Sooo I am that girl. We all know that you can't communicate via the phone. It really only works face to face.  So after a crappy nights sleep I found myself at his work before he started.

We got to talk for about a half hour.  Which was good because now I know wth he was trying to talk to me about yesterday.  I'm sooo ready to figure all this out.

I still have to find the time to go see Mae. I need to do a family therapy session but when you're getting weekends off there isn't a way to have that session. So who knows how that's going to work.

Well I suppose I should get my ass in gear and start getting ready for work.  Thank God it's only 4 hours. Then tomorrow I get to work register instead of kitchen. I'm soo happy about that because Wednesday is pizza slice day. I hate that day. But I got lucky this time.
Have a great one.

So a week from today things go back to normal. I had 3 weeks of sort of normal and now 3 weeks of crazy.

I'm not ready, in this moment, to live with him.  I'm scared out of my mind to be here full-time. 

Living with his dad has been no big deal. But I can see their relationship with me around being an adjustment for both of them.

Before with them in the apartment i had my house for at least a couple hours a day. But now it's going to be 3 and then 4. 

What the hell was i thinking? What the hell did I do? Why the hell now am I feeling like this? I wasn't scared before. I was positive before. Isaac and I aren't arguing or fighting.  The worst thing at the moment besides the driving him back to the facility at night is I'm not getting laid because mother nature sucks lol. That was the only change . It's been a long 3 weeks of hard work on everyone's part in different ways to get him home. But as much as I've missed him in bed...3 weeks without I think I've gotten a little out of girlfriend mode.

Naaa I know what it is. I'm afraid he's going to change his mind once I get my shit together and relearn how to be a "family".

Next weekend I've been asked/told I'm staying home lol. He's planning a fire...we'll see.

Ok well I think it's time to be fat and see if there's any ice cream left lol.

So I'm sitting here waiting for him to call for a ride here. Today I'm doing some kind of laundry. Then tomorrow I get to work at 5 am and watch people go crazy because our company does kwik clean and that means a month of cleaning. Then all the stores are judged. We aren't ever first but we're never last.

Sooo yeah I don't know how to be in a relationship. I'm doing ok but man is there room for improvement. Things he's explained to me I didn't know.  Like this whole consulting each other about work things. Um wth...you mean we just don't do what we have to and then deal? Strangeness to me. But he literally broke it down and I was like duh...why am I just hearing this now lol.

We're going to drive each other crazy lol but at least our crazy plays well. I picked someone who's crazy is close enough to mine lol that man if we can't do this we haven't watched enough Dr Phil lol.

Ok so it's my day off again and I'm going to at least start his dad's laundry then mine.

Ugh! So it turns out  he's that guy. The scream at the tv and get all excited because football is on. I'm sooooo excited.  I'm so not the football girl lol.

So turns out we're both nuts lol. Found the crazy that plays well with mine.  Fuck me lol.

Going to try one more time for a promotion at work. If I don't advance then I'm just going to stop trying and be happy I don't have to work 38 hours a week.

So much pressure and stress. Still chugging along. Still communication. But lots of outside our bubble things going on that are irritating to all of us.

We all 3 broke Sunday . I got hammered and paid for it by being very hung over and had to work.

Now I'm praying this interview, that has me waiting and blogging to go well. This job is permanent and pays well. He wants to work. Needs to work.  And this gets everyone what we want and need.

Ok time to research some stuff and hope I have an ecstatic man in a bit!

Oh my jesus! He found my vibrator! I got up to go to the bathroom and next thing I know I'm being teased mercilessly about it. All while I'm trying to pee I can hear it on the damned headboard or some shit . Seriously?!?!  

But I won't complain too much because I had some fine ass sex hair going on later lol. It was funny I'm laying across the bed and his dad asks him what he's doing lol. Turns out lol throwing himself on me lol. Goofy bastard lol.

I asked him how old he is in his head lol. Turns out its the same as mine lol. I think our crazy will play nice lol.

So I found a bunch of knives in maes dresser. Crazy and I called the therapist. We'll see what comes out of that.

Pretty damn sure he has a new better paying job. The interview is a formality from what he said they said. They have like 90 some openings. We had to have the talk about what shift he should pick.  Opposite shifts suck but first shift is always nice. And since I have days off during the week we would get time apart.

Tomorrow I get to see Mae!  The kids dad is giving me some of his time. Thank God!  I need a Mae hug. I miss her. She's the reason why I'm working.  The reason I do things I do. It's all to take care of that girl. 

The movie last night was horrifically awesome. I got my aggression out just watching it lol. It wasn't a bad movie. Just sad we didn't get the videos other theaters got.

Ok it's time to sleep. I have to do some serious cleaning tomorrow. 

Oh I had a great night last night.

31 was just the right amount of violence and depravity in my life.

It wasn't the biggest theater but it was almost full.

It was a special showing and there were no previews and started right at 7.

Man rob zombie IA a mad man with violence and gore.

Awesome!