I'm alive and breathing...I'm not locked up in a looney bin....I have no suicidal tendencies...But I have taken a break from reality for the moment. I'll be back soon. Oh that reality break also has included a break from the computer. The whole time I was at my moms all i checked was what i could check on my phone and it was on the charger most of the time..except for when in my hands texting like mad...ooo shit i drunken texted the date! Great I don't remember texting Dawn, but i remember texting the date. I love cheap wine, ice and oj!
Love,
Princess Ghettofabulous
Monday, May 9, 2011
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
So as you know that the minute after I post a vlog/blog my world gets tilted upside down again! Not even an hour after I posted my vlog did my world just come crashing down on me. It hurt so bad that I got in my friends car and told my mom to pick me up after Dad left for work.
I had my friends car because I went to the DR with her and her daughter was sick so it was easier to just let me take the car and come back for her later.
Anyways...so my sister has decided that Katie will not be coming to live with us. Katie doesn't even know about it yet, but my sister told everyone in Joliet. So I'm hurt and disappointed and upset and just stupid.
Went to my therapist today and my mom hates her. Because my mom thinks that since I obviously need a break i should suck it up and provide for Mae at her dads. My therapist and the rest of my friends agree I'm doing it the right way. My mom also hates my therapist because she told me to write down how much I spend in money and foodstamps at the house because my mom doesnt think im pulling my weight and I have a sweet deal living here. Um hello I give you 324 a month in cash, i put food in the house with my food stamps(plus get whatever she asks me for), since I use the toilet so much Im in charge of buying the toilet paper, oh yea did I also mention Im the maid too. So I figure I'm putting at least 500 a month in for expenses...ooo wait did I also mention that every 3 months I have to pay the whole water bill. My mom wants to know what planet this lady is living on because there is something wrong with her.
NO there isnt. I think there is a problem with my mom. Hell she said thats not what i meant when I said. WEll honey saying something and meaning something are two totally different things.
Grandpas still dead and im still a basket case. Katie isnt coming to live her. I cant tell Katie she can come because I am not financially stable enough for her to come her.
So basically were down to I'm a shit person who doesnt have a job but has kids who I am mistreating along with my mother and father.
One day I swear just one day it won't be all my fault. I wont feel like a big whine baby and maybe things will look up.
Sadly Im ready to plant all kinds of seeds into Katies head just to get her here. Make all kinds of false promises so she wants to come up here. Yup Im a selfish bitch!
Oh did I mention that Ive been sick for almost two weeks and I tried to get Mae to go to her dads house? Yup i broke down like a bitch and tried to get her over there. Guess what? No answer from him. But everyone is telling me I'm doing the right thing but when I cant even take care of her properly because Im sick and because I have all this soul crushing grief going on...pick up the fucking slack buster and help the mother of your child out. Oooo wait I forgot Im the big bad bitch and thats why she doesnt go there anymore.
Anyways...its not horrible its not all bad it just feels like it and Im starting to look forward to the day my mom says ok we have the money lets go get you a trailer and then I can be on my own with my own.
Oh yea and I have a date coming up in two weeks. Yup Im trying to date but the whole no sex thing is pretty off putting to most men lol.
Ok so my fingers are going to hurt from this but I had to do something because at this moment im not a real happy camper but im faking it like a champ!
I had my friends car because I went to the DR with her and her daughter was sick so it was easier to just let me take the car and come back for her later.
Anyways...so my sister has decided that Katie will not be coming to live with us. Katie doesn't even know about it yet, but my sister told everyone in Joliet. So I'm hurt and disappointed and upset and just stupid.
Went to my therapist today and my mom hates her. Because my mom thinks that since I obviously need a break i should suck it up and provide for Mae at her dads. My therapist and the rest of my friends agree I'm doing it the right way. My mom also hates my therapist because she told me to write down how much I spend in money and foodstamps at the house because my mom doesnt think im pulling my weight and I have a sweet deal living here. Um hello I give you 324 a month in cash, i put food in the house with my food stamps(plus get whatever she asks me for), since I use the toilet so much Im in charge of buying the toilet paper, oh yea did I also mention Im the maid too. So I figure I'm putting at least 500 a month in for expenses...ooo wait did I also mention that every 3 months I have to pay the whole water bill. My mom wants to know what planet this lady is living on because there is something wrong with her.
