Seriously lol

Do most websites think we're stupid lol because I'm pretty sure that when I want to delete an account I'm sure I want to delete it lol.

Things in my life have changed rapidly. With these changes and upcoming changes I felt the need, desire, drive to delete myself from dating websites and alternative websites.

This is no longer something that is applicable to my life. While I love the lifestyle for me it isn't something I'm willing to sacrifice my happiness over. To be a healthy whole person you have to know what isn't going to work for you. I will always respect everyone's beliefs but that's it. I don't have any reason to be on those sites because I have what I need.

Want and need are two different animals and need always wins out. I need to be loved, I need my kid to be loved, I need to have support...yes I get that it's a lot of I need but it's my life so it's supposed to be about me!

Sure it would be fun to do all the things I've done again, but truthfully I really like having what I have now. I shouldn't have spent so much time looking for something that wasn't ever going to work in my life. At one time it worked for my life but now, I've grown as a person and the person I've grown into knows that what I have is right, real, and what I need.

Which brings me to the first sentence um how do i delete lol. Why should i have to email to delete why cant i just delete lol. It took me what seemed like forever to get off of the sites. However I triumphed over them and have been removed

Ya know, it didn't hurt at all getting deleted lol more people should try it!

A pictures worth a thousand words

Early

The house is quiet! But then again it isn't even 6 am yet lol. Have probably about another half hour to an hour of just plain quiet. Hoping that today is a good day at school for my kiddo! I have lots of plans today....all of them include sleep, laying down, sleep, laying down ooo yeah and probably a bit of snuggling.

Did I mention that it's my day off lol. Sadly though I start a 5 day stretch on Friday. Which includes 3 nine hour days in a row lol. Good lord help me to not roll my eyes too much at work lol.

I have three movies to watch that I'm thinking aren't going to get watched lol. I really need to stop throwing money away on movies I won't watch lol. By the time I'm ready to watch a movie my eyes are already closing and my ears are getting rid of the beep beep sound lol.

BUT today I don't have to hear it unless I decide at some point to go and return cans n bottles lol. I think I may say fuck it and just lay up on the couch or in bed all day. Hell I don't even have to take the kid to school today because I don't have my car at this moment lol.

That is the only bad part of life at the moment. Well it's bad for my friend but inconvienent for me. We're sharing a car right now because hers went tits up! So we share the gas and the keys and everyone gets where they need to go.

Well I think that its time to crawl back into bed before the house wakes up, it would be nice to have a little more sleep lol. Ok so I got 5 hours in bed and like 3 on the couch before I woke up and dragged my ass off to bed lol.

See I'm rambling again! Its early lol but hey at least now its after 6!

Shorty

Nothing to bitch about for a change lol. Ok so yes there is but that's because life happens. Today I ended up having to leave work early because Miss Mae got sent home from school. She had a complete and total meltdown at school and they couldn't do anything with her and sent her to the principals and home she came.

Work is going good. My hours aren't so late anymore and I'm getting a chance to spend more time with Mae. Driving me nuts but hey lol she's my kiddo and i love her even if shes a complete terror at times lol.

There is some news that I'm not sharing just yet; but if it comes to fruition trust me I'll fill you in.

Grandpa has come to visit my house a few times over the last 4 months. I have a clock of his that once upon a time glowed in the dark. Well it's one of his possessions that I got to bring with me. It doesn't glow anymore HOWEVER on about 3 seperate occasions it has all of a sudden started glowing. I havn't moved it, changed positions, put it in different lighting...none of the things that you could attribute it to. I choose to believe that my Gramps is letting me know he's still hanging around.

My life consists of work, Mae, and paying bills that I have no idea how I'm going to pay them lol. But I get up and go to work and enjoy my job. Hell all I have to do is show up and every two weeks half my mortgage payment goes into my account. Doesn't get much better than that.

I really really want to spill the beans but I'm totally afraid of jinxing it lol but when the beans get spilled make sure you're sitting down and have some cornbread to lap up that bean juice lol.

Ok thats it for now...a boring normal life is whats going on over here. Brenda im jealous you got your taxes done and Dawn I think you were just looking for an excuse to not have to really blog blog ha ha ha...but i do love the picture idea too bad im not as disciplined as you.

Almost a new year

We survived Christmas. Mae got her visit from Santa, just barely lol. I had to work Christmas Eve but only til 6. We had a Christmas dinner with my friend and her family. We did a gift exchange and played cards while working our way through a bottle of wine.

My friend from work came over and we all played cards and had a nip. It was a really good time.

Told Mae that if she was a good girl she would wake up and there would be presents wrapped differently then from the ones I gave her. Tell the truth I did a better job than the fatman lol, i admit i wanted to be the one remembered lol.

But she got up and lost her mind when she saw different wrapping paper.

