Well 2 hours ago almost I finished the first of the prep. Now I'm just waiting for it to finish sloshing around in my belly so I can go read in the bathroom.
There is nothing fun about prepping for this! Ive run to the bathroom several times expecting the big one and nope its a false alarm lol. Good lord whoever thought this up needs to be smacked lol.
Whatever happened to a good ol fashioned enema lol i mean its basically the same thing right lol.
Ooo i hate the gurgling Im hearing and I hate that I havnt started poopooing yet lol cuz i want to go to bed lol.
Hell i even asked my mom if she would buy me a pizza tomorrow lol but i have cookies in case she wont lol.
im nervous about tomorrow because i dont know why but i am. i want them to find something easy and simple to fix. because if they find nothing i have no idea what the hell im going to do next lol.
well I guess the nicest thing I can say about this is that Im sure Ill be about 5lbs down tomorrow lol gets me closer to my goal of my high school weight lol. Im like 8lbs away from it so yayyyy if im lucky ill be 3lbs closer lol.
Now im obsessing about food lol maybe ill go and check out the olive garden menu since I have a date on Saturday and he's paying lol. Now to figure out what to get so he doesnt expect me to put out lol
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Oh yea ya know I forgot the good part lol
Ok so Grandpa is gone, colon/endo scheduled, sick friend, family drama cuz you know there is always something...but I cant believe i forgot to be the tmi girl and share the bestest part of yesterday.....
...................WAIT....................
...............................FOR.................
...........................................IT!!!...........................
Yup, I got my fucking period! WTF? I'm on the depo shot, I have never gotten my period with the depo shot. So I'm left wondering....is my birth control working? Is there a test that can be done to find out if it is working? Because Id really hate to think I was protected and decide to do something stupid and find out ooops guess what lol yeah not on my agenda cuz you know it would be the wrong guy lol
So yea Im crampy and bitchy and just not happy lol....wtf? Seriously i had to get my period? Like I dont have enough issues right now lol did I mention that there is the date?? BUT the whole getting my period thing makes the sex issue a moot point lol
...................WAIT....................
...............................FOR.................
...........................................IT!!!...........................
Yup, I got my fucking period! WTF? I'm on the depo shot, I have never gotten my period with the depo shot. So I'm left wondering....is my birth control working? Is there a test that can be done to find out if it is working? Because Id really hate to think I was protected and decide to do something stupid and find out ooops guess what lol yeah not on my agenda cuz you know it would be the wrong guy lol
So yea Im crampy and bitchy and just not happy lol....wtf? Seriously i had to get my period? Like I dont have enough issues right now lol did I mention that there is the date?? BUT the whole getting my period thing makes the sex issue a moot point lol
Lovely
So not only was yesterday the one year anniversary of my Grandpa's death it was also my doctor appointment with the gastro guy!
Joy o Joy guess what I get to do on Thursday! Yay its colonoscopy/endoscopy day for heather! wooohooo!
And in the first sentence of this blog I had to run away because my friend called and was fucking upset and sick and just not sounding good. Where an hour before she sounded just fine. Shes throwing up again, the migraine is on day 9 and she's had very minimal sleep.
She looks worse now then this morning, she feels worse, and she is hopefully now sleeping with the 2 amitryptiline(sp) that she took, i got her set up with a cool cloth for her forhead, changed the garbage by her bed and texted her husband to let him know what was going on.
Seriously....i hate my friend is sick! But i will do what needs to be done because thats what friends are for!
Joy o Joy guess what I get to do on Thursday! Yay its colonoscopy/endoscopy day for heather! wooohooo!
And in the first sentence of this blog I had to run away because my friend called and was fucking upset and sick and just not sounding good. Where an hour before she sounded just fine. Shes throwing up again, the migraine is on day 9 and she's had very minimal sleep.
