She has healed just fine. No fluid in the ears and her throat is good. Yay for a good follow up appointment. Now we just go back in November to see how the tubes are doing. Hopefully then they are still in and we wont have to do them again.
My mom is about an hour from home! She said she cried a little when she saw the welcome to iowa sign. I dont blame her one bit. Shes been gone for a couple weeks and thats long enough to be away from home and your husband.
Baby Myah is much better! They are putting her in a car seat today for an hour to see how she handles that. Then if that goes well she will be going home tomorrow! Mom broke down and told grandpa about the babys problems and he took it well. Now we just have to wait till September to get a peek at that girl.
AND I GOT!!!! Yes i took a minute for myself and got something. My bank has green debit cards and while a debit card doesnt have any special value or meaning...its always nice for a change. A couple weeks ago at work a lady paid with a PURPLE debit card! OOOOOO i was head over heels. I wanted one i needed one i had to have one! The only kicker was the only place you could get them was in Cedar Falls. Now thats not really anything to drive too, its like 20 minutes, but im never over that way. I dont go to CF unless i have a reason to be going there. Getting a pretty purple debit card didnt seem like a good reason to waste the gas lol. Oh hell lol i could have gotten it a couple weeks ago when i took Mae swimming...DUH...cant believe i just thought of that now lol. Anyways...our doctor appointment was in CF and i thought hey i have time to kill before i have to work. We popped on over to the bank and i am now the proud owner of a purple debit card.
Funny the things that makes us happy. It really is all about the little things!
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
I blame my mother! I even told her that i was cursing her today! Its all her fault and damn it she better take the blame lol.
What im talking about this time is the fact that my mother instilled in me that you have to work! No matter what job it is, how many or how few hours, YOU HAVE TO WORK!
So i am a money hungry bitch! I cant help it! I know that without money you dont get to play! Hell as it is with pretty much a third, if not a half of my paycheck going for daycare i dont get to play much. But i do what i can with what i have.
Today is Mae's follow up appointment and i had my friends reminding me that i couldnt be money hungry today. That if the money call came in i had to ignore it. God how i tried to ignore it! I really truely did try!
But when you get a text saying i just found out my brother passed away, um, well you kinda morally have to go in. I mean how crappy would it be if someone close in my family passed and noone would work for me? I called up to work to make sure that i was able to work with whoever was working and that was cool. But then i was told the chick anytime she has to work with someone she never worked with before calls in. Hmmmm....wth? Then my friend was like well it would be crappy if it was true. I mean we have no reason to doubt it, except we all know people who will lie about a death to get off work. Hell i know people who took 3 days bereavement just because they could even though they werent on speaking terms with a person.
Here it is an hour before the appointment and i havnt even cashed my paycheck yet. Then find out that my bill at daycare is like 45 bucks and my check is only 73. Thankfully my daycare is understanding and this time instead of putting my monday on last weeks bill she will put this monday with the next one. So next week ill have to pay like 60 to 65 dollars. Im telling you for the extra few bucks this gives me, it sure sucks to watch it all go out to daycare. Especially when the kids dad doesnt want to chip in the 40 bucks for gas a month im asking for.
Hell thats cheap considering what it would cost him in cabs to get her here and back and him here and back. But who am i to bitch i mean after all he is sooo deprived and the beer he drinks really must be on his budget. Wish i had it where i had play money. BUT I DIGRESS!
Im hoping that the bug put into the boss's ear will actually wriggle and wiggle its way all in his brain. I hope that the fact that i come in at a drop of a hat will show that im dependable and reliable and willing to go the extra mile. If that would happen, damn maybe i could actually get some kind of state aid and not have to shell out as much for daycare. Im not holding my breath for state aid.... Not everyone qualifies and surprisingly i dont lol.
Anyways im just ranting and venting because i really really wanted my day off lol. I was also hoping that i would have a little more cash so i could do something this weekend. Guess it will have to be bonfire and grilling out, at least i hope lol.
God i need to get over it lol im making my life seem all depressing when its not bad, im just grouchy cuz i didnt want to work today lol.
What im talking about this time is the fact that my mother instilled in me that you have to work! No matter what job it is, how many or how few hours, YOU HAVE TO WORK!
So i am a money hungry bitch! I cant help it! I know that without money you dont get to play! Hell as it is with pretty much a third, if not a half of my paycheck going for daycare i dont get to play much. But i do what i can with what i have.