NO there isnt. I think there is a problem with my mom. Hell she said thats not what i meant when I said. WEll honey saying something and meaning something are two totally different things.
Grandpas still dead and im still a basket case. Katie isnt coming to live her. I cant tell Katie she can come because I am not financially stable enough for her to come her.
So basically were down to I'm a shit person who doesnt have a job but has kids who I am mistreating along with my mother and father.
One day I swear just one day it won't be all my fault. I wont feel like a big whine baby and maybe things will look up.
Sadly Im ready to plant all kinds of seeds into Katies head just to get her here. Make all kinds of false promises so she wants to come up here. Yup Im a selfish bitch!
Oh did I mention that Ive been sick for almost two weeks and I tried to get Mae to go to her dads house? Yup i broke down like a bitch and tried to get her over there. Guess what? No answer from him. But everyone is telling me I'm doing the right thing but when I cant even take care of her properly because Im sick and because I have all this soul crushing grief going on...pick up the fucking slack buster and help the mother of your child out. Oooo wait I forgot Im the big bad bitch and thats why she doesnt go there anymore.
Anyways...its not horrible its not all bad it just feels like it and Im starting to look forward to the day my mom says ok we have the money lets go get you a trailer and then I can be on my own with my own.
Oh yea and I have a date coming up in two weeks. Yup Im trying to date but the whole no sex thing is pretty off putting to most men lol.
Ok so my fingers are going to hurt from this but I had to do something because at this moment im not a real happy camper but im faking it like a champ!
Monday, May 2, 2011
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
This is a picture of the guy my mom tried to marry me off to; even though she swears she didn't and wasn't trying to pimp me out lol. My sister agrees with me that my mom all but pimped my ass out lol. OMG it really was a great time and I just really want to do it again lol.
Doing this blog with only a few fingers lol so there might be lots of typos lol. Seriously I'm only using between 5 and 7 fingers lol I cant use any more. lucky for me I know my keyboard lol. The one class I excelled in in high school.
Ok so this wasn't supposed to be a blog just a picture but you know me lol. Anyways this guy is cute but besides being out of state he really was looking for a booty call im thinking lol. And no i didnt exchange any information other than my name age and that i like to dance lol he talked with our whole table and i enjoyed the fact that i was out of the fucking house and no mae to worry about lol. The man attention was nice but I was more excited about the fact I was in my new size 16 pants and I looked hot. Except my hair which as usual was a hot mess lol. So ive lost a shit ton of weight and the double chin thing keeps happening lol i hate it lol oh well, but for those facebook friends the pics are up over there. Here is the man who could have been my hubby lol when i took the pic he said...this is for our christmas card lol so he had a good sense of humor.
Ok now im going to stop because i know im going to pay for this blog tomorrow lol. Heres to Fast Eddies
Doing this blog with only a few fingers lol so there might be lots of typos lol. Seriously I'm only using between 5 and 7 fingers lol I cant use any more. lucky for me I know my keyboard lol. The one class I excelled in in high school.
Ok so this wasn't supposed to be a blog just a picture but you know me lol. Anyways this guy is cute but besides being out of state he really was looking for a booty call im thinking lol. And no i didnt exchange any information other than my name age and that i like to dance lol he talked with our whole table and i enjoyed the fact that i was out of the fucking house and no mae to worry about lol. The man attention was nice but I was more excited about the fact I was in my new size 16 pants and I looked hot. Except my hair which as usual was a hot mess lol. So ive lost a shit ton of weight and the double chin thing keeps happening lol i hate it lol oh well, but for those facebook friends the pics are up over there. Here is the man who could have been my hubby lol when i took the pic he said...this is for our christmas card lol so he had a good sense of humor.
Ok now im going to stop because i know im going to pay for this blog tomorrow lol. Heres to Fast Eddies
Thursday, April 14, 2011
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pjozgbkildg This vlog is all Michelle (miki)'s fault lol...one of these days im going to have to transcribe all these what a chore. but at least then all ill have to do is listen to myself once...Hmmm wonder if Monica will do it for me roflmao no that wasnt a hint or an ask lol that was just a funny...god i really miss blogging blogging. but at least now you guys can reread my bullshit and see where its supposed to be funny and taken lol i am such a goofball. not only do you get a vlog you get a blog lol. I love you my friends for listening to me ramble and im sorry but im just too damn broke to send yall dramamine for all the moving around i do lol
Sunday, April 10, 2011
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