Garage Sale
It's that time of year again when everyone and their brother cleans out the house and moves it to the garage! Following suit my friend is having her annual garage sale. This year I was/am a big contributor. Last night she came over and got my stuff, the whole time talking about how she is surprised I even have all the pieces.
Well when you have just one kid playing with stuff and a mom who is a pack rat lol you get all the pieces lol. I found them in the bottom of the toy box, but shhh im not telling lol.
Mae isn't the smallest of kids so I don't really stress anymore over what size the tag reads. Brigittes daughter is teeny tiny at 9 years old and that meant Mae got to play dress up today.
I went and put my resume in this morning and I ended up hanging out with Brigitte and the daycare kids. While I was there, she was still trying to talk herself into buying my toys. It helps when the toys I had were all great big Fisher-Price toys, the high dollar ones at that! Also it helps that these are toys that she wanted to buy for her daughter but just didnt want to shell out close to 80 bucks on some of them. I priced mine at 30 dollars because they were in great condition, clean, and I had the pieces.
While at Brigitte's she decided she was getting the toys and the move was on. She was trying to figure out what to do with Aly's crib and I was all like why not put her in Toni's bed since Toni doesn't sleep there. Also she already climbs out of the bed whats the difference in which bed she sleeps in. So down came the crib, the rearranging of her playroom, and it was on like donkey kong.
As the kids all ate lunch we went outside and raided the garage sale! She is letting her daycare parents in tonight to look at it and tomorrow and Friday is the sale. I ended up snagging about ten bucks worth of clothes for Mae.
She will be decked out in Hannah gear for the summer. I also was able to get her a couple pairs of pants that are perfect. Too bad the lil booty shorts didnt fit her because she looked so cute. Mae was dancing around the living room in her new clothes just having a ball! It was fun when we had to put our plain jane dress back on lol.
I also picked up some outfits for the kids dads house. Hell I was there right? I made a phone call and asked if he wanted to buy them and he was ok with it. He also is paying for half her tball pictures and the tball glove. Way to step it up!
Brigitte called him back to see if he wanted to put his stuff in the sale too, hey were trying to be civil for the sake of mae, and he was for that too. So today i get to run over there and pick the stuff up.
Then its run back to Brigittes house so i can take Mae to tball. Good lord for not having anything but Tball today its been a busy day!
Smile pretty its picture day at tball!
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Yesterday i did my friend a favor and watched her daycare kids while she took her sister for an amnio. I was in the middle of feeding one of the babies and my phone rings. Its the kids dad. I pick up long enough to say its a bad time ill call you later.
So i call him later and he says he wants to call a truce. He doesnt want to go to war with me. Um...hellllllooooo....i wasnt at war with him. I was fed up with his bullshit and his thinking he had any kind of right to treat me with blatent disrespect in turn disrespecting his daughter. Your actions have consequences. Thats all no more no less.
Obviously i wasnt sitting around plotting ways to make his life hell, plotting about getting a lawyer. And that restraining order...yea that was never a threat, which i pointed out many many times, it was reality. Reality of the situation is/was he was calling and messageing all the time. Every little detail he wanted. Well ya know what, i dont/didnt have time for that shit! Reality sucks and sometimes you have to live in it and not just vacation there.
He has decided he will pay for the tball glove and half the pictures. Way cool, thanks man! Tells me hes in therapy...good for you man...now work with it! I dont know how long hes been in therapy but its my unprofessional opinion that he needs a lot more of it. I was listening to him speak and i could hear whatever professional help he is getting come out, but always at the end of something where i thought there was a breakthrough...was all the same old crap.
Good lord, this man actually thinks i wanted to take his daughter from him. Hellooo....all ive ever said to my friends is that i dont get that choice. She knows her father, she loves her father, and wants to be with her father. Im the one though who has to decide if its right or wrong for her to be over there after any given outburst.
Id love to be able to throw a pity party about Mae, but i dont get to. Im the parent, im responsible, i have to be in control of not only me, but her. I think that once you realize its not all about you anymore then you become a better parent.