Today is Mae's follow up appointment and i had my friends reminding me that i couldnt be money hungry today. That if the money call came in i had to ignore it. God how i tried to ignore it! I really truely did try!
But when you get a text saying i just found out my brother passed away, um, well you kinda morally have to go in. I mean how crappy would it be if someone close in my family passed and noone would work for me? I called up to work to make sure that i was able to work with whoever was working and that was cool. But then i was told the chick anytime she has to work with someone she never worked with before calls in. Hmmmm....wth? Then my friend was like well it would be crappy if it was true. I mean we have no reason to doubt it, except we all know people who will lie about a death to get off work. Hell i know people who took 3 days bereavement just because they could even though they werent on speaking terms with a person.
Here it is an hour before the appointment and i havnt even cashed my paycheck yet. Then find out that my bill at daycare is like 45 bucks and my check is only 73. Thankfully my daycare is understanding and this time instead of putting my monday on last weeks bill she will put this monday with the next one. So next week ill have to pay like 60 to 65 dollars. Im telling you for the extra few bucks this gives me, it sure sucks to watch it all go out to daycare. Especially when the kids dad doesnt want to chip in the 40 bucks for gas a month im asking for.
Hell thats cheap considering what it would cost him in cabs to get her here and back and him here and back. But who am i to bitch i mean after all he is sooo deprived and the beer he drinks really must be on his budget. Wish i had it where i had play money. BUT I DIGRESS!
Im hoping that the bug put into the boss's ear will actually wriggle and wiggle its way all in his brain. I hope that the fact that i come in at a drop of a hat will show that im dependable and reliable and willing to go the extra mile. If that would happen, damn maybe i could actually get some kind of state aid and not have to shell out as much for daycare. Im not holding my breath for state aid.... Not everyone qualifies and surprisingly i dont lol.
Anyways im just ranting and venting because i really really wanted my day off lol. I was also hoping that i would have a little more cash so i could do something this weekend. Guess it will have to be bonfire and grilling out, at least i hope lol.
God i need to get over it lol im making my life seem all depressing when its not bad, im just grouchy cuz i didnt want to work today lol.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Baby Myah is doing better today! Im just waiting to hear back from my mom about what the doctor said. They had to take her to another hospital that is equipped to deal with respiratory problems. She was having trouble breathing yesterday and they tubed her. Today they have the tube out and shes breathing on her own. She also is starting to suck so they are going to try giving her a bottle. So at least thats looking up.
My sister is sore and my mom is coming home on Sunday. So life is getting back to normal.
I am seriously seriously tired! Working again and Mae who is full blast is starting to wear on me a little bit.
Yesterday we went swimming at Joys place and had a blast. Have to love a heated pool! After swimming we had supper with her. Mae did so good and ate her eggs and an ice cream cone. Mommy on the other hand felt pretty bad after eating a very greasy but good sandwhich lol.
Hell Joy and i even played bowling on the WII. Shes pretty darn good! Guess maybe i should see about a WII...ok i wont, but it sounded good lol. But by the end of the 2nd game it was time to take Mae home because she was getting pretty grouchy lol.
I stopped by brigittes last night and gave her her birthday present and then brought my tired ass home. Funny how everyone thinks that once Mae is gone im the party girl lol.
I came home and it was just a little after 10, my grandpa was like your home early. If id have known you were coming home so early id have turned the light on and unlocked the door for you. I was like gramps, i told you id be back in just a little bit lol. Guess he thought since it was friday night id be out living it up lol. Nope not last night lol. I was out by probably 1130 at the latest.
Hell my phone was ringing about 1am and i opened it and hung up. It rang again lol. I answered it and got another incredulous...your sleeping? Um yea lol i do that sometimes lol.
BUT today is the party day! Im taking it easy right now, gathering up my strength so i can go out and have it all zapped away lol. Its Brigittes birthday today and were headed up to Spicolis for drinks, bands, and fun!
Tomorrow will be hell though lol. Try being hung over and headed to a meeting at 1. Sheesh...sometimes it just doesnt pay to have fun lol.
But im in need of some time off. Hopefully it will be as fun as i hope. Im even going to remind John about it. I dont want to because of last weekend, but i will because i mentioned it to him. Also there is someone that my friend might try to set him up with. God if he does show up, i hope he puts on his happy face. I broke John and i didnt mean to. But at least im still trying to do the friend thing, i just dont think he will be able to.
