days and maaaan it sucks, but when he gets back here its so nice.
This is all so new to me that I dont like keeping it honest lol I dont want to keep it honest. But life is making us do the work. He will be moving to his new apartment July 1st if everything goes as planned. He also is getting a couch that will pull out so that Mae and I can stay. I think I'm going to ask for a couple days off at work so that we can spend a few days together totally alone lol. No mom or dad to worry about, just Mae and shes part of the package so it would be what real life is like together.
I told him tonight though i dont know if im going to like staying at his place because there really won't be a reason for us to leave except for me to go to work. Hell he even said he would help me with gas so we can make the 45 minute drive to be with him. WTH lol I cant even get the kids dad to pony up gas money for her to visit and this man who also has child support to pay, and a car to pay for and insurance is able to and willing to pay for us to be able to be with him.
How the hell did this happen? Oh wait thats right! I DONT CARE! Because I deserve this! I wish I would have been smart enough to check out my other relationships online(well the ones where it was available technology lol) it would have maybe saved me some heartache. Ok who am I kidding lol i probably would have done it anyways. But this guy lol traffic tickets and nothing on the sex offender registry. Sweeeet!
I have a very bad feeling lol that once we start spending time with him alone alone, Mae and I wont be home very often. It just seems so right! It feels so right!
So because im greedy, selfish, whiny, and clingy lol I invited him over for supper after he gets off work on Thursday. OMG i have to fucking make gravy because he wants like a hot beef sandwhich lol. Maaan gravy is something I can make but I cant have lol. So because Im a good girlfriend lol Ill be making gravy for him lol.
Did I mention that he really likes my cooking lol. So much so that Monday he had an Al Bundy moment lol. Pants had to be undone and then he tried to nap in the chair lol.
Ok so it's late and tomorrow has already gotten here lol and there is lots to do tomorrow. Hope everyone is doing good and I will try to not be such a neglectful friend. So ill be texting or calling and leaving stupid messages Brenda Dawn lol beware lol Oh and my texts only vibrate the phone so you are welcome to text anytime you want and if i hear it ill answer if not lol ill get it in the morning. Thanks for your support and opinions on this because my girlfriends opinions mean a lot!
We have all this technology but we have to work at this. We have to do it the old fashioned way. The way that worked for years and years and now doesn't happen that often.
With texts, phone calls, and the stickers we leave each other on the site we met, we get to romance each other. We get to appreciate the time we do get to spend together.
Its hard but its keeping us honest, if that makes sense.
It gives us something to look forward to, hell even if we were living together his work schedule would help keep us honest. He works a couple 12 hour days and maaaan it sucks, but when he gets back here its so nice.
This is all so new to me that I dont like keeping it honest lol I dont want to keep it honest. But life is making us do the work. He will be moving to his new apartment July 1st if everything goes as planned. He also is getting a couch that will pull out so that Mae and I can stay. I think I'm going to ask for a couple days off at work so that we can spend a few days together totally alone lol. No mom or dad to worry about, just Mae and shes part of the package so it would be what real life is like together.
I told him tonight though i dont know if im going to like staying at his place because there really won't be a reason for us to leave except for me to go to work. Hell he even said he would help me with gas so we can make the 45 minute drive to be with him. WTH lol I cant even get the kids dad to pony up gas money for her to visit and this man who also has child support to pay, and a car to pay for and insurance is able to and willing to pay for us to be able to be with him.
How the hell did this happen? Oh wait thats right! I DONT CARE! Because I deserve this! I wish I would have been smart enough to check out my other relationships online(well the ones where it was available technology lol) it would have maybe saved me some heartache. Ok who am I kidding lol i probably would have done it anyways. But this guy lol traffic tickets and nothing on the sex offender registry. Sweeeet!
I have a very bad feeling lol that once we start spending time with him alone alone, Mae and I wont be home very often. It just seems so right! It feels so right!