I know im a better parent this time around because ive figure lots of the little things out.
Like you dont involve people with your life who dont have your best interests at heart. You dont condone other peoples behaviors. And you certainly dont do a myriad of other things that im too lazy to write about.
He told me he has been leaving comments and shit for me, what part of i dont think anything is about me doesnt apply. Hell i know he hasnt deleted me from his messanger like ive done him, because he knew about the ball and bat i wanted for Mae. He also went on to inform me that the psycho was telling him that i was bragging about Mae calling someone else daddy.
That is the precise reason i told him to not talk to that psycho about Mae and me. I have never bragged about Mae calling anyone daddy because she only calls one person daddy. But some people think that they have the right to interfere in absolutely everything because they are unhappy.
Again funny that im the one who was thought to be at war, but the war was all one sided with help from his friends. Im the one who was pissed off because he should have been able to control himself and wasnt, resulting in visitation being cut. Ya know they do that shit in court too! If you start being abusive and stuff the court will cut your visitation too.
I dont know why he thinks im stupid, why he thinks im not looking out for Maes best interests, and i certainly dont know why he thinks im out to get him. It just really is irritating knowing that you have been trying to do the right thing and no matter how far you bend....your the one who is psycho, irrational, mean, bad, whatever ya know?
So im going to do my best to believe someone who for 5 years consistently lied to me is trying to get his life together for the sake of my kiddo, its all i can do. You know when it blows up in my face ill be back blogging about how stupid i was YET AGAIN!
Heres to people actually moving on in their life and remembering that not everyone on the internet is looking out for you, there mostly looking for free entertainment!
So i call him later and he says he wants to call a truce. He doesnt want to go to war with me. Um...hellllllooooo....i wasnt at war with him. I was fed up with his bullshit and his thinking he had any kind of right to treat me with blatent disrespect in turn disrespecting his daughter. Your actions have consequences. Thats all no more no less.
Obviously i wasnt sitting around plotting ways to make his life hell, plotting about getting a lawyer. And that restraining order...yea that was never a threat, which i pointed out many many times, it was reality. Reality of the situation is/was he was calling and messageing all the time. Every little detail he wanted. Well ya know what, i dont/didnt have time for that shit! Reality sucks and sometimes you have to live in it and not just vacation there.
He has decided he will pay for the tball glove and half the pictures. Way cool, thanks man! Tells me hes in therapy...good for you man...now work with it! I dont know how long hes been in therapy but its my unprofessional opinion that he needs a lot more of it. I was listening to him speak and i could hear whatever professional help he is getting come out, but always at the end of something where i thought there was a breakthrough...was all the same old crap.
Good lord, this man actually thinks i wanted to take his daughter from him. Hellooo....all ive ever said to my friends is that i dont get that choice. She knows her father, she loves her father, and wants to be with her father. Im the one though who has to decide if its right or wrong for her to be over there after any given outburst.
Id love to be able to throw a pity party about Mae, but i dont get to. Im the parent, im responsible, i have to be in control of not only me, but her. I think that once you realize its not all about you anymore then you become a better parent.
I know im a better parent this time around because ive figure lots of the little things out.
Like you dont involve people with your life who dont have your best interests at heart. You dont condone other peoples behaviors. And you certainly dont do a myriad of other things that im too lazy to write about.
He told me he has been leaving comments and shit for me, what part of i dont think anything is about me doesnt apply. Hell i know he hasnt deleted me from his messanger like ive done him, because he knew about the ball and bat i wanted for Mae. He also went on to inform me that the psycho was telling him that i was bragging about Mae calling someone else daddy.
That is the precise reason i told him to not talk to that psycho about Mae and me. I have never bragged about Mae calling anyone daddy because she only calls one person daddy. But some people think that they have the right to interfere in absolutely everything because they are unhappy.
Again funny that im the one who was thought to be at war, but the war was all one sided with help from his friends. Im the one who was pissed off because he should have been able to control himself and wasnt, resulting in visitation being cut. Ya know they do that shit in court too! If you start being abusive and stuff the court will cut your visitation too.