Out of all my ex's, which there arent a lot, he would be only the 2nd who isnt able to be around me. At least with him its not bullshit, its just him being sad and depressing.
Soooo heres to everyone having a good weekend, Im ready for music, drinks, and a whole lot of fun!
My sister is sore and my mom is coming home on Sunday. So life is getting back to normal.
I am seriously seriously tired! Working again and Mae who is full blast is starting to wear on me a little bit.
Yesterday we went swimming at Joys place and had a blast. Have to love a heated pool! After swimming we had supper with her. Mae did so good and ate her eggs and an ice cream cone. Mommy on the other hand felt pretty bad after eating a very greasy but good sandwhich lol.
Hell Joy and i even played bowling on the WII. Shes pretty darn good! Guess maybe i should see about a WII...ok i wont, but it sounded good lol. But by the end of the 2nd game it was time to take Mae home because she was getting pretty grouchy lol.
I stopped by brigittes last night and gave her her birthday present and then brought my tired ass home. Funny how everyone thinks that once Mae is gone im the party girl lol.
I came home and it was just a little after 10, my grandpa was like your home early. If id have known you were coming home so early id have turned the light on and unlocked the door for you. I was like gramps, i told you id be back in just a little bit lol. Guess he thought since it was friday night id be out living it up lol. Nope not last night lol. I was out by probably 1130 at the latest.
Hell my phone was ringing about 1am and i opened it and hung up. It rang again lol. I answered it and got another incredulous...your sleeping? Um yea lol i do that sometimes lol.
BUT today is the party day! Im taking it easy right now, gathering up my strength so i can go out and have it all zapped away lol. Its Brigittes birthday today and were headed up to Spicolis for drinks, bands, and fun!
Tomorrow will be hell though lol. Try being hung over and headed to a meeting at 1. Sheesh...sometimes it just doesnt pay to have fun lol.
But im in need of some time off. Hopefully it will be as fun as i hope. Im even going to remind John about it. I dont want to because of last weekend, but i will because i mentioned it to him. Also there is someone that my friend might try to set him up with. God if he does show up, i hope he puts on his happy face. I broke John and i didnt mean to. But at least im still trying to do the friend thing, i just dont think he will be able to.
Out of all my ex's, which there arent a lot, he would be only the 2nd who isnt able to be around me. At least with him its not bullshit, its just him being sad and depressing.
Soooo heres to everyone having a good weekend, Im ready for music, drinks, and a whole lot of fun!
Friday, July 17, 2009
Sometimes i wish my mother hadnt taught me respect for our old people. When i say old people i mean like the great aunts, the grandmas, the granpas. You get where im going.
My mom instilled in me that you take care of them. Its what you do! You do things you dont want to do, and you do things they want. You do what you have to do to make them happy and smile...oh yea its kind of like reverse parenting.
Why am i blogging about wishing i didnt have that respect? Because Sunday at 1 after a hard night of partying with Brigitte for her birthday, we are going to show our respect!
GAWD!!! I dont know why Brigitte calls me sometimes roflmao! We talk about everything and anything. We talk, bitch, vent. Were more like sisters then friends. She does for me, I do for her. Our families have become entwined for about 2 years plus some.
She has come to my family parties, she has come to my rescue. Ive gone to her family parties, ive come to her rescue.
She has given me advice, ive given her advice. We have tried to deal with the assholes that are the sperm donors of our kids. We have dealt with health issues. We have dealt with death. We have done everything families do.
Hell maybe i should actually blame Mae for this one too lol. Brigitte said to me why do i have to be a grandparent magnet, or something similar. Thats what Mae is too lol. One day when Mae was still a daycare kid of Brigittes, her grandparents had driven down from Iowa Falls. Mae being the sweetness that she is went up to Brigittes grandpa, hugged him and told him she loved him.
That was it, it was all over! Then awhile ago out of respect for Brigitte and the old people i did something i never ever thought i would ever do! I went to a Jehovas Witness meeting.
Were catholic, even if nonpracticing, at the end of the day i believe in the Catholic Jesus. Well i had no idea what a Witness was and to be honest i still dont get it. I do know that I dont like there Jesus! He is a very unforgiving and mean one. But out of respect for my friend and her family i went to a meeting because her Grandpa was the speaker.
Well today Brigitte calls me and goes My grandpa invited me to a meeting on Sunday because hes speaking. Oh yea and he told me to invite/bring your friend Heather.