She looks worse now then this morning, she feels worse, and she is hopefully now sleeping with the 2 amitryptiline(sp) that she took, i got her set up with a cool cloth for her forhead, changed the garbage by her bed and texted her husband to let him know what was going on.
Seriously....i hate my friend is sick! But i will do what needs to be done because thats what friends are for!
Monday, May 9, 2011
HAHAHAHAHA
Seriously I try to not blog because Ive been so good about not being anywhere near a keyboard that wasn't the size of a candy bar lol that its funny that when I come to just say hey I blog and now two minutes later I'm back to blog. I told you when shit fucks up in my world it fucks up lol.
Im pretty psycho right now and its ok because heather will be back shortly she just needed to take a break for a minute.
That was me joking, scary that I can play a crazy person so well...oo wait i played with a few of them they rubbed off lol. Anyways...
So I'm broke. Flat ass broke! Bills are paid and I have a whopping 1.69 in the bank, i had 7 bucks on my credit card. I paid my itty bitty interest grabbing 15 buck payment thought id see if I had a couple bucks more than that lol yup i do lol.
The last thing I needed but really wanted lol was a credit limit increase lol. I have $222 worth of credit now lol. Maaaaan....psychogirl wants to go shopping lol. It can't happen! But hey at least I know I have some money if I need it...damn I want a pack of smokes lol back to lalala land
Im pretty psycho right now and its ok because heather will be back shortly she just needed to take a break for a minute.
That was me joking, scary that I can play a crazy person so well...oo wait i played with a few of them they rubbed off lol. Anyways...
So I'm broke. Flat ass broke! Bills are paid and I have a whopping 1.69 in the bank, i had 7 bucks on my credit card. I paid my itty bitty interest grabbing 15 buck payment thought id see if I had a couple bucks more than that lol yup i do lol.
The last thing I needed but really wanted lol was a credit limit increase lol. I have $222 worth of credit now lol. Maaaaan....psychogirl wants to go shopping lol. It can't happen! But hey at least I know I have some money if I need it...damn I want a pack of smokes lol back to lalala land
almost
I'm alive and breathing...I'm not locked up in a looney bin....I have no suicidal tendencies...But I have taken a break from reality for the moment. I'll be back soon. Oh that reality break also has included a break from the computer. The whole time I was at my moms all i checked was what i could check on my phone and it was on the charger most of the time..except for when in my hands texting like mad...ooo shit i drunken texted the date! Great I don't remember texting Dawn, but i remember texting the date. I love cheap wine, ice and oj!
Love,
Princess Ghettofabulous
Love,
Princess Ghettofabulous
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
So as you know that the minute after I post a vlog/blog my world gets tilted upside down again! Not even an hour after I posted my vlog did my world just come crashing down on me. It hurt so bad that I got in my friends car and told my mom to pick me up after Dad left for work.
I had my friends car because I went to the DR with her and her daughter was sick so it was easier to just let me take the car and come back for her later.
Anyways...so my sister has decided that Katie will not be coming to live with us. Katie doesn't even know about it yet, but my sister told everyone in Joliet. So I'm hurt and disappointed and upset and just stupid.
Went to my therapist today and my mom hates her. Because my mom thinks that since I obviously need a break i should suck it up and provide for Mae at her dads. My therapist and the rest of my friends agree I'm doing it the right way. My mom also hates my therapist because she told me to write down how much I spend in money and foodstamps at the house because my mom doesnt think im pulling my weight and I have a sweet deal living here. Um hello I give you 324 a month in cash, i put food in the house with my food stamps(plus get whatever she asks me for), since I use the toilet so much Im in charge of buying the toilet paper, oh yea did I also mention Im the maid too. So I figure I'm putting at least 500 a month in for expenses...ooo wait did I also mention that every 3 months I have to pay the whole water bill. My mom wants to know what planet this lady is living on because there is something wrong with her.
NO there isnt. I think there is a problem with my mom. Hell she said thats not what i meant when I said. WEll honey saying something and meaning something are two totally different things.