So because im greedy, selfish, whiny, and clingy lol I invited him over for supper after he gets off work on Thursday. OMG i have to fucking make gravy because he wants like a hot beef sandwhich lol. Maaan gravy is something I can make but I cant have lol. So because Im a good girlfriend lol Ill be making gravy for him lol.
Did I mention that he really likes my cooking lol. So much so that Monday he had an Al Bundy moment lol. Pants had to be undone and then he tried to nap in the chair lol.
Ok so it's late and tomorrow has already gotten here lol and there is lots to do tomorrow. Hope everyone is doing good and I will try to not be such a neglectful friend. So ill be texting or calling and leaving stupid messages Brenda Dawn lol beware lol Oh and my texts only vibrate the phone so you are welcome to text anytime you want and if i hear it ill answer if not lol ill get it in the morning. Thanks for your support and opinions on this because my girlfriends opinions mean a lot!
Monday, June 13, 2011
Are you sick of me yet lol
It was another great weekend. Seriously sucks when Monday rolls around and he goes back home. We have gotten really attached to each other. I know it seems quick, but after a good girl session with my friend...i know its ok. Sometimes it just happens like this and there isn't anything you can do to stop it. And for that matter you don't want to stop it.
I am totally loving the fact that I don't have any fear of him. I have never had that, I have never felt that my Man would stand by me, up for me, and not try to hurt me and tear me down. I know I'm a broken record but I really don't care. I am totally enjoying myself.
I do know that I did it right by not having sex with him right away. I think that gave us a little time to see that we can hang out, go out, and be together and have fun. It's not based on sex. Like he keeps telling me sex is the bonus. And the sex is pretty darn good lol. We are at that jackrabbit stage lol where you just can't get enough of each other. Wake each other up at 3am and pray that the dvd player doesnt stop working lol.
Mae is pretty happy with all of this too. So happy that he looked at me and said he didn't know who was more attached to him me or her lol. Last night we were all three cuddled up on the couch watching a movie before she went to bed. I sent her to go potty and she comes back and says hi mom, hi dad....he didn't freak! He said to her patience Mae lol and then we both went shes 5 she cant help herself lol. Hell she all but applauded today when we shared a kiss lol. She is benefitting from this short relationship as much as I am.
We have already worked through one issue and done it the right way. He was very flattered that I was jealous but appreciated the fact that I came to the right conclusion. Im surprised that I did lol because usually I let my emotions kill me lol. But the bottom line was whatever was going on in his life before me, is just that, before me! Its the after that I get to have a say in lol.
And I'm pretty sure he's half in love with me lol. He almost said it tonight before he left. We have been saying I like you to each other because well its more appropriate and way less scary to say. And tonight he went to say i like you and almost slipped. I think he was worried what I would think because its so soon.
HOWEVER as my girl session revealed sometimes this is just how it happens! You cant control it.
I just really really am happy. Im glad that i got to a place in my life that im happy with me. Im glad that I took the chance and asked him to meet me at the bar. Im happy that I said yes to going out on that first, second, and third date. Im glad that he is who he is. I have found what so far seems to be the most real man ever.
I cant help smiling. This is the first time everything seems right, even if it is moving faster then we both wanted it to lol. He is someone i think who will help make my and Mae's life complete, who will be a helpmate and a friend. And i am soo in like that its bordering very closely on love.
Who gives a crap that its fast! Sometimes it happens and we were both lucky to be in a good place to find each other. And yes at church yesterday I thanked god for sending me this man and for it being a good man. My friend said maybe it was Grandpa who sent him to me and maybe it was. But whoever whatever I am greatful and thankful!
And to prove what a great guy he is lol he cut my grass in the backyard, appreciates the little things, and basically is pushing all the right buttons in the best way possible!
I am totally loving the fact that I don't have any fear of him. I have never had that, I have never felt that my Man would stand by me, up for me, and not try to hurt me and tear me down. I know I'm a broken record but I really don't care. I am totally enjoying myself.