GAWD DANG IT GAWD DAMN IT!
The first thing i said is...fuck! We have to go. She about died! I told her i dont know why you tell me these things lol. She was trying to have the delusion that i would say oh no its ok we dont have to go. Though i know deep down she knew! LOL i think she may have told me because she knew i would do the right thing lol. I did lol.
So now there will be 2 hungover people at the meeting. Soooo not in with their teachings. The only reason we are going is because her grandpa is the speaker that day. Its the right thing to do. Its the respectful thing to do.
Hell at the first meeting i told her grandma that it wouldnt kill me to be there. We all need to be enlightened and try different things. But maaaaaaan i never thought that i would be invited back to a meeting! I drink, smoke, have sex and swear. If Jehova was my god i would be sooo outed!
BUT because i was taught respect, because this is important to her grandparents, because at the end of the day its the right thing to do even if its not my bag of tea, we are going. I just sometimes wish i could be the bad guy.
I just dont have it in me to help disappoint her grandparents. Hell today we are going swimming at my grandpas girlfriends living facility because she wants to see Mae and only invited us a million times.
While i dont hold a lot of respect in recent years for this woman because of the things she has talked my granpa into(driving long distances, making him tie her shoes, driving her around and around...all against everyones advice) i still have to have respect for her and my grandpa.
I have to do things that i dont want to do because its the right thing.
Respect....sometimes it would be nice to be a callous unfeeling psychopathic bitch!
My mom instilled in me that you take care of them. Its what you do! You do things you dont want to do, and you do things they want. You do what you have to do to make them happy and smile...oh yea its kind of like reverse parenting.
Why am i blogging about wishing i didnt have that respect? Because Sunday at 1 after a hard night of partying with Brigitte for her birthday, we are going to show our respect!
GAWD!!! I dont know why Brigitte calls me sometimes roflmao! We talk about everything and anything. We talk, bitch, vent. Were more like sisters then friends. She does for me, I do for her. Our families have become entwined for about 2 years plus some.
She has come to my family parties, she has come to my rescue. Ive gone to her family parties, ive come to her rescue.
She has given me advice, ive given her advice. We have tried to deal with the assholes that are the sperm donors of our kids. We have dealt with health issues. We have dealt with death. We have done everything families do.
Hell maybe i should actually blame Mae for this one too lol. Brigitte said to me why do i have to be a grandparent magnet, or something similar. Thats what Mae is too lol. One day when Mae was still a daycare kid of Brigittes, her grandparents had driven down from Iowa Falls. Mae being the sweetness that she is went up to Brigittes grandpa, hugged him and told him she loved him.
That was it, it was all over! Then awhile ago out of respect for Brigitte and the old people i did something i never ever thought i would ever do! I went to a Jehovas Witness meeting.
Were catholic, even if nonpracticing, at the end of the day i believe in the Catholic Jesus. Well i had no idea what a Witness was and to be honest i still dont get it. I do know that I dont like there Jesus! He is a very unforgiving and mean one. But out of respect for my friend and her family i went to a meeting because her Grandpa was the speaker.
Well today Brigitte calls me and goes My grandpa invited me to a meeting on Sunday because hes speaking. Oh yea and he told me to invite/bring your friend Heather.
GAWD DANG IT GAWD DAMN IT!
The first thing i said is...fuck! We have to go. She about died! I told her i dont know why you tell me these things lol. She was trying to have the delusion that i would say oh no its ok we dont have to go. Though i know deep down she knew! LOL i think she may have told me because she knew i would do the right thing lol. I did lol.
So now there will be 2 hungover people at the meeting. Soooo not in with their teachings. The only reason we are going is because her grandpa is the speaker that day. Its the right thing to do. Its the respectful thing to do.
Hell at the first meeting i told her grandma that it wouldnt kill me to be there. We all need to be enlightened and try different things. But maaaaaaan i never thought that i would be invited back to a meeting! I drink, smoke, have sex and swear. If Jehova was my god i would be sooo outed!
BUT because i was taught respect, because this is important to her grandparents, because at the end of the day its the right thing to do even if its not my bag of tea, we are going. I just sometimes wish i could be the bad guy.
I just dont have it in me to help disappoint her grandparents. Hell today we are going swimming at my grandpas girlfriends living facility because she wants to see Mae and only invited us a million times.
While i dont hold a lot of respect in recent years for this woman because of the things she has talked my granpa into(driving long distances, making him tie her shoes, driving her around and around...all against everyones advice) i still have to have respect for her and my grandpa.
