Still doing the blogging from the library. I had to come and get a paystub. Cant afford to get the computer fixed. Its ok to not have a computer though i miss bejeweled lol. i have facebook on my phone and can get to the rags i like to read.

Im keeping up with brenda's blog, but havnt figured out how to follow Dawns since i know she has a couple of them.

Kids dad and i are getting along as well as we do. He has stepped up monetarily so that Mae can go and do the fun things in town. I am greatful because all my money goes to bills and food. Our luxury is directv. Some of us cant live off mommy forever.

Thought we were done with his ex but after she moved to another state to be with his brother now that things arent going well shes trying to get money out of him. I told him he shouldnt engage  her because it will give her hope and as for the money his money hungry ex takes it all. She doesnt need to know what it goes for.

We went for dinner and movies, and then we went to fridayloo and listened to the band and took olive garden home.

Her adhd are out of control along with her pica. So we have been giving her half a dose to help control both issues.

My mom bought us a pool because she was going to send us on a trip but a  pool will get more use out of it.

I hurt myself bowling a couple weeks ago and of course it just doesnt want to heal on my time schedule. i cant kneel down and the muscle hurts and if i sit to long it pops when i get up, if i can get up.

But ive been going to work and doing what needs to be done. Except yesterday...i slept all day long, was up for like an hour lol. I told my friend why did you let me sleep til almost 2 thats when i start thinking about going to bed lol.

The bipolar/anxiety/depression rule my world at times and other times i cant tell if its me under control or the disease fucking with me.

And that my friends is whats going on in my world!

Ok so this is going to be pretty short. Im sitting at the library because i still have no money to fix the pc, or pay the net bill lol. As it is I'm in debt up to my eyeballs but soon will be able to pay it back.

Spent the last couple months doing a whole lot of nothing. Took care of the kid's dad while he recovered from his heart attack/pneumonia. Lost my job for FUCK and then a day later found another one.

I make more money and to get almost the same hours I have to work a different job but im now the donut girl lol. god its good to have a job even if its not what some consider great. Pays me a buck plus more an hour.

Oh and I found out through the kids dad that good ol psycho from texas is still obsessed with me and reads everything i write and those two have conversations about what i write. Pathetic if you ask me but then hey what do i know im a single working mom living on my own fighting the bill collectors.

the kids dads ex is psycho psycho. So psycho she had her son confront us and then called the police on us. Funny when we were chillin at the house we were harassing her by being in public there isnt anything wrong with her stalking him at work and bringing back stolen property lol.

Anyways life isnt horrible. cant wait for tax time that way i can get most of the bills taken care of. Plus its the kids birthday in April and she wants a party.

O and the chick is so psycho that even the kids dad gets why it might not be safe for Mae to go visit. Some people fuck it all up. 

Ok thats its time to get ready to get the kid and please dear lord get a nap....ooo wait i get up at 210am it will be bedtime lol

Orange Pee

I have orange pee...again!! It's not a uti though this time around they gave me a note for 2 days off work. It hurts so bad I writhe around in pain for at least 10 minutes. At work I made it to lunch yesterday and told them look Im off to the er I dont know if Ill be back. I could have gone back but Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan i didnt wanna and the stuff takes effect pretty quick but damn give me 3o not 6 lol.

this keeps up ill have to go to the urologist.

I think Ill be getting a change in my meds because of the tired and depression. I dont think the effexor works as well as the prozac. but what do i know. Nothing except im up im down im up im down. Works well with having to work. Lets hope they dont fire me, but ill have a lawsuit for them if they do.

And hopefully ill get the bonus this week and be able to pay the mortgage with it and then with fip ill pay all the other bills that always come.

anyways nothing else is going on except the neighbors mowing the yard looks like ill have to find some cash for my friends boy to mow mine lol.

have a great rest of the day.

Closer and closer to the start of my work week and closer to my birthday. And theres nothing going on in life except im going bat shit crazy sitting around gettting fat. one of my meds is making me gain.

nothing to do but fight all the urges and drink lots of water instead.

im bored!

bored bored bored bored! have no money, noone is doing anything and now im sitting here waiting for a phone call or for it to be med time. oh and the 803439 texts from the kids dad.

though he is paying for school pictures! And taking her for my birthday. Ive spent so much time hating him its hard to be nice to him. but i just feel theres an agenda of some kind.

But im going to try to not hate for a while but who the hell knows.

back to im bored bored bored!

So once again I am on the child abuse registry. This time though I'm not alone! As i blogged, in which i thought was realitivly safety cuz i thought people had grown up. Well DHS was here twice and the case was founded.

Those of you may rememeber 6 years ago we had a domestic disturbance and we were both arrested. I however got to stay out of jail because i was nursing Mae. The officer wrote in his report he wasnt calling dhs because of this.

Well imagine my surprise when now im back on the registry and have to have home visits from the stupid dhs.

Here's where it becomes interesting the dhs lady asks me about my blog! Asks me about giving my knives away to a friend because HE SHOWED HER MY BLOG! And then the asshole feiend innocence about it like what did you want me to do lie to her? Um helllo she has no idea it even existed. This is all after he is telling me the wars and battles are over.

And yet another lie was that he got it from Robin who thought i assume that they just had to have this as ammunition to get them to take Mae from me.

So now Ive gone private when I shouldnt have to and it pisses me off that after 6 years he is still a fucking liar and lying to me. Why lie i wouldnt lie. But the whole blog thing never should have been brought up. I already disclosed my mental status.

So im all bright shiny and pissed off! Maybe that wasnt as interesting as i thought but it sure did piss me off!

Screw This

Ok so i figured out how to get the old blogger back and I can sort of run it but facebook me your email addy's and then ill just go ahead and make this one private. And when it is Ill fill the few readers I have on what the deal is. I tried the other blog i have but i dont like it so i want to stay here.

So send me your addy and Ill add you to my reading list. But you know its gotta be good bullshit if i have to go private since Ive never had to go private before now.