I dont know why he thinks im stupid, why he thinks im not looking out for Maes best interests, and i certainly dont know why he thinks im out to get him. It just really is irritating knowing that you have been trying to do the right thing and no matter how far you bend....your the one who is psycho, irrational, mean, bad, whatever ya know?
So im going to do my best to believe someone who for 5 years consistently lied to me is trying to get his life together for the sake of my kiddo, its all i can do. You know when it blows up in my face ill be back blogging about how stupid i was YET AGAIN!
Heres to people actually moving on in their life and remembering that not everyone on the internet is looking out for you, there mostly looking for free entertainment!
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
I dont get it, and i dont really want a lesson. I just want to vent that I don't get it. I'm sitting here watching the news about the local dealerships that have to close because of the GM thing.
What I dont understand is how these people own a business and the bigger business gets to close them. I'm smart enough to figure out it has to be the bigger company has its own money in it, hence, there ability to close them down.
Truthfully, I don't get it. How can you have a business for many many years, then be told today's your last day? That kind of business makes no sense to me. Its like I open up a store and buy from the store next door, they go out of business and I have to close. Ok that one didnt work because you can go with maybe they are the only place that supplies...you get where I'm going.
Like I said, I don't want a lesson. It just hurts my head to think about it. Then again, after watching the movie Country, I began to wonder how the farmers felt. They went through their own crisis and it took the government a minute to help them. Though I'm betting it wasn't on the scale of this bailout.
This is why I'm not into politics. I think to much with my heart and emotions. I can't get perspective on some subjects. Especially the ones that are just crazy. You own a business. You have owned this business for years. Then they say your closed, even if your books were letting you stay open. As in not hemmoraging money.
Oh well, I'm not supposed to understand everything.
What I dont understand is how these people own a business and the bigger business gets to close them. I'm smart enough to figure out it has to be the bigger company has its own money in it, hence, there ability to close them down.
Truthfully, I don't get it. How can you have a business for many many years, then be told today's your last day? That kind of business makes no sense to me. Its like I open up a store and buy from the store next door, they go out of business and I have to close. Ok that one didnt work because you can go with maybe they are the only place that supplies...you get where I'm going.
Like I said, I don't want a lesson. It just hurts my head to think about it. Then again, after watching the movie Country, I began to wonder how the farmers felt. They went through their own crisis and it took the government a minute to help them. Though I'm betting it wasn't on the scale of this bailout.
This is why I'm not into politics. I think to much with my heart and emotions. I can't get perspective on some subjects. Especially the ones that are just crazy. You own a business. You have owned this business for years. Then they say your closed, even if your books were letting you stay open. As in not hemmoraging money.
Oh well, I'm not supposed to understand everything.
Im sitting here tonight with my friend, i had just gotten done tagging all Maes toys for the garage sale. Shes talking to her mom and my phone rings. I look at the number and i have no idea what number it is.
I answer and the person is like heather, yea..this is danny. Im like danny? danny who. The photographer danny. OOOOOOOOO hey how ya doing man. Did you graduate from your program and are you working in your field? No why. My chiropractor needs a receptionist for 30 hours a week and if you go and apply you can use me as a reference and ill tell them how good you were at the video store and blah blah.
OMG HOW PERFECT WOULD THAT BE? Problem...i dont remember a damn thing from school lol. im hoping its stuck up there somewhere and that it comes flooding back cuz um, i need a job!!!
Ive applied for another job and now there is this job possibility. Id rather have this one! Im going in the morning to apply right away. I was also lucky this afternoon i found my microsoft office!
When my computer burped on me i didnt think to tell them to save my windows, so i havnt had office. I applied for another job that wanted a resume and i had to go to the library to do it. Fun Fun!
So i got my office installed again and i made up a handy dandy resume and im all set except for stopping and picking up a hard copy tomorrow.