I do know that I did it right by not having sex with him right away. I think that gave us a little time to see that we can hang out, go out, and be together and have fun. It's not based on sex. Like he keeps telling me sex is the bonus. And the sex is pretty darn good lol. We are at that jackrabbit stage lol where you just can't get enough of each other. Wake each other up at 3am and pray that the dvd player doesnt stop working lol.
Mae is pretty happy with all of this too. So happy that he looked at me and said he didn't know who was more attached to him me or her lol. Last night we were all three cuddled up on the couch watching a movie before she went to bed. I sent her to go potty and she comes back and says hi mom, hi dad....he didn't freak! He said to her patience Mae lol and then we both went shes 5 she cant help herself lol. Hell she all but applauded today when we shared a kiss lol. She is benefitting from this short relationship as much as I am.
We have already worked through one issue and done it the right way. He was very flattered that I was jealous but appreciated the fact that I came to the right conclusion. Im surprised that I did lol because usually I let my emotions kill me lol. But the bottom line was whatever was going on in his life before me, is just that, before me! Its the after that I get to have a say in lol.
And I'm pretty sure he's half in love with me lol. He almost said it tonight before he left. We have been saying I like you to each other because well its more appropriate and way less scary to say. And tonight he went to say i like you and almost slipped. I think he was worried what I would think because its so soon.
HOWEVER as my girl session revealed sometimes this is just how it happens! You cant control it.
I just really really am happy. Im glad that i got to a place in my life that im happy with me. Im glad that I took the chance and asked him to meet me at the bar. Im happy that I said yes to going out on that first, second, and third date. Im glad that he is who he is. I have found what so far seems to be the most real man ever.
I cant help smiling. This is the first time everything seems right, even if it is moving faster then we both wanted it to lol. He is someone i think who will help make my and Mae's life complete, who will be a helpmate and a friend. And i am soo in like that its bordering very closely on love.
Who gives a crap that its fast! Sometimes it happens and we were both lucky to be in a good place to find each other. And yes at church yesterday I thanked god for sending me this man and for it being a good man. My friend said maybe it was Grandpa who sent him to me and maybe it was. But whoever whatever I am greatful and thankful!
And to prove what a great guy he is lol he cut my grass in the backyard, appreciates the little things, and basically is pushing all the right buttons in the best way possible!
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Sooo seriously Stupid lol
Seriously seriously I am stupidly happy! Its moving fast but damn we are still in the honeymoon phase lol. The middle is where you want to get to, put I dont think im in that big a hurry to get there lol.
We are so bad with each other! We just want to spend as much time with each other as possible gas prices be damned lol. His mom is starting to get on him about him having enough gas to get back n forth to work because he is spending so much time here lol and my mom is sick of hearing about him lol.
My friends are deliriously happy for me because I AM SO DAMNED STUPID! Hell Ive got a girlfriend coming over here in a little bit so we can be girly and stupid lol.
I know this kind of happiness doesnt last, it evolves into something different. But never have I felt this happy with a man. I dont have any fear he is going to hit me, he has money to come see me, and hell he genuinly likes my kid.
Yes I know I keep repeating myself but i just cant belive that after all the douchebags I was with, finally a good one has come out! AND that list of things I wanted in a guy...well he has them all.
Last night knowing he was going to be here waiting I was in such a hurry to get home I totally forgot to do the small safe at work lol. Then waking up with him, god really? are you supposed to feel this way? Am I supposed to feel this way?
This morning I totally shocked him, im pretty sure by his response, because I had his lunch and his morning starbucks ready for him to go. And by ready I mean all shook up and the cellophane off it. He told he didnt know what to think lol.
Well sorry bout your luck buddy but this is part of being with me. If I'm up then Ill help get you off to work. If Im not Ill tell you the night before where your stuff is. I think he's going to like being with me lol. Ok he already does but ya know lol.
Plus i think I may have also shocked him by having the housework here done and dinner going before noon. Hell the only two things Im not doing today are cutting the grass and completly cleaning the bathroom, otherwise everything is done but folding the laundry lol.
