Im cursed! I dont know what i did to piss mama nature off, but im cursed. Everytime i say im going to take Mae swimming either something comes up or RAIN. Once again, it was rain!

What is the deal mama nature? What did i do to offend you so much? I just want to take my little girl to the swimming pool, or hell even out to our pool once i fill it again.

Todays task was going to be draining, cleaning and filling the pool. I started last night but i wanted the ground to get a chance to soak up the water id already let out. So today i was going to get up and do it.

Its almost 9 and Mae is still asleep because its dark lol, yea its raining.

But i need to get myself to the grocery store for mayo. Not miracle whip but real honest to goodness mayo and then the dollar general for a shower cap. Today and tomorrow we will be doing mayo treatments for the nits.

It worked for Brigitte and it killed the bugs Sid had. So now its our turn!

God who really wants to make a hair salad lol. I woke up and had a text from Kimmi. She was like its a good day for hair salad, and swimming sucks or something like that lol.

Rain Rain go away!

I know ive been doing a lot of bitching lately and eventually i will get back to happier things. Im just pretty frustrated at the moment, and when people feel they need to push my buttons, i blog.

There isnt any reason to yell and scream at them. Thats exactly what they want. Well im pretty tired of giving everyone else exactly what they want. So here i vent and blog and whine and cry.

Just wait till i get to the drama of the 4th. LOL...one day my life will be carefree and things will be all good. Just keep waiting...its got to happen soon lol.

I had to make the call of shame a little bit ago. Right now im smoking what will probably be the last cigarette till midnight, if not later!

I was hangin with Mae in the living room and next thing i know She Itched Her Head! If your a parent you know the itch im talking about.

I jump up and grab Mae. I start digging through her hair. No bugs that i could see. But there was nit after nit after nit.

Oh good lord, its going on 8 oclock at night and we are now going to be up till midnight im sure.

I called Daycare, my mom, brigitte,kimmi and even the asshole.

Now here is where it gets really really interesting. The asshole couldnt understand my message, said it was static..whatever...So i tell the asshole again what needs to be done.

The asshole then tells me " i checked her head this weekend and she didnt have anything".

Yet another lie from the asshole, that or he has no idea what nits,eggs, and lice look like. And i know the asshole knows what it looks like because when we first moved to iowa we were doing 2 kids heads over and over.

So after talking to my friends the question now becomes...Why was the asshole checking her head to begin with? Most parents dont just look in there kids head unless theres a reason. Someone they know got it, a note was sent home from school, they did the itch. Now the next question is...how stupid does the asshole think i am? I mean im looking at Maes head and the amount of nits in her head didnt happen since last night at 4pm.

Even a blind fool can see whats in this girls head, but the asshole checked her head yesterday/saturday and there wasnt anything. I call bullshit and id like that question answered.

Why where you checking her head and if there was a reason to be concerned why wasnt i informed? This is one of those things you have to tell the other parent about...oh wait...i did my part!

It shouldnt surprise me anymore what a complete and utter asshole the kids dad can be. I think he has almost won the King of Asshole's award.

I picked Mae up yesterday and together we were both exhausted. She basically laid in front of the tv until it was time to go to bed. I just tried to stay awake lol. This morning we were 100% rushed because i got a call about 2 hours before i was supposed to be in to work basically begging me to come in to help open. My friend was running over an hour late to work.

Like the good friend and good employee i am, i zoomed me and Mae out the door. Suffice it to say after i got off work was the first time i was able to take a breath and see Mae.

First thing at daycare i always ask how she is. Today was a crying day. Then Mae turned her arm just right and what do i see? What looks like a half dollar size burn on her arm. WTF...i calmly asked Stacy what happened. She said she didnt know because she saw it this morning and called Brigitte to see, but Brigitte had to tell her, SHE WAS AT HER DADS HOUSE!

So im freaking out about this thing on her arm. I have no idea what its, where it came from and from the picture you can tell that a kid would have cried when this happened.

So i called the kids asshole and asked him, calmly and not yelling(which i wanted to) What happened to Mae? What do you mean what happened to her? She has this big mark on her arm...and then he started being the asshole that only he can be.

Oh i forget your the only one who can, i dont know what happened, she tried to get out of her crib, she might have done something at the playground. What the fuck kind of parent are you that doesnt see that kind of wound when your with her. What the fuck kind of parent are you that doesnt notice that your kid has fallen down. Try to play this off like its one of the normal every day bumps and bruises a kid gets.

Ive shown the picture around and everyone has said...thats not the kind of mark you get and your kid makes no noise about it.

But the asshole took the opportunity to push buttons and prove once again that my fears are founded and that he has not changed.

I wouldnt have called the asshole if it would have been a scratch, i wouldnt have called him if it would have been a bruise. This is a fucking scrape or burn of somekind and by the color it didnt happen today or last night at home.

Im tired of the assholes bullshit. If i didnt need daycare on saturdays, then i sure the fuck would be leaving the asshole behind like the other mothers did.

How hard is it to watch your kid and to know where they get this kind of mark from? Christ as im typing this Mae just ran into the wall a little bit and CRIED! So tell me that she didnt cry when that happened. Im guessing that the asshole was just being a fucking asshole when i called.

How hard is it to figure out that i dont call when i dont have to. I have no reason during the week to call the asshole. I have no reason to go to the assholes house. The only reason im ever in the assholes neighborhood is if im visiting a friend of mine who lives about 6 blocks from the asshole.