Im thinking i really need to get my ass in gear and make sure to be there as close to 9 am as possible! Hell brigitte said that she would take mae to tball for me since their office closes at 6. The only thing is i would have to beg for the 2 days off for Maes surgery right up front. From what i understand though the doctor is having her own baby.
Also its a chiropractors office. It wont be as much, im thinking, as the other doctors.
I dont care the hours are 9 to 6 and you know thats got to be monday through friday. Good god, keep your fingers crossed for me!
Wooo!
I answer and the person is like heather, yea..this is danny. Im like danny? danny who. The photographer danny. OOOOOOOOO hey how ya doing man. Did you graduate from your program and are you working in your field? No why. My chiropractor needs a receptionist for 30 hours a week and if you go and apply you can use me as a reference and ill tell them how good you were at the video store and blah blah.
OMG HOW PERFECT WOULD THAT BE? Problem...i dont remember a damn thing from school lol. im hoping its stuck up there somewhere and that it comes flooding back cuz um, i need a job!!!
Ive applied for another job and now there is this job possibility. Id rather have this one! Im going in the morning to apply right away. I was also lucky this afternoon i found my microsoft office!
When my computer burped on me i didnt think to tell them to save my windows, so i havnt had office. I applied for another job that wanted a resume and i had to go to the library to do it. Fun Fun!
So i got my office installed again and i made up a handy dandy resume and im all set except for stopping and picking up a hard copy tomorrow.
Im thinking i really need to get my ass in gear and make sure to be there as close to 9 am as possible! Hell brigitte said that she would take mae to tball for me since their office closes at 6. The only thing is i would have to beg for the 2 days off for Maes surgery right up front. From what i understand though the doctor is having her own baby.
Also its a chiropractors office. It wont be as much, im thinking, as the other doctors.
I dont care the hours are 9 to 6 and you know thats got to be monday through friday. Good god, keep your fingers crossed for me!
Wooo!
I dont know if anyone reads this or not, but i write it like someone does. Is that weird? I dont think so because personally its ok if noone is reading what i write. Its not like im a writer trying to be noticed.
I just thought maybe it was a little weird that i write that way. I think that it helps me process things when i write them like that. It at least helps to get everything out.
I must confess im obsessed with blogging. I always liked to write, i just hadnt done it in so long. I wouldnt know how to write a poem if my life depended on it. Though i know i can whip one off if the mood hits. My blogs will always be personal and will always talk about my personal life.
Ive gotten to a point in my life where if im afraid to put down truth or speak truth then im doing something wrong. I dont have anyone to impress in my life except my daughter and when employed my employer. Everyone else can pretty simple kiss my tush and move on in their day.
I think the nice thing about the transition to a new blog is that you can let go of some of the bullshit from yahoo. Lets face it we all loved the drama and the ability to find the drama. I dont even know how to begin looking for interesting things on here, though im sure ill find something.
When i was thinking about drama and blogs, it got me wondering. You know all those attention whores out there, who blogged about how damn horny they are. How damn sexy they are. How they got this dick and that one. What is going to happen to our free entertainment? Where are they going to go and peddle their old tired wares?
Im sure though that it wont be hard to find them, you know how men love free pussy and all. I just wonder how lost they will feel without an audience. Having to build one from scratch.
Oh its a sad sad day for the old attention whores. Lets take a moment and mourn the loss of free entertainment.
I just thought maybe it was a little weird that i write that way. I think that it helps me process things when i write them like that. It at least helps to get everything out.
I must confess im obsessed with blogging. I always liked to write, i just hadnt done it in so long. I wouldnt know how to write a poem if my life depended on it. Though i know i can whip one off if the mood hits. My blogs will always be personal and will always talk about my personal life.
Ive gotten to a point in my life where if im afraid to put down truth or speak truth then im doing something wrong. I dont have anyone to impress in my life except my daughter and when employed my employer. Everyone else can pretty simple kiss my tush and move on in their day.