One happy little girl was hanging out at my house that day! Then she was off to her grandparents house. Where come to find out she only made it two days lol shes coming home today because she just cant do what all the other kids do, which is sleep and stay out of shit lol.

We had our passive aggressive sperm donor visit us this year in the form of a card. Totally pissed me off. You can send her a card with some cash but what she really wants you cant give her? That cash would have paid for cab rides to get her to and from. But I forget Im such an evil beast I am the one keeping her away from him lol not the fact that he refuses to use his money and time and whatever friends he has to get her a ride to and from and to provide food for her. Whatever just means we know whats really important to him...being the martyr....

Other than that nothing new is going on. Im still waiting to see what the plans my work has for me are lol. I got pulled into hr last week and told to change my preferences for work. They wanted me to do it and fuck its a pay increase(i think) so I did. Now I just have to wait and see what happens. Good thing to have them wanting you to do something new at work kinda scary though when you know how crappy you can be lol. But i am a customer service kinda girl lol so im sure i can bs my way through it lol.

Anyways still trying to figure out what all we're doing for NYE. Several plans are viable but not real sure which route we're going but for sure we're going lol.

Happy seasons to all!

Sorry I laughed

Dawn, I'm so sorry but I had to laugh when you said your security camera was stolen. Why oh why would you steal a security camera and how do you not get caught doing that? I mean you have to walk up on the camera so you can see who it is and then get it right? Some people don't have any sense. The only problem with them breaking anything is that they would probably turn around and sue you.

Brenda, I hope you have a great vacation. I don't want to hear about 2 dollar pork tenderloin lol I just ate my last on sale one lol. I've caught up on your blog and it just makes me wonder how you stayed so long. He really needs to learn to own his shit. It's not the most fun thing to do in the world but hey ya gotta own who you are(which doesn't give people the right to be complete shits).

Ok so onto me! Still no net at home and today I decided would be library day. I had a shit ton of books at home and I wanted a movie lol. I have no money at the moment because Christmas is a bitch, bills are a bitch, and well to be truthful lol who couldn't just plain use more money. The next two paychecks aren't going to be real pretty for me. I had some kind of stomach thing and missed like 4 days of work. Not fun! What sucks most is that I've used up all my days and can't be sick again til May. I would have been ok but the dumbass that I am tried to go into work, made it an hour and then was done. Oh well! Let the talk happen. Though to be fair I actually was sick lol and when I walked into work people knew I was sick.

We put the tree up on Saturday and then realized that the cats make it impossible to put decorations on the bottom half lol so the bottom of our tree is naked and the top is dressed up lol. I've still got the wrapping to do, but I'm not really up for doing that right now lol. I think I'll wait for my friend to come over tonight to help me lol.

My friend's car broke down and we're sharing mine, we're hoping her brother will help them out with getting a new one. But from the sounds of it that's a long shot. So til they can get one we are sharing mine and my friend stays the night with us a lot lol.

Life just keeps moving along and right now I'm more excited about the possibility of tax money lol. I over extended myself a bit for christmas lol and tax money will put me back 100% straight. I have a little money that my dad is holding for me and I'm hoping to get some of that lol. That way it can tide me over and I don't get behind on bills. Hell its my money lol but its hard as fuck to get it out of the bank of dad.

Merry Christmas everyone! I hope that Santa treats you all right and the new year brings all you deserve.

borrowed time lol

Well it's the end of 2 days off for me and tomorrow starts 2 days of 7am shifts. I asked for it I got it lol time with Mae. I asked at work about earlier shifts because i just don't seem to be able to get shifts that give me some time at home. Well this next couple weeks im off by 8 every day and I'll see Mae the days I'm off before 8.

Still sitting at the library, had to come and get copies of my paystubs so I can fill out more paperwork lol. It's looking like that with Christmas getting internet at home is getting pushed to the back burner again. I get 5 sites on my phone lol email, people, myb, facebook, and the local paper lol that's going to have to do. It's been working for me for the last 3 months so why not continue lol. There is after all always the library if I need to do stuff or my friends computers if I have to do stuff.

Know idea whats going on with Mae. Took her to the doctor and she says she socially/emotionally delayed like shes 3 yrs old that way but 5 for the rest of her. I knew my kid was special lol just not special enough to get a label lol. Sometimes the label is a relief because then you can go yup this is the deal but with Mae...its still the same...thats just Mae lol.

Our house is very excited right now we have our first loose tooth. They ick me out but it's exciting because Mae is all ready for the tooth fairy. Tooth fairy will bring something cute for the first tooth then its just cash lol.

Ok so since Im on borrowed time and Mae has to be picked up really soon Im going to try to sneek a look at others blogs. I do miss reading my friends blogs and I miss blogging. Maybe Ill get my friends kid to hook my computer up at home and ill offline blog and then later flood you with stuff...eh maybe not lol

Anyways hope everyone is well and happy because we're almost shitting sunshine at our house ha ha not really but we're pretty darn good!