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Do you remember the last time i ranted and raved about the asshole exclusively? Like devoted an entire blog to nothing but the asshole? Neither do i. I was looking for exclusive asshole rants and i said screw it after i was into early september and didnt see any.

That tells me something. It tells me that i was doing so very well in getting over the assholes stupidity that i was letting it all go before i got a chance to hit the keyboard. That it didnt matter how fucked up things were because it wasnt getting worked up over. Especially because the asshole was never going to change. Never going to do it the way it should be done. So i just let it irritate me and then it was gone. Hell i havnt even bitched to my friends. Thats how good ive been doing in not letting his bullshit bother me!!!!

I dont know how many times i have had to say this but ill say it again. I have moved on from the asshole. i have learned that it doesnt pay to dabble in that game. it doesnt do any good to bitch and moan. Ive moved on, grown. Left the asshole alone. I dont know if or where he blogs. I dont have access to his yahoo stuf. I dont have him on any websites im on, that i know of, because i havnt looked. Hell the one time i did see him on a shared website i think he deleted himself because i never saw that profile again. The only time i have to deal with the asshole is when it comes to Mae.

Lucky for me i dont have to do that except twice a week. And only for 5 minutes at a time. Im happy with that! Im all good! I know he has people over. I know he still lies about it. I have to trust that he isnt introducing her to people who are all about drama and bullshit and whats not best for her.

I have to trust him. i cant trust him. i try i try i try and when i get to a point where i think i can trust him WAAAAM fucking bullshit drama pop up!

Im not even going to go into all the little things that have irked me about the asshole. i dont need to because i cant do anything about them except hurt Mae and not let her go over there. I bring Mae home today and im checking my email on collarme and its this chick named maranda.

i know i'll probably get bitched at for this but how's everying between you and daniel? how's you daughter? she's pretty cool. and yes, i'm maranda. i was just checking on ya cause i know ya'll two(you and daniel) don't always get along so great. i wish you luck in getting along for the sake of the child.

Thats what i had to come in contact with. Why o why would she come to me? What does she have to gain by driving a wedge further between two parents who she admits to knowing have a hard time getting along. and why would she need to say and yes im maranda as if i should know who she is!! But she has met my child! The asshole has introduced her to a drama queen. One who has some motive that isnt about Mae!!!!

Why the fuck and who the fuck and seriously??? AND THEN!! When i called the asshole and said so whos Maranda...HE FUCKING LIED!! Said maranda who, i dont know a maranda....and then i was like um this is what she said and has met my fucking kid!!! He fucking backtracked like his lying ass always fucking does....oooo well that must be this friend of coops who came over and blah blah blah!!!!

Get a fucking leash for your friends! And then expect to not be held accountable for this woman trying and succeeding in pushing my buttons. Knowing enough history about his history that she would do that to him and mae. WTF who needs enemies with friends like that. Its like the other fucking cunt all over again!

I dont care if hes fucking her, fucked her or whatever. i do care that she was/is around my daughter! the asshole isnt from here so any friend he has or makes has happened within the last 3 years!! The friends i have...lifelong friends if not into decades as my friend. BIG FUCKING DIFFERENCE!!! And this person just wants to cause drama.

He denies her so obviously she isnt that important and it makes me wonder if she wants to be involved in his life so bad that she started with me. I dont know...all i know is i have been doing my own thing.

Trying to get my life to where i want it. Searching hard for someone for me that is good for me and for Mae. Its hard work and i dont want just anyone around my girl. But the asshole obviously just doesnt give a shit!!!

Seriously...it was a good sunday until the asshole and his followers happened. Thanks!

Heres to this being the last bullshit rant i have to do over the asshole and his drama queen!

**Oh and to make this day even sweeter! I started my period yesterday and am in the middle of a big set of grouchies and ouchies!! Oh yes thank you mother nature for picking this time to drop bullshit into my lap!

Ive seen it all, Dawn im sorry your head is going to explode.

ChiaObama...and it has a commercial saying something like its way patriotic to have one and show your support.

Why o Why is there that much stupidity out there. I have bought 3 chiapets in my day. None for me. All for kids who were under 13.

Seriously....ChiaObama???

Definitly not a typical blog. In a former life, i miss this part, i was a huge NASCAR fan. Im flipping channels and theres a Dale Earnhardt special on.