I told my mom today that maybe i had to go through those bad relationships to be able to just enjoy this one, whether its for another week or tonight, or forever. I like being in like! Though I think its working on the other L word lol. See what having a nice guy will do lol.
My mom keeps telling me to not twist him lol but hey he already likes to pull my hair and i think he's getting into the lil pats on the ass, and he is the one who brought up the handcuffs not me lol.
It is so weird having all my needs that a man can meet being met. None of the other ones met them this well. They met some of them but not all of them. I love that he wants to be with me, hold me, touch me, kiss me, and everything else. But i really like that he likes the whole package and that includes Mae.
My friend is here so Im off to be girly and stupid lol
We are so bad with each other! We just want to spend as much time with each other as possible gas prices be damned lol. His mom is starting to get on him about him having enough gas to get back n forth to work because he is spending so much time here lol and my mom is sick of hearing about him lol.
My friends are deliriously happy for me because I AM SO DAMNED STUPID! Hell Ive got a girlfriend coming over here in a little bit so we can be girly and stupid lol.
I know this kind of happiness doesnt last, it evolves into something different. But never have I felt this happy with a man. I dont have any fear he is going to hit me, he has money to come see me, and hell he genuinly likes my kid.
Yes I know I keep repeating myself but i just cant belive that after all the douchebags I was with, finally a good one has come out! AND that list of things I wanted in a guy...well he has them all.
Last night knowing he was going to be here waiting I was in such a hurry to get home I totally forgot to do the small safe at work lol. Then waking up with him, god really? are you supposed to feel this way? Am I supposed to feel this way?
This morning I totally shocked him, im pretty sure by his response, because I had his lunch and his morning starbucks ready for him to go. And by ready I mean all shook up and the cellophane off it. He told he didnt know what to think lol.
Well sorry bout your luck buddy but this is part of being with me. If I'm up then Ill help get you off to work. If Im not Ill tell you the night before where your stuff is. I think he's going to like being with me lol. Ok he already does but ya know lol.
Plus i think I may have also shocked him by having the housework here done and dinner going before noon. Hell the only two things Im not doing today are cutting the grass and completly cleaning the bathroom, otherwise everything is done but folding the laundry lol.
I told my mom today that maybe i had to go through those bad relationships to be able to just enjoy this one, whether its for another week or tonight, or forever. I like being in like! Though I think its working on the other L word lol. See what having a nice guy will do lol.
My mom keeps telling me to not twist him lol but hey he already likes to pull my hair and i think he's getting into the lil pats on the ass, and he is the one who brought up the handcuffs not me lol.
It is so weird having all my needs that a man can meet being met. None of the other ones met them this well. They met some of them but not all of them. I love that he wants to be with me, hold me, touch me, kiss me, and everything else. But i really like that he likes the whole package and that includes Mae.
My friend is here so Im off to be girly and stupid lol
Friday, June 10, 2011
Smile
I'm really enjoying this whole having a new boyfriend thing lol. It's nice to know that I get to be there for someone when they have a rough day and want to share. I went to the store today and since it's the weekend and he is supposed to be here two nights this weekend I bought some supplies for him.
I told him that I got him something and he was all you don't have to do that. I was like but it made me happy to do it and you've already bought me a pack of smokes, dinner and a movie, and driven me and Mae around. I don't think some starbucks and hot pockets are a big deal lol.
Mae is way head over heels in love! She loves it when he shows up like he did this morning, even if its just for a little bit. When she got back from running with my dad the first thing she said is Where is he? Told her that he had to work but he'd be back tomorrow. That turned her frown right back around.
She is also enjoying mommy's new relationship because she benefits from it. She gets to have a "daddy" again and he is wonderful with her. He's already come up with a day trip for the three of us and then a trip to the movies for us. AND i never asked him, he brought up the day trip and then when he found out I was taking her to the movies he said NO I'll take you guys to the movies.
I love that its the new stage but what i really really love is that he is NOTHING like any of my past relationships and I just can't get over how lucky I am to have found someone like this. He wants to be with me and my kid, he wants to talk to me, cuddle me, make me feel good just like i want to do for him.
