http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=azElj2J2HW8 another long one lol excuse my bra lol

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Ok this is a long one. Get a drink and a snack lol...welcome to verbal diarrhea http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QMRaZHAJtpk

The Heather love continues! I really really am basking in all the attention and have no problem admitting to being an attention whore lol.

So my hand swelled up and that long blog I did wasn't injury friendly. I paid dearly for it lol but I enjoyed it! Thats why this wont be very long lol. But I'm on a bragging streak and I just can't help but be prideful and let my head and heart swell.

So you remember the text that was one thing, the kissing yet another. Today out of the blue when I was driving with my friend she just goes Youre such a good friend Heather. I was shocked lol I was off in my own world thinking something stupid lol. Caught me off guard, but I accepted the compliment and extended the same back to her because she is.

So sharing the love here ya go Dawn(brenda I havnt forgotten you, i just cant form a coherent reply to what your dealing with) here's the hijacked pic...and yes I did enjoy it lol

Ok so for whatever reason blogger wouldnt let me put the picture at the bottom probably i dont know what im doing so yea that last paragraph i even tried to cut it and move it to the top but itwouldnt let melol so yay my 2nd blog that should really be a vlog is as jacked up as my finger lol

Ohhh how I love Friday nights out! Even if it ends up being less than 2 hours out. Ahhh I love Friday night luvin from my friends. Yes I have friends who are a bit more than friends on occasion lol. The best part about those friends is that it doesn't matter to them if I'm 45 lbs heavier or lighter they just love me. But they're guys so let's be honest lol they are really digging on the new look lol. It's been several years since I was this small and I love being this size. Ideally I would like to lose only 15 more pounds because I know that I'm comfortable at that weight and I could maintain that weight. I am not going to make an unatainable goal for myself. Losing weight is hard enough I dont need the added pressure. Hell tonight I was really really really hungry. I went out to the kitchen where there were freshly bought canned goods. You know all that really shitty stuff for you lol and then some yogurt and I finally settled on a can of tuna fish. Im figuring the protein is much better than the sugar in the yogurt and othe shit in the canned stuff. I made up some tuna with all fat free dessing in the right size and then pigged out on a can of tuna lol. Anyways...so this blog is supposed to be about how loved I feel and how greatful I am that my mom relented and let her 35 year old daughter go out lol. Tonight I got a phone call from my friend. He wanted me to come out. Told him the truth I couldn't. Then I get the nicest text and probably the nicest thing my other friend has ever said to me and made me want to go out lol. My mom finally let me go out lol. Man I was up out of my chair like a shot lol. We were sitting there watching a movie when she said no and then all of a sudden said well if your going you better get ready lol. Maaan I was out the door lol. And then the loving began. I love kissing and the two friends i was going to meet are two friends who i kiss lol. i love having boys around that like to kiss especially when you dont have to worry about what the fuck it means lol. I have a hijacked picture of me and one friend lol I was taking a pic of us and when i looked at him just as i took the picture he kissed me lol. Ooo i love to kiss lol. And then on my way out I decided that tonight I would initate a kiss and see what the reaction was. Because all the other kisses had been initated by him. So I kiss him and yay he kisses me back. And it was a couple kisses....i really like kissing him lol. I dont think id like the sex with him though lol but the kissing ill take lol. And this is the text that I got that made me feel so loved and wanting to go meet my friends. Please keep in mind that a guys guy wrote this text lol and he is one of the people in all my Friday night stories lol so ya know we got some history lol anyways I wanted to share and brag and I've accomplished the bragging so now to the sharing of the text. To me it was super sweet , to you eh...you tell me lol : Him: Its Friday and I'm out early but won't be out late(said that before :)) but still feels like I'm missing someone Isn't that just the sweetest thing...or maybe it's just me. But then again he did say it outloud and then gave me a big hug lol i think he has a tiny misplaced heather crush but as long as i can still kiss him without any expectations lol Im gonna enjoy it lol Ok i need to stop babbling. But Im actually typing and it feels good to stretch my fingers lol Thanks for bearing with me as i get it out of my system.

Here's the thing about vlogging. I hate hearing myself and watching myself. Unless of course I'm in one of my picture taking moods. I keep saying that I use this to vent and get it out and that's the truth. I'm one of those people who once it's out I'm usually good. So when I get a comment on a blog I usually have to go back and read what I've written. With vlogging I'm going to have to go back and watch what I said. I've gotten a couple comments on the first vlogs and I really don't remember what I said lol. Now I'm going to be forced to watch them so I can comment. Kathleen Im trying to get to your comment but since it was left on youtube I havn't gotten to it, sorry. I like the process of blogging because I can pound the keys if I want and I can backspace and edit. But once I start talking I don't want to have to delete the whole thing and start over. Or take the chance of saying something that I want to omit for any various reason for wanting to leave a portion out; like they do on contest shows the whole it was edited but didnt effect the outcome. I'm ready to be able to do blogs more often. Right now I'm pushing myself with just this short blog and I can feel the effort in my injured area. While healing I'm just like all other patients and have no patience and want results now. I want to get it done and over so I can get back to work. I need to find a new job but I need to get back to work. Out of the house and out in public because I'm turning into the Mae's dad. I've forgotten how to behave around people lol. I keep apologizing to my friends for not knowing how to not be all waaaaaaa lol. OK so i've pushed my arm far enough time to play pogo where i just use one finger lol

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s5G_6flHQnY even though it says Saturday on the time this was actually a Friday post, cuz you know some shits going on when im here more than once a day. and until my hand is better lol i may be commenting on your blogs in my vlog because i typed one earlier today and it sucked and then there was the chapta chatka chatke whatever it is lol makes it work lol oh yea drugs are good! especially the ones you have a script for lol

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ts4tjPwzCA4 happy friday blog