I have to do things that i dont want to do because its the right thing.
Respect....sometimes it would be nice to be a callous unfeeling psychopathic bitch!
We are hoping that today is the day! My sister has been in the hospital for like a month now with a high risk pregnancy. They did another amnio yesterday and if the numbers are up from 2 weeks ago then today between 1 and 2 we should have a new baby.
My mom has been down there since the 5th of july. She is ready to come home. Brianne is ready to get the baby out and go home. We are all ready for this baby to get here.
Its been nothing but daily phone calls to find out how things are going. Phone calls that were filled with hope, then filled with disappointment.
Today we have our hopes up again. We are hoping that the numbers for the baby's lungs are up because that means its time for our newest family member to join our crazy ass's.
Hopefully today will be the day! Hell my mom and dad are missing each other. The break for them while stressful has made them i guess appreciate each other more. My nephew said he wanted his family back the way it was and my dad said he wanted his wife back.
Sometimes my dad really surprises me! Also today we are going to keep hoping that my dad will be able to transfer to this other plant. They announced a couple weeks ago that the plant he works in is closing.
My dad found out that they are taking his machine to this other plant. While the machine is going they dont know if that means my dad will be going also. We are hoping hoping hoping beyond hoping that he will be taken with. That would be such a good thing! It was hard as hell for me to find even the little job i have now. I cant imagine trying to find work at the age my dad is!
Keeping our fingers crossed for a lot of good things!
*So i just got a phone call minutes after posting this!
My mom called and now the tests wont be done till 3 pm. Also the damned doctors down there cant get there acts together. One doctor who isnt her doctor is saying one thing and her doctor is saying another. Now the numbers that they have been telling everyone for 2 weeks have all of a sudden changed. Now instead of having to be at the level they first said, now that number is higher.
WTF?? How hard is it to make a decision. How hard is it to give a straight answer. Hell thats why you have malpractice insurance so you can give a straight answer!
Seriously, i wish my sister was at a different hospital so she could get her damned tubes tied and stop having babies. She has never had easy pregnancies and they always put our family through this kind of hell.
Seriously seriously seriously....someone give us a good answer!
My mom has been down there since the 5th of july. She is ready to come home. Brianne is ready to get the baby out and go home. We are all ready for this baby to get here.
Its been nothing but daily phone calls to find out how things are going. Phone calls that were filled with hope, then filled with disappointment.
Today we have our hopes up again. We are hoping that the numbers for the baby's lungs are up because that means its time for our newest family member to join our crazy ass's.
Hopefully today will be the day! Hell my mom and dad are missing each other. The break for them while stressful has made them i guess appreciate each other more. My nephew said he wanted his family back the way it was and my dad said he wanted his wife back.
Sometimes my dad really surprises me! Also today we are going to keep hoping that my dad will be able to transfer to this other plant. They announced a couple weeks ago that the plant he works in is closing.
My dad found out that they are taking his machine to this other plant. While the machine is going they dont know if that means my dad will be going also. We are hoping hoping hoping beyond hoping that he will be taken with. That would be such a good thing! It was hard as hell for me to find even the little job i have now. I cant imagine trying to find work at the age my dad is!
Keeping our fingers crossed for a lot of good things!
*So i just got a phone call minutes after posting this!
My mom called and now the tests wont be done till 3 pm. Also the damned doctors down there cant get there acts together. One doctor who isnt her doctor is saying one thing and her doctor is saying another. Now the numbers that they have been telling everyone for 2 weeks have all of a sudden changed. Now instead of having to be at the level they first said, now that number is higher.
WTF?? How hard is it to make a decision. How hard is it to give a straight answer. Hell thats why you have malpractice insurance so you can give a straight answer!
Seriously, i wish my sister was at a different hospital so she could get her damned tubes tied and stop having babies. She has never had easy pregnancies and they always put our family through this kind of hell.
Seriously seriously seriously....someone give us a good answer!
I had planned to rail against the asshole for once again not giving me the gas money that is needed to transport Mae. Then i did something i just refused to do before.
I watched an episode of 16 and pregnant. I have seen snippets of the show before and basically i just wanted to slap these girls and boys.
Some of the things that i heard in the snippets was just soooooo...soo! I had a baby at 18 and at that age i knew that a baby changes everything. I knew that my life was basically over.