I really hope this continues on the path its on because for the first time in my adult life I feel like someone genuinly likes me for me and not for any of the quirks that i have that makes me ooo soo fun!
I told him that I got him something and he was all you don't have to do that. I was like but it made me happy to do it and you've already bought me a pack of smokes, dinner and a movie, and driven me and Mae around. I don't think some starbucks and hot pockets are a big deal lol.
Mae is way head over heels in love! She loves it when he shows up like he did this morning, even if its just for a little bit. When she got back from running with my dad the first thing she said is Where is he? Told her that he had to work but he'd be back tomorrow. That turned her frown right back around.
She is also enjoying mommy's new relationship because she benefits from it. She gets to have a "daddy" again and he is wonderful with her. He's already come up with a day trip for the three of us and then a trip to the movies for us. AND i never asked him, he brought up the day trip and then when he found out I was taking her to the movies he said NO I'll take you guys to the movies.
I love that its the new stage but what i really really love is that he is NOTHING like any of my past relationships and I just can't get over how lucky I am to have found someone like this. He wants to be with me and my kid, he wants to talk to me, cuddle me, make me feel good just like i want to do for him.
I really hope this continues on the path its on because for the first time in my adult life I feel like someone genuinly likes me for me and not for any of the quirks that i have that makes me ooo soo fun!
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Disappointment
I am sooo disappointed lol. And it really is my fault lol I jinxed it lol. We have kind of settled on a schedule of Friday Saturday and Sunday nights as possible sleep overs. The only time Friday and Saturday really don't work is if I have to work at night because he goes to work so early and for so long. Considering we are in the screw like rabbits stage lol having to work early and staying the night doesnt work if I work til 10.
This Friday I have off..woohoo and he was going to come over watch a movie with Mae and me and then we would go to bed. Well now my dad has to work so boohoo no Friday night! But he decided that he would come over Saturday instead and be here waiting for me; asleep or not lol in bed so we can do the things we do. No not just sex lol.
I really wish that his apartment was going to be a 2 bedroom that way Mae and I could go over more often, but it's not. So we will have to settle for what we have. And depending on where things go who knows again maybe we will move to his town. I have lots of family there so it's not like we would be alone.
I told him the universe is conspiring against us to force us to slow down lol. But when you find someone you like its hard to take it slow. I am also loving the fact that its not a lifestyle relationship. While I made a nice lifestyle girl....this is actually a bit nicer because I don't have to worry about protocols, am i doing this right, will i get punished you know all the things that make a lifestyle relationship.
BUT lol i think he may be willing to experiment lol. Though I told him that Im not with him for all that. Im with him because he's nice to me and Mae and everytime we are together we just have a lot of fun.
So i am enjoying the hell out of our honeymoon and cant wait to get to the middle....dont want to rush the new off it too fast lol.
This Friday I have off..woohoo and he was going to come over watch a movie with Mae and me and then we would go to bed. Well now my dad has to work so boohoo no Friday night! But he decided that he would come over Saturday instead and be here waiting for me; asleep or not lol in bed so we can do the things we do. No not just sex lol.
I really wish that his apartment was going to be a 2 bedroom that way Mae and I could go over more often, but it's not. So we will have to settle for what we have. And depending on where things go who knows again maybe we will move to his town. I have lots of family there so it's not like we would be alone.
I told him the universe is conspiring against us to force us to slow down lol. But when you find someone you like its hard to take it slow. I am also loving the fact that its not a lifestyle relationship. While I made a nice lifestyle girl....this is actually a bit nicer because I don't have to worry about protocols, am i doing this right, will i get punished you know all the things that make a lifestyle relationship.
BUT lol i think he may be willing to experiment lol. Though I told him that Im not with him for all that. Im with him because he's nice to me and Mae and everytime we are together we just have a lot of fun.
So i am enjoying the hell out of our honeymoon and cant wait to get to the middle....dont want to rush the new off it too fast lol.
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