Well the corporate office called me back. Took all my information and they dont see it the way i and others do. I guess then that should mean that all family trees are straight up and down. They never branch out and there are never any other families made from that big part of the tree that we all branch out from.

Oh and in answer to my hypothetical about the asshole, yea he wouldnt be able to do it either. Because Mae was in the picture. Funny i didnt know that the asshole was my family, hes just the one guy who got the lucky sperm to hit my unused egg.

So ill be irritated and ill be robbing peter to pay paul, but ill have my pictures because SOMEONE actually understood what i was saying and actually went duh i get it.

Oh yea...and ill be getting another phone call from these people. I dont know why, i already told them how rude the people were to me. And i will not be using their services EVER because once your shitty theres more than a vague possibility that the people will be shitty again.

Heres to trying to let the little shit go and Poor Peter lol.

Like a dog that wont let go of the bone, im on rant like 3 about this picture situation. Hell my mom even came up with a couple other questions that should be asked. I mean if you can only have one per promotional period, um when does the promotion end? There information doesnt have it. Why not? Um could it be because its an ongoing promotion with no end date?

So as i sat here and stewed and stewed and then got all stirred up again, another question popped into my head! What about parents who are no longer with their childs parent.

So i go in at 1pm on Tuesday with Mae and i get the special package. The asshole has an appointment scheduled for 2pm with the Mae, does he still get the special package? I mean its the same subject in them, but we are definitly 2 different families. I mean i do not consider the asshole as part of my family any longer. The only thing we have in common is MY beautiful Mae.

So does this mean that the asshole would be punished because i went in an hour earlier and used the package? Does this mean that Mae isnt part of his family?

Obviously the situation im speaking of is hypothetical, but it isnt improbable! Where does it stop? I think when i talk to my mom again ill throw that one out at her. If the stupid fuckers at the corporate customer service call me back, ill be asking that one as well.

Hell the last time Mae had pictures taken was for TBall. We take our own pictures. We do studio pictures for special special occasions! Its not like we would be there every day for a month, year, century trying to get something on them.

Heres to my inability to put this bone down, so sorry!

Its funny how one company says no way and another company says sure all we have to do is set two appointments at two different times. Jeeez i knew i wasnt insane when i was figureing this out in my head.

So after my blog rant i called Sears. They promised to call me back with an answer and set the appointment. Well 60 dollars in sitting fees later, i have my two appointments with the package price.

Funny how one company sees the difference in the families, even when the people are the same except for that 1 person who is paying for THEIR PACKAGE! Funny how their sale/promotional price is honored for two different appointments.

I still think im going to call that other place's corporate offices and ask them for their actual reasoning. Hell if it was a problem of a sitting fee, which they dont have, i would have paid for a sitting fee. We just need the package and considering its a one day in town only thing...grrr

While im not happy that 60 dollars i could have spent at the other place for pictures is now going towards sitting fees, im happy that i got what i wanted.

Really really funny how some people just spit out a scripted line, yet another company will go the extra mile, granted it was a 60 dollar mile, they went that extra mile!

Heres to that extra mile!

I stand corrected! Its been almost 3 1/2 years since there was a Katie day. God it just keeps getting better and better.

I also think its stupid that you cant set up two appointments with two different people for a package price on pictures and have the people you want in your appointments picture package. Its called being greedy fucking bastards. The studios say because the subjects are the same you cant do this. Seriously if you talk it out, its two people, two appointments, two different pictures. Yes the subjects are the same because to be family you have to be the same. BUT making 2 appointments for 2 different people where there is a difference in people for their family picture should be allowed. I mean come on...My family and my grandpas family are two different families within a family. Thats two different sets!

God it just makes me furious! 3 1/2 years ago thats the last time we had a family picture taken. Now my grandpa would like to have pictures at my insisting of course lol, but its still two different people, two different familes. Why o Why must they be such greedy bastards!!!!

Hell you know im not just going to spend the 9.99 plus sitting fee plus fees for extra persons. They are making money, dont think they arent. Hell you go to the big place i got Maes first pictures taken at. You pay the sitting fee for everyone and then you pick out a package. Doesnt matter if its one person or twenty. You can all get that package.

God the best thing about this irritation is i can put a lot of my frustration and anger at 3 1/2 YEARS somewhere else.

At least the lady at Sears is willing to make a phone call, hell she was even willing to just do it if the timing was right. Unfortunatly the timing isnt quite right! Unless of course i can figure out how to get someone to trade my friday for a different day earlier in the week.

Heres to getting One day with family.

My house is clean! All thats left is a huge pile of laundry and my room. Brigitte came over and shes a machine. Once we started we were started! I ran out to buy a broom and some sos and i came back to the living room almost done. This is why i asked for help. What would have taken me the whole day really only took close to two hours.

Its so much easier to throw things away when you have someone else with you. Im not a horder horder or anything, but i have a hard time throwing stuff away. I get it from my grandpa. He cant throw anything away. We have magazines from the 70s and there may be a few from the 60s! Its not pretty lol.

I told Brigitte if she wouldnt have been here id have found a reason to keep stuff. To shove it in another corner somewhere. Lost and forgotten, never to be used again. Seriously its hard sometimes to just throw stuff away.

But we got the house clean and later were going to a movie. My treat...no matter how much she bitches lol. Were going to see Halloween 2. Men are stupid. I dont know how many times i have to say it, but yea men are stupid. I was supposed to see this with John, but when i texted him last week to tell him the movie came out on the 28th, he said that he could go it was his vacation. Yea he was wrong lol. This week i was texting him about the movie and he was like i have to work this friday, my vacation starts next week. Um...ok you forgot when your vacation started. You totally didnt understand my texts and seriously...men are just stupid lol. So he offered for next friday but i have to work and its labor day weekend. Ive got plans all weekend long lol.