I think the nice thing about the transition to a new blog is that you can let go of some of the bullshit from yahoo. Lets face it we all loved the drama and the ability to find the drama. I dont even know how to begin looking for interesting things on here, though im sure ill find something.
When i was thinking about drama and blogs, it got me wondering. You know all those attention whores out there, who blogged about how damn horny they are. How damn sexy they are. How they got this dick and that one. What is going to happen to our free entertainment? Where are they going to go and peddle their old tired wares?
Im sure though that it wont be hard to find them, you know how men love free pussy and all. I just wonder how lost they will feel without an audience. Having to build one from scratch.
Oh its a sad sad day for the old attention whores. Lets take a moment and mourn the loss of free entertainment.
Lack of
There is lack of trust and communication with Mae's dad. Thats why i have so much trouble with her spending time with him. Now that its imperative that we speak and try to hash out some kind of working relationship, i just cant bring myself to do it. I dont have the energy, patience, or time to deal with the inner workings of what he calls his mind.
Mae is having her tubes put back in, tonsils and adnoids taken out, and while i dont need him there for the surgery, there is a possibility i will need him for a few days after the surgery. Because of the lack of trust and communication i cant talk to him about it.
There is the possibility of a job on the horizon. Thats why i asked people to cross their fingers for me. However the person who is in charge of hiring can be wishy washy at times. Well this isnt one of those times i can be flexible with wishywashy.
I have already talked to them about the wednesdays i need off by 5 or 530 the latest. I have already talked about wanting the day of and the day after the surgery off. When starting a new job its hard to do it with stuff going on.
Well i told my friend that the bottom line is i would work. I have to work. I need the money. I never intended to sit on my ass for the rest of my life. It would be nice if they could start me the week after Mae's surgery. Truth is, i can see them not doing that.
So what i wanted to do was ask the kids dad to take 3 days off that week if he could so if i get this job Mae could go to his house instead of daycare. The problem with that is he doesnt deal with change AT ALL in a positive manner. He doesnt understand that life changes, life happens, and sometimes it happens many many times in a row!
I was talking to my friend and telling her if i could find out what this guy is thinking it would be good. My girlfriends that i talked to about this have said the same thing....Oh fuck...youll be the bad guy if you ask him to take the time off and then turns out your not working!
How crazy is that? I know its a maybe, but hey it would be 3 days of vacation, though we all know thats not how he would take it. It would be taken wrong and i would have done something yet again.
I have no doubt that my daycare provider can care for Mae after her surgery. She has her own kids and has been a daycare provider for a while! I just think its shitty that because there is no trust and communication that i cant ask for this.
I cant ask for this because of our crap and his crap. I get that life happens, that its full of uncertainty and that you sometimes take time off and dont get what you want! But then again this is the same man who said he was taking a week of vacation and didnt want to see mae because he wanted time to himself.
Its a catch 22 and it sucks. Im trying to do whats best for Mae and me. Its hard when the person who is supposed to help pick up the slack is so rigid in his sense of the world. How do you deal with that? The easiest way is to just not, and thats what ive been doing.
However life sometimes tells you that you cant do that. Now im faced with the dilema of trying to figure out a way to ask this and when/if it backfires that im not the bad guy, im not the fucking bitch, im not the myriad of things i have been called.
God being a parent sucks! I know everyone gets and understands that so im not going to elaborate lol.
Ive started the accumulation of food and stuff for Mae. Yesterday i got her 12 bottles of gatorade to start, a big box of popsicles, pudding, jello, and ill be getting the apple juice and sauce, and more gatorade and jellos, but i think i got a good start.
Im not worried about the surgery(yet) but i am concerned over the recovery period! This is when the scabs form, when they get tired of not having real food, when the scabs itch and i want to make her drink.
Thats what im worried about! Surgery is the cakewalk, the recovery is the oven.
Le Sigh....such is the life of a mom.
Mae is having her tubes put back in, tonsils and adnoids taken out, and while i dont need him there for the surgery, there is a possibility i will need him for a few days after the surgery. Because of the lack of trust and communication i cant talk to him about it.