Hell the one snippet that made me just cringe was when the pregnant girl was trying on like prom dresses and was like this baby is making things hard. WTF? What did you think it was going to be easy?
At 18 i was finishing high school and had my prom dress made for me because i was pregnant and they dont make maternity prom dresses. If they ever do start making them then we should probably think about sterilization for the population.
When i had the Bug it was the hardest thing i had ever done. Being her mom was even harder. It wasnt easy and when she decided she wanted to live somewhere else it was harder yet. The years since that choice have been hard. They have been fueled by anger, resentment, sadness, heartache, and grief.
I may not have given my child up for adoption, but it was close. Harder yet was the fact that i actually parented her for part of her life.
The episode i decided to watch tonight was the hardest thing to see. A mother and father giving their child what they knew they couldnt. Being unselfish enough to be able to let go of a child.
I knew a girl in high school who did that. It was hard for her. Though it was the right decision.
Ill admit while watching what i did of the show i thought they were going to break the adoptive parents hearts. Change their minds and take the child home.
Fortunatly they did the right thing. The right thing for everyone involved. This young girl and young man knew they had no way to give their child the life she deserved. Over and over thats what i heard. When the baby was born he was saying she's going to be loved and have everything.
All those tears and yes i shed my own. It was a very moving moment. At the very end the girl said she was at peace with her decision. I think she did the best thing she could. She talked about how her life wasnt the greatest, that her mom wasnt there for her and she knew what she had to do.
I still think the show isnt great. I do think its a good thing to show someone doing the hardest thing. I saw parts of other shows where you just know that poor child isnt going to have anything but hardship. I saw kids with kids and went damn even they know they arent ready.
It takes a very unselfish moment in a persons life to let their child go somewhere else. It takes a good look at yourself to see beyond yourself. I think that at some point there is regret on birth parents parts, but as long as the child has what you know you couldnt give, it makes it all worth it.
I hope those young people really are at peace. I really hope she does go to college like she wants. And she was very right when she said that when shes older maybe then she can have her own babies.
Heres to being a real parent....its harder then you know and it lasts more than 24 hours!
I watched an episode of 16 and pregnant. I have seen snippets of the show before and basically i just wanted to slap these girls and boys.
Some of the things that i heard in the snippets was just soooooo...soo! I had a baby at 18 and at that age i knew that a baby changes everything. I knew that my life was basically over.
Hell the one snippet that made me just cringe was when the pregnant girl was trying on like prom dresses and was like this baby is making things hard. WTF? What did you think it was going to be easy?
At 18 i was finishing high school and had my prom dress made for me because i was pregnant and they dont make maternity prom dresses. If they ever do start making them then we should probably think about sterilization for the population.
When i had the Bug it was the hardest thing i had ever done. Being her mom was even harder. It wasnt easy and when she decided she wanted to live somewhere else it was harder yet. The years since that choice have been hard. They have been fueled by anger, resentment, sadness, heartache, and grief.
I may not have given my child up for adoption, but it was close. Harder yet was the fact that i actually parented her for part of her life.
The episode i decided to watch tonight was the hardest thing to see. A mother and father giving their child what they knew they couldnt. Being unselfish enough to be able to let go of a child.
I knew a girl in high school who did that. It was hard for her. Though it was the right decision.
Ill admit while watching what i did of the show i thought they were going to break the adoptive parents hearts. Change their minds and take the child home.
Fortunatly they did the right thing. The right thing for everyone involved. This young girl and young man knew they had no way to give their child the life she deserved. Over and over thats what i heard. When the baby was born he was saying she's going to be loved and have everything.
All those tears and yes i shed my own. It was a very moving moment. At the very end the girl said she was at peace with her decision. I think she did the best thing she could. She talked about how her life wasnt the greatest, that her mom wasnt there for her and she knew what she had to do.
I still think the show isnt great. I do think its a good thing to show someone doing the hardest thing. I saw parts of other shows where you just know that poor child isnt going to have anything but hardship. I saw kids with kids and went damn even they know they arent ready.
It takes a very unselfish moment in a persons life to let their child go somewhere else. It takes a good look at yourself to see beyond yourself. I think that at some point there is regret on birth parents parts, but as long as the child has what you know you couldnt give, it makes it all worth it.
I hope those young people really are at peace. I really hope she does go to college like she wants. And she was very right when she said that when shes older maybe then she can have her own babies.
Heres to being a real parent....its harder then you know and it lasts more than 24 hours!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