Maybe we will be able to go out another time. I just really want to see this movie on the UltraScreen and ive only been waiting FOREVER for this movie to come out. There are other movies we can go then. If he isnt in stupid man mode lol.

Also thanks to my brilliant friend Brigitte i have decided to do some adding and subtracting for Katies visit. I cutting out lunch and instead going to have OUR FAMILY portrait done. I was cleaning off the table and i picked up the pictures we had done when Mae was just a baby. I think its time we have a new one made.

Wow..you know to be honest, i think that was the last time Katie was with me alone. This was when i lived with the asshole. She came and spent the night. Wow 2 1/2 years! It makes me sad! Because i know how hard i have rallyed and railed to have time with her. 2 1/2 years since i last spent a day with MY FAMILY.

I didnt realize that until just then. I lost it for a minute there. I wonder if anyone else realizes how longs its been since we were together.That realization brought me to tears and sobs. I try so hard to not feel and to be angry about the situation. Its easier to be angry then to feel the heartache. God...it was the right decision for Katie....it wasnt the right decison for me. I have to keep reminding myself that i dont get to be selfish. That Katie is worth this and so much more.

They tell you its the hardest job and some days it doesnt seem so hard. The days its hard really suck!

Heres to parental responsibility over selfishness.

Im so exhausted lol. Man this getting up at 730 and off at 830 is wearing on me. I havnt been sleeping very well. I get in bed and sleep just wont come. Then when it finally does come im up about 2 hours later. Thank god its the weekend!

Last night im working and i get a message on my phone. "Why is your ex calling me?" I was like huh what my ex? Yea he called and i didnt hear the phone and he didnt leave a message. WTF? Why the hell is the asshole calling my friend? Unless of course the asshole has another kim in the phone and screwed up. But just like the asshole is, the asshole didnt respond when i texted asking why the call.

Heres the low down when it comes to my friends and the asshole. Only one of my friends will even deal with him. Thats because the asshole had something my friend wanted. All of my other friends CANT STAND THE ASSHOLE!! Well if your friend had been beaten and bruised would you want to associate with that person? The obvious answer is no.

My girlfriends only deal with the asshole if i need someone to drop Mae off. My guy friends wouldnt mind if the asshole fell into a hole and never crawled out.

The only person who was ever in my life that wanted to stay connected to the asshole, turned out to not be my friend but a worthless piece of flesh. Those two deserved each other. I mean come on like finds like.

Hell the asshole told my mom and my friend that what the asshole said should stay between them. LOL my friends are my friends and are loyal to me. I have heard every single thing the asshole has tried to say to my family and friends. Its hard to con a person when they have either been on the phone when things were said or when they were there. Or when it comes down to it, im not the liar! The asshole has that distinction.

Now we are just wondering who the asshole is going to call next. See what the deal is. I mean truly honestly....out of everyone who has met the asshole, only one person still talks to the asshole...well i cant say that for sure because i dont talk to the twitch lol.

Heres to friends who know what loyalty means! Gotta love the stupidity of others.

Im doing it again! Im inviting heartbreak and heartache into my life! My hopes are up and im prepared to have them dashed. Im prepared for my temper tantrum if all this happens. Im ready for the horrible gut wrenching pain that comes with disappointment.

There is a very slim possibility that my oldest daughter will come up here to spend the day with me, grandpa, and Mae. That she wont be under the watchful eye of my sister, supreme bitch, the one katie feels the need to call mom being there to make sure that nothing is said or done or whatever the hell it is she's afraid of.

Now i just have to rearrange my schedule a little bit so i can get things done before she comes up here. I have about 2 weeks to get everything settled.

My mom didnt want to say anything to me, but she did, because, in my opinion, she knew i needed to hear it. Even though she knows how i react to that kind of disappointment.

Im sorry but where katie is concerned i lose all my self control, my mind, and literally will throw a tantrum like a 3 year old i know! Yes i know its wrong, but for me, if i dont then all of it festers. Even a good blogging doesnt help.

So im setting myself up for this ultimate feeling of crappiness. Hell they all may change their minds and me getting excited is for nothing!

Ive already got her visit planned. Its been about 6 hours since i heard this news and ive got plans made in my head! Since she would be coming in for the day with my mom, that means she would be here a bit before 8. Well that means mama gets to make a big breakfast for all of us.

Ill make scrambled eggs with cheese, sausage or bacon, and have juice and milk(a combo of white, chocolate, and strawberry) all waiting for when she comes in the door.

Then for lunch we will actually go out and go up to my work for subs. Who doesnt like subs? And she can see where her mom is working now and try the bestest subs EVER.

Then after lunch if she wants we can get a movie, or we can just come back to the house and hang out.

I know it may seem like im trying to impress katie, but its not that i want to impress her. I want to mother her, and do those kinds of things that i do for Mae. She used to be treated like that, but i think shes forgotten that though i may have been the crap mom, i did have a lot of good mom qualities.

Anytime i get with katie is precious. I want to fill them with memories she will remember and maybe eat away at whatever is around her heart towards me. Hell as it is im making her a cake and buying her a birthday cake, im getting balloons and taking them to my moms so the iowa side can have Katies birthday.

Screw that not celebrating or whatever im all for whoopin it up because she deserves to be celebrated just like Mae is celebrated. Just like my mom is, just like my grandpa is!

Heres to knowingly putting myself in a position to have my heartbroken while riding the tide of excitement.