There is the possibility of a job on the horizon. Thats why i asked people to cross their fingers for me. However the person who is in charge of hiring can be wishy washy at times. Well this isnt one of those times i can be flexible with wishywashy.
I have already talked to them about the wednesdays i need off by 5 or 530 the latest. I have already talked about wanting the day of and the day after the surgery off. When starting a new job its hard to do it with stuff going on.
Well i told my friend that the bottom line is i would work. I have to work. I need the money. I never intended to sit on my ass for the rest of my life. It would be nice if they could start me the week after Mae's surgery. Truth is, i can see them not doing that.
So what i wanted to do was ask the kids dad to take 3 days off that week if he could so if i get this job Mae could go to his house instead of daycare. The problem with that is he doesnt deal with change AT ALL in a positive manner. He doesnt understand that life changes, life happens, and sometimes it happens many many times in a row!
I was talking to my friend and telling her if i could find out what this guy is thinking it would be good. My girlfriends that i talked to about this have said the same thing....Oh fuck...youll be the bad guy if you ask him to take the time off and then turns out your not working!
How crazy is that? I know its a maybe, but hey it would be 3 days of vacation, though we all know thats not how he would take it. It would be taken wrong and i would have done something yet again.
I have no doubt that my daycare provider can care for Mae after her surgery. She has her own kids and has been a daycare provider for a while! I just think its shitty that because there is no trust and communication that i cant ask for this.
I cant ask for this because of our crap and his crap. I get that life happens, that its full of uncertainty and that you sometimes take time off and dont get what you want! But then again this is the same man who said he was taking a week of vacation and didnt want to see mae because he wanted time to himself.
Its a catch 22 and it sucks. Im trying to do whats best for Mae and me. Its hard when the person who is supposed to help pick up the slack is so rigid in his sense of the world. How do you deal with that? The easiest way is to just not, and thats what ive been doing.
However life sometimes tells you that you cant do that. Now im faced with the dilema of trying to figure out a way to ask this and when/if it backfires that im not the bad guy, im not the fucking bitch, im not the myriad of things i have been called.
God being a parent sucks! I know everyone gets and understands that so im not going to elaborate lol.
Ive started the accumulation of food and stuff for Mae. Yesterday i got her 12 bottles of gatorade to start, a big box of popsicles, pudding, jello, and ill be getting the apple juice and sauce, and more gatorade and jellos, but i think i got a good start.
Im not worried about the surgery(yet) but i am concerned over the recovery period! This is when the scabs form, when they get tired of not having real food, when the scabs itch and i want to make her drink.
Thats what im worried about! Surgery is the cakewalk, the recovery is the oven.
Le Sigh....such is the life of a mom.
Greetings
I was thinking when i decided to use this blog that isnt it funny that the three blogs i have all were started because of a man. The first blog i started was toward the end of an online relationship, the second was the start of another relationship, and the third, this one, when i met a new guy. I guess then i shouldnt bitch about the lack of men in my life lol.
With that i welcome you to this new blog. As you can see the entries start about 3 months ago and since yahoo has seen fit in its infinite, obviously, man wisdom to shut us down, here we are!
Nothing is going to change with the way i blog because its the way i blog. I just hate that yahoo is shutting down the one service i use as much as i have my messanger on. I enjoyed reading all the people i had added and it sucks that im going to lose many of them in that infinite man wisdom.
Well this wasnt supposed to be grumpy it was meant to be welcoming. Again welcome and enjoy the new home.
With that i welcome you to this new blog. As you can see the entries start about 3 months ago and since yahoo has seen fit in its infinite, obviously, man wisdom to shut us down, here we are!
Nothing is going to change with the way i blog because its the way i blog. I just hate that yahoo is shutting down the one service i use as much as i have my messanger on. I enjoyed reading all the people i had added and it sucks that im going to lose many of them in that infinite man wisdom.
Well this wasnt supposed to be grumpy it was meant to be welcoming. Again welcome and enjoy the new home.
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