Now im sitting here blubbering like a baby again. They showed his win at daytona and his death. Both no matter how many times i see them bring me to tears.

I really really liked NASCAR, even been to a few races. Have a big tribute to DE on my back.

Yea, its not a typical tuesday if im sitting here blubbering over stuff lol.

Heres to the good memories!

Woooo its the weekend! I love the weekends. Its when i get to not be mommy 24/7. I live for the weekends. Even when i have to work lol. Though this going in at 11 kind of sucks lol id like to sleep more. Thankfully last night wasnt about getting all tore the fuck up lol. Just putting little holes in it lol.

I had to close last night and about 730ish i sent out a text to my friends and to "Dawn". The only reply i got back right away was from "Dawn" and that said cant i have to work. I didnt truly expect "Dawn" to be able to come out, BUT i had to at least extend the offer.

Well it was close to closeing time and then the texts came in lol. But my cousin had called first and so she was the filler lol.

But again like last weekend my one really really good friend was strange. I think that hes going through something right now but isnt talking about it. At least not to me. Im begining to think ive done something to offend hurt or belittle him. Last weekend he gave me money to basically go away. I was supposed to follow him to another bar, so i did, and when i got there he was like oh your here now, i cant get away from you. WTF??? Yea hes going through something because last night he couldnt even hang with all of us. He was all i cant do this, im on the outside, all this crap. So i dont know whats up but hopefully soon he will snap back.

Then my other friend.....yelled at me in the bar. I dont mean HEYYYYY i mean YELLLED YELLED at me. Yelled so much after he was done he goes...Thanks and wow no one said anything but a couple looks. Did i enjoy being yelled at NO, did i sit there and take it Yes. After he was done yelling i should have told him im sorry for hurting your feelings. I didnt im slow and bad lol.

He had his reason for yelling and if i hadnt thought it was a good thing for him, id have had to bitch slap him. About 2 weeks ago i think, maybe a bit more, his ex and my friend totally now have a worse relationship then me and the kids dad. Didnt think it was possible, but it is.

She had to make a hard decision that parents make. My friend isnt the bio-dad, and her bio-dad has stepped up to the plate and they are having a hard time getting that father daughter bond. Well when shes calling two people daddy, no wonder shes confused. My friend was her daddy, and im sure she will always think of him like that. But shes 4 yrs old and her biodad and family are there for her. Want to be there for her. And arent bad people. Well my friend stopped the visitation with my other friend.

She was so upset about it that she asked me to ride with her to pick up Sid. It was not a fun time! It was horrible. I was good though i only interacted with Sid because either way i was screwed.

So basically last night i got yelled at for being there and the whole situation and basically he vented. He looked at me after and was like woah! i was like its ok, i understand! He was mad at me, yes. But was his yelling anger all for me? No. Would it have been wise to interrupt him and get mad? No. He needed to yell and he needed to curse and he needed to spew hate, and he needed me to know that he thought it was shitty but i think he kind of understands why i was there.

But its ok nothing that a trip to adult land to make it all good lol.

We did have fun last night, we did have laughs, we did have jeramiah weed's and we had lipstick lol

Avon has some funkyfied lipstuff. One of the people i know from the bar had it and she put some on this biker type dude. Oooo it was hilarious. I asked to see the tube and i got it on me. OMG it made your lips tingle and feel all funny. Soooooooooo being the funny girl i am i grabbed Ty planted one on him so he could feel it lol. OOOO it was funny the tingle transferred lol and the color wouldnt leave. Him or the biker type dude. The biker type dude tried to kiss it off on me lol it didnt work.

That was a first and last of its kind of kissing at the bar.

Ohhhh we had a good time! Maybe i deserve the Nobel!

Short blog time! And i think its a blog for one person, she knows who she is lol.

Are you fucking kidding me, are you serious? Obama got the nobel peace prize?

Dawn wanted to see my signature. But i dont have a great blog to share.

I guess i could tell all the women im subscribed to on here how much yall mean to me, and how much i enjoy hearing about your lives. But thats just cheesy and with the time that it is...i dont want to be accused of it being the alcohol lol.

Seriously...it was a crap day today and the least i can do is show Dawn my signature.

Thank you all for putting up with my ass.

Heres to all those things you keep inside even when you know someone could probably use the warm fuzzies from what you have to say about them!