I just want my kid to be able to see the asshole and to have the relationship she wants and needs. I guess the documentation book will start growing and growing. Everything has to be documented. God....i send my kid to my moms who lives on a lake, with lots of stuff to get scratched and bumped on and she comes home fine. I send her to the assholes where its a 2 bedroom apartment and she comes back with i dont even know what it is.

To the assholes....fuck you and i hope someone scrapes,burns, or marks you!

To the other parents....we know what a normal bump and bruise is!

Will wonders never cease lol. Someone has been reading my blogs and trying to be a good boy! Have to love when that happens.

So this past week has been nothing but stress for me. Ive been up and down and around. Hell my friends were worried about me because out of everything theyve seen i have never been this stressed. Trust me they have seen it all, the good the bad the kids dad....and this one they just looked at me like they didnt know me.

Yesterday i did so much damn running around it was ridiculous. But we got everything we needed and by 430 i was praying for at least 5 minutes to sit down and do nothing.

Brigitte and i cooked up a fucking storm last night. She got the deviled eggs done while i was cooking the fideo(mexican spaghetti) and then we made the chicken mole. Good lord it was some work. But its all safely ready to go to my moms this afternoon.

Though the biggest surprise came when my phone rang during all this cooking. It was the kids dad wanting to know if he was getting her this week or next. Like i said someones been reading my blogs lol. So i was like next weekend. Then because im a very selfish and unfit parent i called my mom and said guess who called and should i let him take Mae this weekend.

Her answer was a flat out HELL YES! So DJ, who isnt reading this lol, you can thank my mother for Mae coming to your house this weekend. I was going to take her and have my fun after dark. But now i dont have to wait to have fun.

Yay mommy for coming through for me! Though i dont know if its just because its 730 that the sky looks grey or if its rain. We dont need any freakin rain lol. Though my mom lives an hour south of here so it could be nice.

Happy 4th of july and thanks for reading DJ you just gave me a weekend off!

Cool i have my following list back, must have been a glitch.

I went to the job interview today. WHAT A HUGE WASTE OF MY TIME!!!! While the pay would have been awesome and i know i would have passed everything they threw at me, there was one thing i didnt pass and that was on me!

I got there and finally got to the interview process where they told me what the job would be. Thats what i didnt pass! I am not a sales person, i am not a telemarketer, and im sure as hell not a save a sale person!

Ive had one job where i was supposed to set appointments, that lasted all of 2 days! So i knew right away that this job wasnt for me.

This was an inbound position but thats where it ended. It was for a company that sells stuff and you take a trial basis and after say 30 days you can call to cancel. My job would have been to save a sale. Basically beg plead threaten to keep them as a customer.

That is soooo not me! I know when i do a trial offer if im calling to cancel its BECAUSE I DIDNT WANT THE PRODUCT! Thats why people call to cancel.

Im not good with that kind of thing. I am however damn good at customer service where the people are calling because THEY WANT SOMETHING!

So i went in and wasted an hour of my precious time and it was for nothing. They are going to send my application on to HR and if something that im suited for comes up they might call.

God seriously, please stop wasting my time. Im glad that i took the job i have now because 2 shifts is better than 0. This week though i ended up with 3, if i wouldnt have been feeling run down on monday i could have had 4. God...i need something thats going to pay something better and ill keep holding out for it.

Ill go to work tonight, smile while i make subs and then tomorrow ill cook my ass off. Saturday ill be having fun in the sun!

Bring on the weekend...god knows im ready!

Well isnt this great! I found a glitch with blogger just a minute ago. Seems like all the blogs i was following, im not following anymore. Just another thing to add to my to do list. Luckily this is something i can do when i have some time, whenever that will be. God seriously?

So today i have my test for that other job, which i should be getting ready for lol. Im stressed about that.

Then this morning i find out that there is drama brewing for this upcoming weekend. God what the hell ever! Im so sick of dealing with bullshit that i could slap that cat, if i had one.

My time is stretched so thin that i dont know what to do. I have so much crap that i have to get done tomorrow that i dont want to deal with any bs.

Unfortunatly i will have to. I did pawn a bit of it off on another friend though. Lucky me, poor her, and it was the timing of everything.

I know im the queen of keeping it together when it needs kept together but jesus i can only do so much.

Lets just hope tonight at work is ok because seriously, i dont think i can handle one more thing thrown on top of it.

All i know is next Saturday the kids dad had better be ready to have her because if hes not there will be issues. I swear to all thats good and holy....he better pick up his end of this shit or i dont know what.

God can i please get rid of the drama lol ya know i know life is dramatic but can i get a break and get some comedy thrown in lol. OH wait thats tomorrow when me and Brig are doing tons of cooking that neither of us has done before lol.

I think that something is wrong with me when it comes to men. I mean why else to they make comments like well at least i finally got a woman back in my bed, and text me out of the blue, and just pull some of the crap they pull.

I dont know what it is about me that makes men think im deseprate for attention. I think it must be because im the fat chick. I mean we all know that fat chicks are oh so desperate and whatever that they will just fall all over any man that will give them attention.

Well at least its good to know that the lies of men still continue and at least im wise enough to know that i may be a fat chick, but i am far far far from desperate.

I think i need a sign that says....i dont want your cock, your wallet, or your time!