Grandpas still dead and im still a basket case. Katie isnt coming to live her. I cant tell Katie she can come because I am not financially stable enough for her to come her.
So basically were down to I'm a shit person who doesnt have a job but has kids who I am mistreating along with my mother and father.
One day I swear just one day it won't be all my fault. I wont feel like a big whine baby and maybe things will look up.
Sadly Im ready to plant all kinds of seeds into Katies head just to get her here. Make all kinds of false promises so she wants to come up here. Yup Im a selfish bitch!
Oh did I mention that Ive been sick for almost two weeks and I tried to get Mae to go to her dads house? Yup i broke down like a bitch and tried to get her over there. Guess what? No answer from him. But everyone is telling me I'm doing the right thing but when I cant even take care of her properly because Im sick and because I have all this soul crushing grief going on...pick up the fucking slack buster and help the mother of your child out. Oooo wait I forgot Im the big bad bitch and thats why she doesnt go there anymore.
Anyways...its not horrible its not all bad it just feels like it and Im starting to look forward to the day my mom says ok we have the money lets go get you a trailer and then I can be on my own with my own.
Oh yea and I have a date coming up in two weeks. Yup Im trying to date but the whole no sex thing is pretty off putting to most men lol.
Ok so my fingers are going to hurt from this but I had to do something because at this moment im not a real happy camper but im faking it like a champ!
I had my friends car because I went to the DR with her and her daughter was sick so it was easier to just let me take the car and come back for her later.
Anyways...so my sister has decided that Katie will not be coming to live with us. Katie doesn't even know about it yet, but my sister told everyone in Joliet. So I'm hurt and disappointed and upset and just stupid.
Went to my therapist today and my mom hates her. Because my mom thinks that since I obviously need a break i should suck it up and provide for Mae at her dads. My therapist and the rest of my friends agree I'm doing it the right way. My mom also hates my therapist because she told me to write down how much I spend in money and foodstamps at the house because my mom doesnt think im pulling my weight and I have a sweet deal living here. Um hello I give you 324 a month in cash, i put food in the house with my food stamps(plus get whatever she asks me for), since I use the toilet so much Im in charge of buying the toilet paper, oh yea did I also mention Im the maid too. So I figure I'm putting at least 500 a month in for expenses...ooo wait did I also mention that every 3 months I have to pay the whole water bill. My mom wants to know what planet this lady is living on because there is something wrong with her.
NO there isnt. I think there is a problem with my mom. Hell she said thats not what i meant when I said. WEll honey saying something and meaning something are two totally different things.
Grandpas still dead and im still a basket case. Katie isnt coming to live her. I cant tell Katie she can come because I am not financially stable enough for her to come her.
So basically were down to I'm a shit person who doesnt have a job but has kids who I am mistreating along with my mother and father.
One day I swear just one day it won't be all my fault. I wont feel like a big whine baby and maybe things will look up.
Sadly Im ready to plant all kinds of seeds into Katies head just to get her here. Make all kinds of false promises so she wants to come up here. Yup Im a selfish bitch!
Oh did I mention that Ive been sick for almost two weeks and I tried to get Mae to go to her dads house? Yup i broke down like a bitch and tried to get her over there. Guess what? No answer from him. But everyone is telling me I'm doing the right thing but when I cant even take care of her properly because Im sick and because I have all this soul crushing grief going on...pick up the fucking slack buster and help the mother of your child out. Oooo wait I forgot Im the big bad bitch and thats why she doesnt go there anymore.
Anyways...its not horrible its not all bad it just feels like it and Im starting to look forward to the day my mom says ok we have the money lets go get you a trailer and then I can be on my own with my own.
Oh yea and I have a date coming up in two weeks. Yup Im trying to date but the whole no sex thing is pretty off putting to most men lol.
Ok so my fingers are going to hurt from this but I had to do something because at this moment im not a real happy camper but im faking it like a champ!
Monday, May 2, 2011
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